Leaning over she kissed me, staying just within reach. I wanted to kiss her hard and deep and make us both forget our fucking names but she was playing.
“Stop teasing.” I said as she lightly brushed her lips over mine again. I could just grab her and flip her over but I was very interested to find out what she was up to.
She sat up and yanked her top over her head. “No more going slow,” she said, reaching for the zip on my jeans.
Chapter Thirty-One
Tegan
Lucas laid me back on the bed, kissing me the whole time. His lips left mine for about two seconds when I removed his shirt and that was it. He’d kissed me a lot before but this was different.
Lucas kissed down my neck at the same time he ran his hand over my stomach and hips. It was like he wanted to touch every single part of me, not that I had any complaints.
“Luke,” I whispered when he entered me so slowly I thought I was going to pass out from the feeling. Lucas made me feel safe again. I wrapped my arms and legs around him and tangled my fingers in his hair.
He groaned against my collarbone and then kissed me, dipping his tongue in my mouth. It felt so good. I bit down on his lip as he moved faster and that made him go harder.
“God, Tegan,” he murmured into my mouth, curling his arms under my back and held me tight against him. He was all around me, literally, and in that moment I was completely with him.
He was softer, gentler with me than anyone else and even though I didn’t want to claw at him it was perfect and intimate and just how I needed it to be.
I came apart, clutching his body and kissing him until long after we were spent.
***
I woke up alone, again. I really needed to talk to Mum about that. I didn’t want to sleep in separate rooms. Logically I knew that at seventeen Mum was well within her right to say no, but I also knew it wouldn’t be that hard to get her to agree.
Right now I had something else to worry about: school. I knew there would be questions and looks. I didn’t want anyone to talk to me about the accident. That was inevitable though, so I had to find a way to deal with it or ignore it.
I’d called school and spoken to the head of Sixth Form, Mrs Baker. She was also my old English teacher who had been promoted over the summer holidays and was now in charge of helping a bunch of sixteen and seventeen-year-olds prepare for university. Mrs Baker was also the one that had phoned regularly and spoken to Mum about getting me to go back.
I got dressed and put on some make-up, trying to calm the churning in my stomach. I didn’t do much to my face because I never used to and I didn’t want to stand out anymore than I already would.
Once I was ready I went downstairs to eat something. Mum, Ava and Lucas hung over me as I ate and shoved my phone in my bag. It made me more nervous that they were nervous. Missing so much time had put me behind and apparently if I waited just another couple weeks I’d have to defer until next year. That I didn’t want to do. Being a year behind all my friends, if they were still talking to me after I stopped talking to them, would suck.
“Good luck,” Mum said, again, as I was about to walk out of the door.
I needed that luck. I just hoped that my friends would take the hint and appreciate that I didn’t want to talk. “I will,” I replied, brushing past as I felt her about to hug me. I couldn’t let her hug me.
Lucas was taking me, because I couldn’t possibly make the five-minute walk alone, so I got in his car and waited for him to follow. Honestly though, I kind of loved that he wanted to be there for me.
“In a rush?” he asked as he got in the driver side and started the engine.
“Just want to get it over with.”
He smiled tightly. What now? The ride to school was done in silence. I could practically see about a million questions flying through his mind. It was only a matter of time before he started pushing harder for answers I wasn’t even sure I had. He made things easier but at the same time he made it ten times harder.
“You ready to go in?” he asked as we stopped outside on the road.
“Yeah,” I said, shaking my head no.
Laughing quietly, he replied, “It’ll be fine. I’ll wait here until you get out.”
“Thank you,” I said, opening the door. “You can come wait inside, though.”
I took a deep breath and got out of the car and Lucas followed. He grabbed my hand as we walked to the building.
“Tegan,” Josie and Laura called, running over to me from across the courtyard.
“Hey,” I managed to get out as they attacked me in a huge, bone-crushing hug.
“You’re coming back?” Josie asked.
I nodded and that brought on another round of hugging. Guess they didn’t hate me for cutting them off when Dad died then.
Laura nodded to Luke. He stood just behind me with his hands shoved in his pockets. “This is my boyfriend. Lucas, these are my friends, Josie and Laura.”