Nowhere but Here

“Yes, this was wonderful. Thank you for bringing me here.” We walked hand in hand back to his truck, and I watched as Jamie metered and then gave himself a shot of insulin. We left the truck parked where it was and headed to Belden Place, a row of romantic restaurants tucked in an alley between two buildings. The area was crowded, but strangely it was one of the most romantic and intimate settings I had ever been in. Strings of twinkle lights hung across the entire width of the alley. We decided on a French restaurant, where the very young hostess greeted Jamie by name. She looked to be in her early twenties. Her short blond hair was pulled back in a slick, tiny ponytail. The collar of her black dress shirt was just low enough to reveal the cluster of pink cherries tattooed on her neck. She blinked several times in quick succession.

“Hi . . .” Jamie said. We both waited uncomfortably for her to answer. I was definitely picking up on a weird vibe.

“Izzy,” the hostess said flatly.

“Right, Izzy. This is Kate.” He rested his hand on the small of my back.

She smiled superficially at me and then shifted her attention right back to Jamie. “I’ll get you two a nice romantic table in hell. How’s that?”

He grabbed my hand and said, “Time to go.”

We walked to an Italian restaurant in the same alley and were seated far enough away that we were sure to be out of Izzy’s line of fire.

“What was that?”

“I dated . . . er . . . uh, I mean, I went on a date with her.”

“So you had a one-night stand with her?”

“No, I didn’t have sex with her.”

“It’s none of my business, and we aren’t even supposed to talk about exes.” I crossed my arms over my chest, failing to play it cool.

“It’s nothing like that. This guy, Benny, from GLIDE set me up with her. She’s too young for me. I tried to let her down easy. We had dinner once. I took her home right after, but she kept hassling Benny about me.” He took a breath and paused and then shook his head slowly. “What a horrible way for us to start dinner. I’m so sorry. That was totally weird. Can we pretend that didn’t happen?” His eyes were soft and pleading.

I believed him. His answers were genuine, and I couldn’t see him being the type to have random one-night stands with women. Frankly, after Izzy’s death threat, she seemed like she could be a bit of a loose cannon anyway.

Before I could answer, Jamie immediately ordered a bottle of wine and raw oysters on the half shell for our appetizer. Our table was so small that, if I wanted to, I could literally rest my head on his chest without being inhibited. Underneath the table, our legs carelessly tangled with each other’s, even though I was still a little hesitant after our encounter with Izzy’s wrath.

I smiled sincerely. “Yes, let’s start over, but I’m ditching your earlier rule. It’s time to come clean. Now I want to know everything.”

His brow furrowed but he laughed. “Uh-oh. What have I gotten myself into? I’m on a date with the most curious woman in the world.”

I looked down at my hands and fidgeted nervously. I felt a blush creeping across my face. “I promise, you’ll only face this line of questioning once.”

Just then, our oysters and wine came to the table. He had a self-congratulatory smile on his face while he poured me a very large glass.

“First, this.” He put the oyster shell to my mouth. I opened for him as he tilted it up. The salty, slippery oyster went sliding down my throat. I watched him do the same for himself. We both took sips of wine and then he leaned in and kissed me like the whole world was crumbling away around us. His hand gripped the back of my neck and kissed me hard. We were all tongues and lips and light moans that only we could hear. Everyone in the alley disappeared except for us. He slowed and nuzzled my cheek and then left one last lingering kiss on my mouth. Stephen would rarely hold my hand in public, and although I wasn’t a huge proponent of PDA, I didn’t mind with Jamie. When he kissed me, no one existed but us.

“Did you have something you wanted to ask me?” he said with a sly smile.

“You did that on purpose, just to distract me.”

“No.”

“No?”

His lips flattened. “Katy, I want to kiss you like that every second of the day, even in my sleep.” Had the waiter not shown up at the moment, there was a high possibility I would have stripped down naked and begged Jamie to take me right there on top of our tiny table.

We ordered mussels and pasta, and after we ate our dinner I excused myself to check my phone. It had been buzzing in my purse since we sat down. I headed to the bathroom and saw that it was Jerry. I dialed his number.

“This is Jerry.”

“It’s late there, Jer, what’s up?”

“Beth told me you met a man.”

I laughed. “I told her not to tell you.”

“Why? I’m happy for you.”

“Are you?” Sometimes I had to remind myself that Jerry was one of the most happily married men. He doted on his wife. He would often leave the office early and say, “I’m going home. I miss my buddy.” His wife was truly his person, his partner, but Jerry never gave me advice on love. I knew he didn’t like Stephen, so he minded his own business about it.

“Beth told me a little about the guy.”

“It’s nothing yet, I just met him.”

“Well, all I wanted to say is give it a chance . . . I’ve watched you crawl inside yourself over the last few months.” He paused again. I took in a deep breath and held it. “I heard a spark in your voice yesterday, and I think you’re coming back to us. Maybe it has something to do with that guy.”