“He was tired.” I winced inwardly at the stupidity of my words—of course he was tired.
“Thank you for helping out tonight.” The sincerity in his voice caused my gaze to meet his and my heart lurched a little. Devon looked exhausted, but he also looked grateful.
“My pleasure.” I moved to wake up Jax, but Devon stopped me.
“I’ve got it,” he said, just before he slid his arm between Jax’s head and my leg. The brush of his skin against me did stupid things to my heart rate, especially when I silently told myself he was just picking up his son. Effortlessly, I might add. Just swooped right down there and picked up his eight-year-old like he weighed nothing. I gently pulled the blanket off Jax and followed Devon and Ruby toward the exit. I placed the loosely folded blanket on the admin desk and gave the nurse there a smile as we passed.
“How are you feeling, Ruby?” I asked as we approached the car.
“Tired,” she responded, not unkindly, but definitely as if she was exhausted and couldn’t put together more than that one-word answer. I couldn’t blame her. I was tired too.
We all loaded into the car, Devon buckling Jax into his booster seat while Jax mumbled in his sleepy state. Once Devon was in his seat he looked over at me, giving me a defeated smile. Before I could stop myself I reached over and gave his leg a squeeze, trying to tell him with one action that everything was all right. That just because the date didn’t go as planned, it didn’t mean I was pulling away.
“I just want to go to sleep,” Ruby said, interrupting the moment that passed between Devon and me. I swiped my hand off his leg and watched as he turned around, his large frame filling so much of the car.
“I know, baby,” he said softly. “But I’ve got to take Grace home and we have to stop at the drug store real quick to get you some Gatorade and your medicine.”
“But I’m tired,” Ruby whined, the utter desperation in her voice breaking my heart.
“Devon, this is silly. Go home. I can get a cab.”
“You’re not taking a cab, Grace.”
“It’s not a big deal. Ruby needs to go to bed.” He looked like he didn’t know how to make the right decision, as if he were torn between two bad choices.
“Ruby will be fine for another thirty minutes,” he said, pulling out of the parking lot.
I looked back at her and I knew that even if she would be fine, she wasn’t fine at that moment. She looked sick and exhausted, and all I wanted, more than anything, was to take her home and let her go to bed.
“How about we all go back to your place, then I’ll take your car and run your errands. I don’t mind,” I pleaded. Something inside me needed to help, to do something to make Ruby’s pain go away. A part of me ached to nurture her any way I could.
“You’re not going to run my errands,” he said, just as stubborn as before.
“Okay, then let me stay with the kids while you run the errands. She needs to go home.” I watched as his eyes moved to the rearview mirror, assessing Ruby, then Jax.
“If we take them home, then we’re there all night,” he said quietly, so that only I could hear him. “I won’t be able to take you home until the morning.”
“I don’t mind,” I said insistently, trying to communicate, again, that I wanted to help.
He searched my eyes for just a moment, then finally responded with a resigned, “All right.”
By the time we pulled up to his house, both kids were fast asleep. But as soon as the engine turned off, Jax’s eyes opened and he sat up straight.
“Are we home?” he asked, his voice rough and sleepy.
“Yeah, bud. Can you walk yourself into the house?” Devon asked. Jax nodded in response and pushed open his door. Ruby, on the other hand, was out cold.
I watched as Devon managed to pick Ruby up and carry her in the house. I followed them in and took a seat on the couch, observing as he quietly and efficiently put Ruby to bed and then helped Jax brush his teeth and go to bed as well. When he emerged from Jax’s room, shutting the door slowly to minimize the sound of it latching into place, he made his way toward me in the living room.
I sat on the couch just staring at him, waiting for whatever he had planned next. There was a coffee table between us, but I could see most of him. His hands were braced on his hips, his head hung low, shoulders slumped. He looked just as exhausted as the children had. But then his head came up and he caught my gaze.
“You sure you’re all right hanging out here for a few while I run to the store?”
I tried really hard to hold in my sigh of relief that he was going to allow me to help him. “Yes. Totally and completely all right.”
He pulled his car keys out of his pocket, then ran his other hand through his hair. “When I get back I’ll get you set up in my room and I’ll sleep on the couch.”