“We’ve got bigger problems.” He didn’t raise his voice and delivered it in a teasing manner.
He didn’t get it. That’s exactly why I needed my Maker’s Mark. You can’t throw my life into turmoil and then screw me out of my bourbon, too. I didn’t say any of that, though. I shut up and poured the Cutty Sark into the glass. I still couldn’t stop my internal rant from leaking out in some shape. I walked back over to sit on the same couch as Fate and narrowed my eyes.
He looked at me briefly, turned away as if debating whether to engage or not and then spat it out anyway. “What? Just say it.”
He didn’t have to ask me twice. “Why would you throw out only my stuff?”
Fate scowled. “I didn’t throw it out. If you must know, it broke.”
“How?”
“Because that’s just what happens to bottles when they get slammed against walls.” He shrugged and leaned against the back of the couch with a shrug. His face said, sue me if you have a problem with it.
I was aghast at the sad ending for a perfectly healthy bottle. “You couldn’t have thrown the Cutty?”
“No. I didn’t want to throw the Cutty. I wasn’t upset about the Cutty.” He leaned forward, his body moving slightly in my direction, along with his hands before he clasped them together. “The Cutty didn’t make me angry.”
“I’m just saying, it was a brand new bottle and now I’ve got to drink Cutty Sark.” I held up the glass to him, showing him what he’d done to me. My hand was shaking slightly as I did, and it hit me that I was still an emotional mess. It seemed like I was losing it over something as simple as what I was drinking, but that wasn’t true. Dwelling on the Maker’s Mark was easier than thinking of anything else, or remembering what I’d let Malokin and Luke do to me. What I’d been reduced to, and all for nothing.
Fate’s eyes rested on my hand and then his palm was over mine, steadying it. “I’ll get another bottle tomorrow,” he said in a softer voice.
Paddy cleared his throat. “Are we done figuring out your drink?”
We both nodded.
“I need to find out if Kitty is still alive.” I tucked my legs back up underneath me.
“We will,” Fate said, with the same soft voice he’d used before.
“I’m okay.” I wasn’t, but the more he looked at me like I was on the verge of falling apart, the more I felt like I would.
He didn’t believe me though, and I could see it in the way he watched me.
Unable to sit still another second under his watchful eye, I stood and started to pace the living room. This wasn’t the person I was going to let myself become, the basket case that others needed to worry about.
“Paddy, what exactly do you know about them? I want answers.” My voice sounded stronger than I actually was, faking emotional control until I hopefully got my feet back under me. I’d never been the weak link in my life, and I wasn’t looking to linger in the position.
“Time to put your cards on the table,” Fate said, in a show of solidarity.
Paddy sat silent for a moment, then one side of his mouth ticked upward. “Okay.”
That hadn’t been too bad. Probably should have put his feet to the fire a long time ago.
Paddy lifted his empty glass. “Have any more of that Johnny Blue?”
Fate walked around and poured him a generous measure. His eyes shifted to where I was pacing; that same look of concern made me force myself to stop and sit on the couch. Fate settled down next to me, this time sitting close enough that our sides were touching. What happened to the normal Fate that tried to bully me into what he wanted? Him I could handle. This new one, the guy who hovered, was making me feel more incompetent than ever.
I leaned forward, elbows resting on my knees. “Well?” I asked Paddy, avoiding Fate’s concerned glances and trying to assert myself as anything other than how his looks made me feel.
“Something is going wrong.” Paddy held up his glass and took another sip.
I put my face in my hands before I dragged them through my hair. “I hope you’ve got more than that.”
He cleared his throat. “I do. As you know, there are certain positions in your office. All of them were created by us.”
“Who’s us?” I asked.
“The four. We are a part of the Universe, but not in the way you are. The forces you see swirling in the air, tweaking things here and there; we were once just a part of that larger energy. At some point, we developed a conscious sense of ourselves. A self-awareness, shall we say.” He leaned forward and waved his hands over himself. “The four were born.”
“So are you in charge of everything?” I’d known he was something more than just a recruiter, as he liked to describe himself. But I couldn’t get my head around what he might be.
“No. We are just a conscious part of the whole. The Universe is way too vast for us to be in charge of containing all of it. Most of it is on autopilot, constantly seeking its own balance. We’re more along the lines of a maintenance crew, so to speak.” He waved a hand as he said the last line, again downplaying what his role probably was.
“A maintenance crew? You glow like the sun.” The skepticism was thick in my voice and expression as I looked at Fate to measure his reaction. There was none. How could that be possible after what Paddy had just said? “You already knew about this,” I said to Fate. It was a hunch, and if I hadn’t seen the slight narrowing of his eyes, I would’ve thought I was being absurd to even think it.
“No, I didn’t,” he denied.
“Actually, come to think of it, how did you two even get in touch?” I pressed, as I looked at both of them.
Paddy took another sip of his drink, never breaking eye contact with Fate. “It was purely coincidence,” he said.
Neither of them spoke as they watched the other. What did they both know? Whatever it was, I could see they were arriving at some unspoken truce, which left me in the dark.
“You know what, guys? Keep your secrets. I’ve got enough problems.” And I meant it. I’d had enough lights flipped on for the time being.
Their silent truce in place, and me not pursuing it—at least for now—Paddy continued on with his explanation. “So, you have the positions that were intentional. But somehow, other forces that never should have existed are forming on their own.”
“Just creating themselves?” Fate asked.
I felt a little better that Fate asked. At least he didn’t know everything. Nobody likes a know-it-all, especially when they’re looking at you the way he was me.
“Yes, and they’re getting a firmer presence in our reality every day. They’re already shifting the natural balance of things.” Paddy looked older as he spoke, if that were possible.
My mind went back to my job in Montreal, how crowded the streets had been with people who were off balance. That was the first time it had hit me how out of whack things really seemed.
“Do you know what positions they’re forming? What they’re after?” Fate asked.
“The one man you’ve met, Luke, is Envy. We’re not sure what Malokin is, or any of the others, but there are others. I think he’s recruiting. You’d probably recognize several.” He shot me a look, as if to imply I’d know exactly what he meant.
I didn’t, not right away. It took me a moment before it clicked.
“My saves,” I moaned, and put my head in my hands. “He kills them eventually but not until the right moment when he can swoop in and recruit.” My mind started recounting the past weeks, mentally making a list of who I’d helped him with and the damage that would need to be undone. Looked like I might be giving Death a run for his money soon with helping people pass.
Paddy stood and walked over to the kitchen, still in view over the island. He stuck his head in the fridge and then popped it back out. Paddy looked directly at Fate. “We’re going to need two things: your men, and take out. I can’t believe all the healthy food you’ve got in this place. How do you expect me to eat this crap?”
“You want my guys?” Fate asked, ignoring the food comment completely. “They don’t even know you are aware of them, and they aren’t going to like finding out.”