I hold the phone down and close my eyes as I take a deep breath, trying to choke down the sob that’s threatening to bubble up. Only a couple of seconds pass, and I will myself to calm down, not wanting him to get suspicious.
When I bring the phone back up to my ear, I say four fucking words that will haunt me forever.
“Yeah, boss. It’s done.”
Two Weeks - FKA twigs Say You Love Me - Jessie Ware
I’m Not The Only One - Sam Smith Drowning - Banks
Retrograde - James Blake Poison -Vaults
Don’t Wannt Be Your Gir l- Wet Cruel World - Lana Del Rey Tired - Stone Sour
Waiting Game - Banks Something in the Water - Carrie Underwood Brand New Me - Alicia Keys Pendulum - FKA twigs Losing Your Memory - Ryan Star Fire and Dynamite - Drew Holcomb & The Neighbors Wet The Bed - Chris Brown feat. Ludacris Do I Wanna Know? - Artic Monkeys Stay - Tenth Avenue North Irresistible - Fall Out Boy Don’t Deserve You - Plumb No One Really Wins - Copeland Smoke & Mirrors - Lifehouse
Derek-The Clandestine Affairs were created very much thanks to you. It’s evolved so much and I appreciate you being such an important part of the process. You were my original sounding board and I’d probably still be staring at a blank screen if it weren’t for you, nor would I ever have had the courage to try something new. I can’t wait to see what we come up with next!
To My Amazing Beta Readers: Polly, Teri Beth, Michelle, Bianca, Mara, Sarah, Lisa Jayne, Beverly, and Ashley . . . I cannot thank you ladies enough! This was one of the most challenging things I’ve ever done, and I couldn’t have completed it without each and every one of you.
Michelle-You are my ramblings and music extraordinaire. My playlists would be nothing without you!
Teri Beth-Your line by line beta notes are essential this process. I have no idea what I would do without you! May we bond over book boyfriends & Chris Messina for the rest of our lives!
Polly-Thanks for the loaning of the Matthews name. If I missed a condom, my bad! Or maybe not!
To The Readers: Whether you’re new to my work, have been with me since the beginning, or have even just read on or two, I just wanted to give my thanks to you for giving me a chance on this book. Love it, hate it, or feel ‘meh’ I appreciate you taking the time to read! I promise you won’t have to wait long for book 2!
I’m a twenty something book junkie who decided that there were too many stories in my head to keep to myself. It’s a crazy, busy life, and I love every single second of it.
If I’m not writing or looking through tons of photos of hot men, all in the name of research, then you can probably find me curled up with my Kindle, ignoring the rest of the world. I love my sports almost as much as I love my books. My other obsessions include red wine, hot men, country music, and all things Grace Potter.
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