“I’ll always think it’s wrong if something puts you in jeopardy. That’s just the way it is.”
Cat had a copy of the new People magazine in her hands. She held it up, which she’d done a thousand times already. The night made it hard to see, but they could both make out her face next to Dean Casperson’s on the cover. She was famous, just as he’d feared. The media had camped outside their cottage all week. Her story was everywhere. For now, she was a hero in the press, but for every hero, there eventually was a backlash. The reality of all the attention was beginning to sink into her head and scare her.
“This is who I’m going to be forever, isn’t it?” she asked. “I’m always going to be the girl who took down Dean Casperson. Look at the headline: ‘The Teenager Who Exposed Hollywood’s Dirtiest Secret.’ When I die, that’s the only thing they’ll say about me.”
He kissed the top of her head. “That’s so not true, Catalina.”
“Come on. You know it is.”
“What I know is that you’re seventeen years old. You have your life ahead of you, and you can do whatever you want with it. By the time you’re done, nobody will remember Dean Casperson, but I think they’ll all remember Cat Mateo.”
She shoved him playfully. “You don’t believe that.”
“Yes, I absolutely do.”
“I’m nobody special,” Cat said.
Nobody special.
Stride wanted to laugh at the very idea of it. He thought about this girl and the amount of death she’d seen in her life and the amount of heartache she’d experienced since she was a child. He thought about a girl who would have the courage to let herself go into a room with a predator and turn on a camera and put her life and her body at risk.
“Sometimes it takes a while to recognize special,” Stride told her. “Especially in yourself.”
She didn’t say anything for a long, long time. When he felt a quiver in her shoulders, he realized she was crying silently. He knew it was partly out of love, partly out of terror and relief catching up with her. He simply held her close and let her get lost in her tears. She didn’t stop until they heard the rumble of a car engine and saw Serena’s Mustang plow through the snow and park beside Stride’s Expedition.
“I figured I’d find you two here,” Serena called to them.
She got out and joined them on the bench. Cat wiped her face and put on a smile, and Serena put her arm around Cat just as Stride had. The three of them sat on the green bench together in spite of the cold, in spite of the snow. Peaceful minutes ticked by, and none of them gave a thought to getting up and going home.
They were a family.
Stride didn’t think about the future. He was done with that. And he was done with the past, too. This month had been a reminder of his mistakes, but he couldn’t change them. He couldn’t go back and undo what had happened to Mort Greeley. He couldn’t save Art Leipold. He couldn’t rescue the victims of Lori Fulkerson. Every journey had its failures and setbacks, and all he could do was try harder and do better at whatever came next.
The fact was, life had given him more chances at happiness than he deserved. If he’d taken a last breath at that moment, he would have been at peace with his regrets, because his regrets had led him here. He had a wife again and a teenage daughter, two things he never would have believed possible. He decided he wouldn’t change a day of his past or correct his mistakes even if he could.
They were part of him. They were who he was.
They were what made him Jonathan Stride.