I was floored, confident I had misheard. “For me? Are you sure?” No one had ever sent me flowers in my entire life!
“Absolutely.” Alice sat them down on my desk. “I’m not sure what the dinner and flowers mean, but I hope you are happy, Jada. If anyone deserves someone to dote on them, it’s you.”
I nodded slowly as she turned and left. I stood and buried my face in the petals, inhaling the scent of the tulips; the smell and beauty instantly lifted my spirits.
I picked up the crystal vase. It was tall, slender and heavy in my hand. The vase was bursting with flowers from all angles. Excitedly, I fished through the foliage until I located the card. It was white with silver swirls in a heavier cardstock. Even it was beautiful.
Extracting it from the envelope with a shaky hand, I read it carefully.
I dropped the note, my hands still trembling. I didn’t know how to process that.
I took a deep breath and then picked up the card. I re-read it, but it didn’t make any more sense than it did the first time.
He hasn’t called me this entire time and now he sends me flowers?
I buried my face in my hands, confusion taking up residence yet again. I had pushed him away so hard and he continued to pursue me. He wore me down, had me willing to break every rule I had self-imposed, and he walked away. And now, days later when he hadn’t bothered to contact me at all, he sends me flowers?
What the hell?
I sat there a long time, pondering what to do, trying to decide what it all meant.
Should I take the flowers as a white flag? A sign that he gives up chasing me and has resorted to being friends? Or do they mean that he is sorry for walking away?
His note certainly didn’t give me any insight.
I spent the better part of an hour going back and forth with myself, trying to decide how to respond.
Eventually, manners won. A call to thank him was only appropriate … and maybe I would get a hint about his motivation. I picked up the phone and dialed his number. My heart raced faster with every ring, my mind matching my heart beat-for-beat.
Do I even care what his motivation was? Does it change anything?
Of course it doesn’t … does it?
On the fifth ring, Cane picked up. “Alexander,” he said matter-of-factly.
“Hey, Cane. It’s Jada.”
“What can I do for you?” His voice was the epitome of professional, completely devoid of emotion.
“I was just calling to thank you for the flowers. They are beautiful.”
“Flowers?” he asked, distracted. “Can you hold on for a second?”
Without waiting for a reply, I could hear him talking to someone else.
“I’m sorry, Jada. Flowers—you got them?”
“Yes. Thank you. They made me smile.”
“I’m glad. I will tell Lucy that she did well yet again.” His voice was only marginally warmer and my chest tightened.
Any hope I had been holding onto vanished.
“Please do. Have a good day, Cane,” I said quietly for fear he would hear my voice crack.
“You, too, Jada.”
I clicked the END button and stared out the window. I wasn’t sure how I felt. I was embarrassed for thinking that maybe he had wanted me and angry that I had allowed myself to think that.
Damn him! Why can’t he just go away?
This is precisely what I wanted to avoid. Yet he wormed his way into my life. Despite being very clear to him what I did and didn’t want, my self-confidence was shaken. I sighed.
He had been very clear, too. He had never denied that he didn’t want anything serious; he used women for entertainment. This was just a little chess move.
I am his entertainment.
Or maybe he pitied me. Either way—it pissed me off.
I wasn’t some na?ve, I-need-a-man woman. I didn’t need anyone, especially not someone like him. I had promised myself that my next relationship would be with someone that wanted me. If I had to guess what Cane was thinking every time we interacted, he didn’t qualify.
Fuck Cane Alexander.
I moved the flowers to the windowsill so I wouldn’t have to look at them and got back to work.
JADA
Anger proved to be an excellent motivator. I accomplished more in the next few hours than I had all week. Every time I felt like taking a break, I looked at the tulips and found myself furious all over again.
He’s just another asshole trying to bring me down. He’s trying to get in my head. He means nothing. Get focused and kick ass.
I didn’t stop working until it was a few minutes past quitting time. I was gathering my things to leave when Alice buzzed in. “You have a call, Jada. It’s Simon Powers.”
“Put him through, please.” I waited for Alice to switch the line to Simon. Once the phone buzzed, I picked up the receiver. “Hi, Simon.”
“Hello, Jada.”
“What can I do for you?”