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At the moment, it leaves this teenage Jinn with a clammy hand wrapped around a warm beer can. I take a tiny sip and wince as the liquid hits my tongue. Though my taste for beer has yet to be acquired since the last time I tried it with Henry, the beverage selection at the bonfire is sorely lacking. But with Nate on one side of me and Henry and Chelsea across from me, I’m desperate to blend in. So this aluminum-flavored skunk urine will have to do.
A small group of us have distanced ourselves from the rest of the staff, specifically from the rest of the staff who would not condone underage drinking. Our own mini bonfire burns inside a ring of rocks Nate and his two lifeguard buddies dragged from down the beach.
Though I’m supposed to be paying close attention to Nate considering he’s, one, my date, and two, the candidate I need to be doing due diligence on, I can’t help but watch Henry.
The sheer number of in-jokes proves this is not the first time Henry’s hung out with the members of our little offshoot here. Between his relaxed posture, his untucked oxford with the rolled-up sleeves, his contact lenses, and his spiffy hair—Is that gel?—he’s not the tousle-haired Henry who gave me a balloon at the start of the summer. He’s not the boy whose family is on the verge of bankruptcy. He’s not the boy defined by losing his little sister.
Transitioning into this new crowd, he can be whoever he wants to be. His secrets are safe with me. As mine are with him.
Our eyes meet.
I’m sorry, Azra.
This is running through Henry’s head, and even though I suddenly hear it in my own, I don’t need to. Even in the dim light of the fire, his face says it all. Since he can’t read my mind, I hope the same can be said of the look on my own face. We’re going to be just fine.
I love you, Azra.
Oh, no. Oh, damn. This thought of Henry’s I don’t want to hear. And it too is written all over his face. I’m now panicked by what’s scrawled across my own.
Henry’s eyes shift away from mine and land on Chelsea, who shimmies closer to the fire to warm her hands over the flames. I lean into Nate just as Henry puts an arm around Chelsea’s shoulder.
Chelsea’s eyes are shut tight. Her thoughts fly at me.
How did I get so lucky? The nice guys never want me.
“That’s it,” I say too loudly, not wanting to dive deeper into Chelsea’s inner world. I don’t want to find out she’s actually the saint Henry’s making her out to be. I can’t. I’ve learned enough for one night.
I’m not sure how I’m reading everyone’s minds, but I need to stop. I step back from the fire and fan myself. “Whew. Fire. Hot.”
Apparently I’m now a caveman.
“I mean, it’s a bit warm, isn’t it?” I say, happy to have managed a full sentence. “I think I could use a break.”
Henry’s eyes dart in my direction. He knows me well enough to know I’m lying. He just doesn’t know why.
“Excellent idea,” Nate says. He picks up the backpack he set on the ground earlier and knocks off the sand before slinging it over one shoulder.
I hear Henry’s mind contemplate coming with us, and I hear Chelsea’s mind wanting Henry to walk somewhere alone with her, and I break into an uncharacteristic run. Henry must really know something’s up.
Since running is very much in character for Nate, he catches up to me quickly.
“I know the private jokes can be a bit much,” Nate says, “but those guys are okay once you get to know them. Henry can tell you that. We should hang out with them all more. You’ll see.”
“Yeah,” I say, “I’d like that.”
And I would like it. I just don’t think it’s a very good idea to extend my circle of human friends. It’s as bad an idea as not ending my friendships—relationships, whatever “ships” I have—with Nate and Henry. I know I should. But I just can’t. At least not yet. I will if I have to. But not yet. Fortunately and unfortunately, I’ve got many, many horrific stages to get through before I’d get there.
We walk in step with one another, doing a lateral dance with the incoming tide to keep our feet out of the water.
“Not that I’m complaining,” Nate says. “I’ve been wishing we could be alone together since we got here.”
Nate is unaware of how careful he needs to be using the “w” word. Still, if he’s going to be wishing for anything, I don’t mind it having something to do with me. Here we are, on a date, with me doing research without even having to try.
Nate takes my hand, and it’s like I’ve touched a live wire. An electric charge shoots through my body. Is it the same for Nate?
Wow. Oh, wow.
Apparently it is. But I’ve got to get a handle on this mind-reading stuff. It’s not right to be privy to everyone’s innermost—
She has to know how much I like her. How much I’m dying to kiss her.
Okay, maybe I could stick around for one or two more thoughts. Really, I mean, this is something I should be practicing since it’ll help me grant wishes. Being able to read minds like this is rare. It’s a gift, right?
But does she want to kiss me?
How could he possibly be asking that? He has to know I like him as much as he likes me. Probably more. How could he not know? Am I still giving off that stupid vibe?
Because I see the way Henry looks at her. And she him. Maybe I should back off.
Is that the vibe I’ve been giving off? I didn’t mean to. Or did I? No, Henry’s my best friend. I need Henry to be my best friend. And I need a best friend, now more than ever.
Nate’s hand begins to slip from mine. I hang on to it, interlacing my fingers with his. I’m not sure what Nate is right now, but I need him too.