The Girl Who Dared to Think 7: The Girl Who Dared to Fight

My eyes teared up from the sting of it, and I immediately lifted my hand to feel what the damage was, moving gently. My fingers touched something hot and swollen, and I jerked my hand back with a hiss as the tender flesh erupted in pain. I took a second or two to blink against it, then looked around.

I spotted a small candle burning on the floor across from me, right in front of an open door, and set that as my first goal as I gingerly got out of bed. I had no idea where I was, but since the door was open, and the room design was one that the Citadel used, I surmised I wasn’t a prisoner. Which meant I was with people I knew and trusted. But who?

The aches in my body ran deep as I surrendered all of my weight onto my feet, swaying back and forth for a second before finding my balance. I limped over to the candle, moving at the hobbling pace of an eighty-year-old Hand who’d worked harvesting duty her entire life, and felt a rush of success for every step I made that brought me closer.

By the doorframe, my breathing had turned into a sharp pant as the line of pain against my ribs continued to tighten with each jerking step, and I paused, leaning onto the frame and pressing my heated face against the cool metal. The unbruised side, of course. I wasn’t a sadist.

As I stood there, trying to catch my breath and summon up enough energy to start the next leg of my journey, a dozen questions began to form in my mind, the first being, “What happened?” I remembered the sentinel, but what I didn’t know was how it had gotten in. I had no idea what had happened to Leo, either; the last I had seen of him, he was being dragged toward me… No, toward the sentinel next to me. The sentinel who had come in through the emergency escape shaft from above. It must’ve dropped down and crashed through the ceiling—that was the sound I had heard during those seconds when the lights had blinded me. It had blindsided me, knocking me unconscious, and then…

And then what? Where were my friends, and how did I get here?

The litany of questions was beginning to make the pain in my head intensify, so I quickly shrugged them off. The only way to get answers was to find out who was with me. I pushed away from the doorframe and stepped out into the hall, looking in both directions. There was a door across from me that was closed, but I ignored it, focusing instead on the candle burning at the end of the hall, where the living area should be.

I braced myself against the wall as I walked toward it, still not fully confident in my legs’ ability to keep me up. As I drew nearer to it, I could hear the soft exchange of quiet voices. It took me a moment to recognize them, as most of my attention was focused on getting there, but when I did, I relaxed a little bit more. It was Quess and Maddox.

I slowly emerged from the hall and scanned the living space, spotting them at a dining room table beyond the kitchen to the left of me. There were several pads lined up on the table, along with batons, my gun, a few cutters, and a lancer. The two were sitting side by side, heads pressed together as they looked at a pad, but their demeanor was grim, telling me that our situation wasn’t good.

Quess noticed me first, his dark blue eyes darting up toward me as I came around the counter. He was up like lightning, moving over to me. For a second, I tensed, expecting him to order me back to bed, but to my surprise, he simply put an arm around my lower back and held on to my arm with the other, letting me lean into him while he helped me to a chair.

The gratitude I felt for him was immeasurable, but next to the relief of just sitting down, it was nothing. My legs felt rubbery, and the pain in my head had shifted to a throbbing sensation that seemed to be connected to the beating of my heart. I closed my eyes for a second, taking a moment to regain my composure. When I opened them again, Quess was setting a glass of water in front of me, along with an assortment of pills.

“What are these?” I croaked, and then winced around the pain in my jaw.

“Nerve blockers, pain pills, a stimulant, some vitamins… Something to help you regain some of your wind. No offense, but you look like hell.” Quess spoke gruffly, his voice thick with something I couldn’t quite place, and I looked up at him, a frown tugging at my lips. I resisted it, knowing that the side of my face the sentinel had smashed would not respond well, but the fear remained.

“Where’s Leo?” I asked, my heart in my throat. “Is he…”

Quess shook his head and looked away, folding his arms across his chest. I continued to gaze at him, trying to figure out if he was telling me Leo was dead or taken, but his face revealed nothing.

“They got him,” Maddox informed me when Quess didn’t say anything, and I turned toward the tall girl to see her looking at the table, her face lined with exhaustion and sadness. “Tian got the room controls working when Leo restored the power, and she managed to drop walls between us and the bulk of the legacies, as well as the sentinels, but Leo was on the other side when the walls came down. As it was, we barely got out alive. We’re not sure where he is, but—”

“He’s with Sage,” I interrupted automatically. I wasn’t sure why I was even talking—how I was still rooted in the moment in spite of the news that Sage had both Leo and Grey now—but I was. “Sage is Ezekial Pine and has spent the last three hundred years trying to kill Scipio to replace him with Kurt. Sage needs the protocols that Lionel Scipio programmed into Leo if he’s going to kill Scipio and install Kurt.”

And now Sage had him. And I had no doubt he was going to do whatever it took to get those codes from Leo, even if it meant killing Grey and then ripping Leo’s code apart piece by piece.

A wave of despair crashed into me, and I felt the overwhelming urge to break down and cry. I wasn’t sure I could go any farther—wasn’t sure I had what it took. I’d gone through hell and back to get to him, to stop all this, only to have our one chance slip through my fingers.

And I was losing both the men I loved at the exact same time. Even if Grey was alive, he wouldn’t be for long. And as for Leo…

I squeezed my eyes shut and blew out a slow breath, trying not to give in. I could do this. Maddox and Quess clearly had a plan, and Quess had given me medication that would hopefully give me enough gas to see this through.

Opening my eyes, I reached out, grabbed the pills off the table, and began popping them in my mouth one by one, taking careful sips of water in between each. If I could, I would have taken them all at once, but as it was, I doubted I would be able to eat anything other than broth for the next week or so.

But that was the least of my worries. “Everyone else is okay, right? Where are we, by the way? Still in the Citadel, but—”

“We’re on one of the lower floors, hiding out,” Maddox interrupted softly. “But the fighting in the hall is getting worse, and our side is losing. I’m getting fewer and fewer reports from the Knight Commanders loyal to us, which either means that their runners are being taken out, or that they’ve fallen. Sentinels are beginning to pour in from the Attic, and it’s only a matter of time before we’re discovered here.”

I took another sip of water, using the action to process the bleak picture that Maddox had just painted for me. It wasn’t good. But then again, nothing about today had been. We might have to fight our way out, but where there was a will, there was a way.

Or at least I hoped there would be. On both fronts, as my will was rapidly burning out, and the way was growing increasingly dark and filled with terror.

“Then we should get everyone up and moving,” I said. We’d already been here for two hours—which was probably one hour too many at this point. “Where’re Tian and Liam? We’ll have to get them out of here and find them a good place to hide, but—”