“Hey, see you at dinner tonight? I’ll be down around 7 or so.”
“Ok, for sure,” I replied, trying to smile. I could smell the slight aroma of his sweat and musk on his body and it sent shivers running through me. I wanted to grab Daniel, take him to my room, rip his clothes off and have him ravage me on my bed. I wanted his hands to discover every inch of my body, I wanted his shaft inside of me, pounding he harder than anything I’d ever experienced, I wanted Daniel to bring me to realms of pleasure I could only imagine.
As I watched him walk away towards the men’s residence area, my legs felt weak. Oh, how I wanted him. And yet, at the same time, I didn’t want him. I tried to force those thoughts to the back of my brain. I wasn’t going to be happy. I didn’t get to be happy anymore. Being with a man like that wasn’t in my future.
Nonetheless, I was sitting down with my dinner at the same table at which we had eaten the last time at ten minutes to seven. Daniel was right on time, sitting across from me, a smile on his face as I looked at the monstrous pile of food in front of him once more.
“Why do you keep working out if you’re never going to play hockey again?” I asked as he sat down, not sure why the question had suddenly popped into my head.
“Well... you know, I think it’s just a force of habit now. I’ve been doing it for so long, it’s become a habit. Exercise is my release, too, I think. It’s my way to escape the world, to just focus on myself for a little while.”
“Ok. Thanks, I was just curious.”
“Hey, no problem. Have you been back down to the gym since our day there?”
I shook my head. “No, I had fun that day, but it’s the sort of thing that I just don’t think would have been the same without you.”
“That’s too bad. You should try it. But hey, I wanted to talk to you. It’s pretty obvious you’ve been avoiding me, is that right?”
“Yeah. It is.” I decided to be honest. “After we made out in the gym, I knew I had to avoid you. You make me feel things I’ve never felt before, and I don’t want to act on them. If it’s discovered that we even did what we did we will both be kicked out of the center. We both need this place, you especially, and I don’t want to screw it up for either of us. So yeah, I’ve been avoiding you, for the good of both of us.”
“I completely understand, Kylie. I don’t want us getting kicked out of here either. I just wanted to ask if we can be friends. There’s no rule against that.”
I thought about what Daniel was saying. Obviously there were no rules about members of the opposite sex being friends. Hell, Fiona and Sam joked about their game “dates” all the time, and no one ever gave them any shit for it, since everyone knew they were just kidding about the dating thing. Maybe this was an option. But was it a good option? Was I going to be able to hide the fact that every time I saw Daniel I wanted to grab him, push him against the wall and rip his clothes off right then and there? Was I going to be able to hide their reaction my body had every time I set eyes on the man? Or was this just an idea that was destined for failure, something that would guarantee that Daniel and I both got kicked out of this program?
“I’m not sure. I’d like to Daniel, I’d really like to, but you saw how I reacted to your body. You saw what I want to do you. I just don’t know if I can do it.”
“Well, why don’t we give it a try? It doesn’t have to be forever, it doesn’t even have to be for longer than a week or so. All I ask is that we try it, let’s try being friends.”
“Okay, that’s fine. We’ll give it a shot, and either one of us can call it off if we decide it’s becoming too much for us.”
I smiled, happy with the decision we had eventually come to. This way I had a shot, I could always try and just be friends with Daniel, and if it became too much we could call it off.
“Good. So, new friend of mine, what have you been doing the last few days?”
“Avoiding you, mainly. Sitting on my computer, reading old Agatha Christie novels, not doing much really. How about you?”
“I think you know I spend most of my days in the gym. I’ve come up to the lounge room a few times, which has been okay, a few the women around here have been basically throwing themselves at me though. Oh here comes one of them now, I think she’s going to come and sit with us.”
I looked behind me and saw Fiona coming towards us with the big tray of food.
“Hey, mind if I sit with you guys?” she asked, putting her tray down without waiting for an answer. I laughed at the complete obviousness of her flirting with Daniel as she sat in the seat right next to his and immediately turned to him and began to chat.
“What am I here Fiona, chopped liver? I thought we were supposed be friends,” I teased.