“I have,” Cainen said. “Once, when he came to talk to me and other Rraey scientists about the architecture of the BrainPal, and how we might adapt it for the Rraey. A fascinating human. Very intense. Charismatic in his way, even to the Rraey. He is passionate, and we as a people respond to passion. Very passionate. Very driven. And very angry.”
Cainen leaned in close. “Private, I know you think that this is about Boutin’s daughter, and to some extent, maybe it is. But there is something else motivating Boutin as well. His daughter’s death may simply have been the discrete event that caused an idea to crystallize in Boutin’s mind, and it’s that idea that fuels him. It’s what made him a traitor.”
“What is it?” Jared asked. “What’s the idea?”
“I don’t know,” Cainen confessed. “Revenge is the easy guess, of course. But I’ve met the man. Revenge doesn’t explain it all. You would be in a better position to know, Private. You do have his mind.”
“I have no idea,” Jared said.
“Well, perhaps it will come,” Cainen said. “My warning is to remember that whatever it is that motivates him, he has given himself to it, entirely and completely. It’s too late to convince him otherwise. The danger for you will be that if you meet him, you will empathize with him and with his motivation. You are designed to understand him, after all. Boutin will use this if he can.”
“What should I do?” Jared asked.
“Remember who you are,” Cainen said. “Remember that you’re not him. And remember that you always have a choice.”
“I’ll remember,” Jared said.
“I hope you do,” Cainen said, and stood. “I wish you luck, Private. You can go now. When you leave, let Wilson know he can come back in.” Cainen wandered over to a cabinet, intentionally choosing to put his back to Jared. Jared stepped out the door.
“You can go back in,” Jared said to Wilson.
“Okay,” Wilson said. “I hope you two had a useful conversation.”
“It was,” Jared said. “He’s an interesting fellow.”
“That’s one way of putting it,” Wilson said. “You know, Dirac, he feels very paternal toward you.”
“So I gathered,” Jared said. “I like it. Not exactly what I was expecting in a father, though.”
Wilson chortled. “Life is full of surprises, Dirac,” he said. “Where are you off to now?”
“I think I’ll go see Cainen’s granddaughter,” Jared said.
The Kestrel flicked on its Skip Drive six hours before Jared returned to Phoenix Station and translated to the system of a dim orange star that from Earth would be seen in the Circinus constellation, but only if one had a proper telescope. It was there to pick through the remains of the Colonial Union freighter Handy; the black box data sent back to Phoenix via emergency Skip drone suggested that someone had sabotaged the engines. No black box data was ever recovered from the Kestrel; nothing of the Kestrel was ever recovered.
Lieutenant Cloud looked up from his lair in the pilots lounge, a table laid out with enticements to trap the unwary (namely, a deck of cards), and saw Jared in front of him.
“Well, if it isn’t the jokester himself,” Cloud said, smiling.
“Hello, Lieutenant,” Jared said. “Long time, no see.”
“Not my fault,” Cloud said. “I’ve been here this whole time. Where have you been?”
“Out saving humanity,” Jared said. “You know, the usual.”
“It’s a dirty job, but someone has to do it,” Cloud said. “And I’m glad it’s you instead of me.” Cloud kicked his leg to push out a chair and picked up the cards. “Have a seat, why don’t you. I’m due to the prelaunch formalities of my supply run in about fifteen minutes; that’s just enough time to teach you how to lose at Texas hold ’em.”
“I already know how to do that,” Jared said.
“See? There’s one of your jokes again,” Cloud said.
“I actually came to see you about your supply run,” Jared said. “I was hoping you’d let me deadhead down with you.”
“I’ll be happy to have you,” Cloud said, and began shuffling the cards. “Ping me your leave clearance, and we’ll be able to continue this game on board. The supply transport’s on autopilot most of the way down anyway. I’m just on board so that if it crashes, they can say someone died.”
“I don’t have leave clearance,” Jared said. “But I need to get down to Phoenix.”
“What for?” Cloud asked.
“I need to visit a dead relative,” Jared said. “And I’m going to be shipping out soon.”
Cloud chuckled and cut the deck of cards. “I’m guessing the dead relative will be there when you get back,” he said.
“It’s not the dead relative I’m worried about,” Jared said. He reached his hand out and pointed to the deck. “May I?” Cloud handed over the deck; Jared sat and began shuffling it. “I can see you’re a gambling man, Lieutenant,” he said. He finished shuffling and put the deck in front of Cloud.
“Cut it,” Jared said. Cloud cut the deck a third of the way down. Jared took the smaller portion and placed it in front of himself. “We’ll pick a card from our decks at the same time. I get the high card, you take me to Phoenix, I go see who I need to see, I’m back before you lift.”