“Ryan—”
“If I left early, I could be there around lunch. I’d stay until midnight—your grandparents go to bed early, right? And I’d be back before work the next day. I’d be tired, but you’re worth it.”
“Ryan—”
“I miss you. Don’t you miss me?”
“Of course, but it’s not a good time.”
“C’mon. Your parents can’t exile you to Connecticut. They won’t get mad if I visit. Your mom loves me. Or they don’t even have to know I came. We can be quiet.”
My eyes stalked Gyver’s back. I blushed. He was in the room during what amounted to a booty call. How I felt about Ryan booty-calling was irrelevant; there was no way I could say yes, so there was no point in thinking about how good it felt to kiss him. Or even if I still wanted to.
My door opened. It did all day, all night. I didn’t turn and look.
“I wish you could; it’s just not a good time.”
“What’s that mean?” Ryan asked.
“How’s my favorite patient today? Are you sick of the hospital yet?” Dr. Kevin’s voice boomed. I rolled to face him; his eyes were on my chart.
I held up one finger and spoke into the phone, “I’ve got to go.”
“The hospital? Did something happen to your grandfather?” Ryan asked.
“Yes.” My voice radiated relief; he’d created the perfect alibi. And technically, unfortunately, it wasn’t a lie. Pops had a nasty flu, which was why he and Gram hadn’t visited me. I sent another prayer I hadn’t jinxed his recovery.
“I’ve got to go. Bye, Ryan.”
“Is Gyver here?” I asked Nurse Snoopy when I woke to see her adding a bag of fluids to my pole.
“Right here.” His voice circled from my other side. He had a tired smile on his face. “Your mom’s getting lunch.”
Nurse Snoopy asked, “How are you feeling? I know you were uncomfortable this morning, but that shot of pain meds I gave you should have kicked in by now.”
“I’m okay.”
“That’s a good friend you’ve got. I think he spends more time here than I do.”
“Possibly,” Gyver conceded.
“Gyver’s the best,” I cooed.
Nurse Snoopy smiled. “I’ve been meaning to ask you, what kind of name is Gyver?”
I giggled. The sound startled me and I giggled more. “Ask him what it’s short for.”
Gyver snorted. “What’d you give her? She sounds wasted.”
“Morphine. What’s Gyver short for?”
“MacGyver!” I crowed.
“Like the show? Say, if I gave you a paper clip and a stick of gum, could you build me a hang glider?”
“Uh-oh, Gyver doesn’t like those jokes,” I warned.
“I loved that show—or I loved Richard Dean Anderson. He was gorgeous.” Nurse Snoopy fanned her face.
“My MacGyver’s gorgeous too,” I protested.
“Yes, he’s very handsome,” the nurse agreed. “Why don’t you go by Mac?”
“There was a nickname in middle school,” he explained, sucking air through his teeth.
“Mac ’n’ cheese,” I helped.
“Gyver hated it.”
“And Hillary loved it.”
“I like Gyver better anyway. I don’t care what Hil says. She’s wrong, you’re cool.”
Gyver shook his head and laughed. “At least I’m cool.”
“Very,” I reassured him. “You always were. And then you got hot—”
“Baby girl,” Nurse Snoopy interrupted, “why don’t you save your confessions for when you’re a little less medicated? How about you and Gyver watch TV?”
“Okay,” I agreed. I handed a grinning Gyver the remote she’d given me.
“And I’ll make a note on your chart that you’re very sensitive to pain meds.”
Ally called sobbing the day she got home from camp. “I heard!”
My heart raced—I wondered if I would set off a monitor. “What’d you hear?”
“I can’t believe you didn’t tell us!” Ally paused to blow her nose. I clawed at the blankets, sweaty and claustrophobic. “I shouldn’t have had to hear it from Ryan.”
“Ryan?” He knew too? My throat tightened.
“I am so sorry about your pops. Are you okay? When’s the funeral?”
“Pops?” I was swept up in a flash flood of relief and confusion. “He didn’t—he’s not dead.”
“But Ryan said—”
“Ryan’s wrong. Pops is fine. Fine.” I repeated the word to reassure myself.
“So can you come home soon?”
“I hope so.”
“What’s your address there? We’re sending you a care package.”
“Ally, I’ve got to go.” As the panic receded, it left me exhausted.
“Already? Well, text me the address for the box. My mom even made brownies.”
Ally’s mom’s brownies were legendary, but they were sent to Connecticut. By the time the package was forwarded to me they were stale. Gyver and the nurses still enjoyed them and made me put on the plastic tiara included in the box.
“Can you eat those in the hall? The smell’s making me nauseated,” I lied. When the room was empty, I looked at the girls’ cards and photos, covered my face, and cried.