“Frankie?” Lex sounds worried.
I force a smile. “Sorry, I spaced. Dad is all over Project Reform Frankie, and it’s stressing me out. If things had worked out the way he planned, I would’ve started school yesterday. But according to Dad, a Dolly Parton look-alike in the office at Monroe refused to call Woodley for my immunization records. She told him to drive over there and get them himself.”
“That’s Mrs. Lane. She doesn’t take crap from anybody. Couldn’t your dad get you out of community service?”
If hell froze over.
“In Dad’s universe, rules don’t bend. Everything is black or white. There is no gray.”
Lex glances at my hands locked tight around my legs. “Nervous about your first day?”
Anything is better than going back to Woodley. Not that it was an option. Mom met with the headmaster and begged him not to expel me and ruin my chance at getting into Stanford. But she wasn’t persuasive enough. Knowing Mom, she’s probably devastated.
I’m relieved.
The Stanford dream belonged to the old Frankie—a girl who learned how to spin the straw she was given into the gold everyone else wanted.
The old Frankie played up her cute features with makeup tricks, hunted for jeans that made her boyish figure appear curvier, and adopted the style of her favorite fashion bloggers because she didn’t trust her own. At parties, lots of fake giggling and bathroom trips to flush vodka shots down the toilet allowed her to act cool without doing anything that could jeopardize the Plan. A nothing-special-but-cute-enough girl who landed the captain of the lacrosse team because he’d had a crush on her since they were kids.
It’s hard to believe I was ever that girl.
I lean against the headrest. “Monroe has to be an improvement.”
“Was the first day at Woodley really that bad?”
“It was basically the seventh circle of hell. People taped notes and cards all over Noah’s locker and left flowers and teddy bears on the floor in front of it.”
“Woodley is full of attention whores. Getting kicked out of that place was a relief.” Lex has been expelled from four private schools in two years, beginning with Woodley—not easy to pull off when you’re the daughter of a senator. Lex takes pride in her academic rap sheet because every expulsion embarrasses her mother with her socialite friends.
She turns onto Bellflower Parkway, where the garden apartment complexes end and the nicest of the low-income developments in the Downs begin. Tan brick buildings with barred windows line the street, identical except for the collections of plastic high chairs, toys, and tricycles piled on the balconies.
Monroe High is only a few blocks away, in the good section of a bad neighborhood. But barred windows are barred windows.
Lex rakes her fingers through her hair, messing it up a little. “At least we’re finally at the same school again.”
A few months ago I would’ve loved the idea. But now I just want to start over. As much as I love Lex, that’s harder to do with her around.
She glances at me, her lips pressed together.
Crap. That was my cue to act excited. I suck. “I know you have other friends at Monroe, Lex. I don’t expect you to hang out with me all the time.”
A hint of disappointment flickers across her face. “If you keep dressing like that, I won’t. Your shirt looks like it came from the donation pile at the Salvation Army.”
I used to waste hours shopping. Not anymore. “Think of it as my attempt to fit in.”
She eyes my frayed white button-down and faded skinny jeans. “With who? Meth heads? Are you trying to ruin my carefully crafted image at Monroe?”
Lex reinvents herself whenever she switches schools. Judging by her smudged eye liner and the combo of skinny jeans and kitten heels, she has rocker chic nailed.
“So what did you go with this time?” I ask. “Rich and Misunderstood Hottie? Or Unattainable New Girl Who Doesn’t Give a Shit?”
She gives me a mischievous smile. “Scandalous Bad Girl with a Secret. A triple threat.”
“I guess that makes me Screwed-Up Girl with Secrets She Can’t Remember.”
Her smile vanishes. “You can’t change the past.”
Not if you can’t remember it.
Lex pulls into the parking lot. “A new school is a clean slate.”
“I hope so.”
Instead of tennis courts and a swimming pool, Monroe has DRUG-FREE ZONE signs posted every ten feet and temporary classrooms that look like orange shipping containers on the front lawn.
“Are you ready for this?” Lex asks.
“Ready is a relative term.”
“You could get a private tutor instead,” Lex teases. “It’s not too late to guilt-trip your mom into letting you come home.”
“Yes, it is.”
It was too late the moment Noah’s head hit the ground. Once the rumors spread through the Heights like bird flu, too late came and went.
The only thing left is now.
Here.