There is a fresh note tucked into the sundial. The same creamy white paper. Tied in the same red ribbon.
With shaking hands, I pull it free.
Dear Emmaline May,
You must forgive me for the brief lapse in letters. I was struck with a minor illness that leaves a tremor in my hand; no doubt you will notice that my script is altered.
You asked how long the winged horses live. All I can say is that they live much longer than I. Perhaps a hundred years. Perhaps they never die at all. I quite believe that myself, and it is a comfort, don’t you think? That there is a place where no one ever grows old? You see, our worlds are more connected than you believe. Sometimes, when a special person in your world dies before his or her time, that person merely crosses over and becomes one of my horses, roaming the heavens on feathered wings.
Ride true,
The Horse Lord
I read the note again. The cold makes my nose run. I think of the broken colored pencils that Anna kept perfectly sharpened. I think of Anna’s empty bed. The Sisters haven’t changed anything about it but the sheets, though I heard Benny saying they were going to move out her big bed and replace it with three cots, for three new children who will come soon.
I think back to that time I hid behind the woodpile and watched Thomas bury the chicken that the foxes had killed. He touched its feathers before covering them with dirt. I wonder if he did the same when he helped bury Anna. If he presses his fingers against the pine boxes stacked in the barn that he built to bury those of us who die, and what he feels against his fingertips.
I wipe my nose.
“I have to go,” I say to Foxfire. “I’m sorry, but it’s important. Don’t worry, I’ll keep protecting you. I’ll find something orange before the full moon, I promise.”
Foxfire nuzzles my neck with her nose. I press my forehead to her spark blaze.
We understand each other, she and I.
And then I turn back to the wall, and climb.
I RUN THROUGH THE FROSTED FIELDS until I reach Thomas’s cottage next to the barn. Wisps of smoke come from the chimney.
Knock, knock.
Bog stirs first, growling low, but Thomas gives a ssss, and Bog is silent. There are footsteps. Then the door swings open.
Thomas’s head drops down, as though he was expecting someone taller. “Emmaline?” His empty sleeve is not carefully pinned now. It hangs loose and hollow as he rubs his sleepy eyes with his hand. “What’s wrong?” He looks around to see if I am alone. “You can’t keep sneaking out so late. It’s getting colder and you’re…” He pauses as I double over to cough. “You don’t want to get any worse,” he finishes.
“I need to show you something,” I cough out. “It’s important.”
He rubs the sleep from his eyes once more, and glances at the hospital as if he has half a mind to walk me back there and turn me in to Sister Constance. But he stifles a yawn, and opens the door wider.
I hesitate.
I have never been in Thomas’s cottage. None of us has. Benny says it is the place that he takes his victims to cage them until the witches eat them, but I see no children in cages. I see no swords or knives. I see only a rope bed with a straw mattress, like mine but bigger, and a woodstove with a coffeepot on top, and a few shirts hung in the rafters to dry.
There is a gnawed bone on the floor—but I think it belongs to Bog.
Thomas closes the door behind me to keep the heat in. He rubs his chin. “What is so important in the middle of the night?”
The heat from the woodstove makes my armpits damp. I fumble for the Horse Lord’s letter, starting to feel silly. Maybe this could have waited until the morning. Maybe it is childish to be here.
But no. Some things cannot wait.
I hand him the letter. “Read it.”
But he doesn’t take it.
“Well, go ahead.”
He clears his throat. He shakes his head, keeping his eyes on the woodstove. “Groundskeepers only read the weather.”
I’m a bit flustered—perhaps he cannot read and is embarrassed—and I take back the letter and read aloud the part about the special people who die before their time. When I’m finished, I look at him expectantly.
His brow is knit together like he doesn’t understand.
“That’s what I came to tell you,” I explain. “That certain special people who die before their time become winged horses. Your father, I mean. He was a great man who died before his time.” I tuck the letter back into my pocket. “Death isn’t the end for him. The Horse Lord says so.”
Thomas looks at the woodstove. Then he presses his thumb and forefinger against the bridge of his nose, and takes a deep breath. He reaches down and rests his hand on my head. His palm is broad. It’s clear he is a man of the land, of the soil, but that doesn’t mean he isn’t a man of the heart, too.
“If the Horse Lord said it,” he says, “then it must be true.”
“And for Anna, too.”
He nods. “For Anna, too.”