The largest chamber was the worst. Deep underground and humid, with very little ventilation. The smell—and the blood—had nowhere to go. The stone floor still shimmers crimson in our lights.
A slaughter took place here. Either the false priest picked up the spent shell casings or he sliced his victims open, one by one. We find a spot against the wall with a sleeping bag, a stack of books (including a well-worn Bible), a kerosene lantern, a bag full of toiletries, and several rosaries.
“Of all the places he could bunk, he chose this spot,” Zombie breathes. He’s pressing a cloth against his face to filter the air. “Crazy SOB.”
“Not crazy, Zombie,” I tell him. “Sick. Infected with a virus before he was even born. That’s the best way to think of it.”
Zombie nods slowly. “You’re right. That is the best way to think of it.”
We’ve left Bob the pilot with Cassie and the two kids in another chamber, after packing and bandaging his wound and giving him antibiotics and a massive dose of morphine. He’s in no condition to fly any farther tonight. Just getting us as far as the caverns exceeded his endurance, but I sat beside him and kept him focused and calm, his ballast and his anchor.
Zombie and I retreat toward higher ground, and he navigates the narrow passages with one hand on my shoulder, awkwardly swinging his bad leg, wincing with every step. I make a mental note to check the wound before I leave. The round should probably be removed, but I worry the procedure will do more harm than good. Even with antibiotics, the risk of infection is high, and nicking a major artery would be catastrophic.
“Only two ways down here,” he says. “That works for us. We can block off one end, which leaves a single entrance to watch.”
“Right.”
“Think we’re far enough from Urbana?”
“Far enough from Urbana to what?”
“To avoid getting vaporized.” He smiles, and his teeth shine unusually bright in the lamplight.
I shake my head. “I don’t know.”
“You know what’s scary, Ringer? You seem to know more than any of us, but whenever a critical question comes up, like the issue of whether or not we’ll be vaporized in a couple of days, you never know the answer.”
The path is steep. He needs to rest. I’m not certain he knows that I can feel what he feels through the conduit of his hand touching my shoulder. I don’t know if that would comfort or terrify him. Maybe both.
“Hang on, Zombie.” Acting as if I need to catch my breath. “Gotta rest a minute.”
I lean against an outcropping. At first he tries to be tough and stay upright. But after a minute or two he can’t maintain the act; he eases himself onto the floor, grunting from the effort. Since we met, his near-constant companion has been pain, most of which I have delivered.
“Does it hurt?” he asks.
“What?”
He points at my nose. “Sullivan said she got you good.”
“She did.”
“It’s not even swollen. And no black eyes.”
I look away. “Thank Vosch.”
“Kind of hoping you’ll thank him for all of us.”
I nod. Then I shake my head. Then I nod again.
Zombie knows he’s on dangerous ground. He moves to safer territory quickly. “And it doesn’t hurt? There’s no pain?”
I look right into his eyes. “No, Zombie. There’s no pain.”
I squat, resting on my heels, and set the lamp on the floor. The space between us, less than a foot, feels more like a mile.
“Did you notice on our way in?” I ask. “Somebody built an outdoor shower. I think I’m going to take one before I leave.” Blood’s caked on my face, there’s dirt in my hair, and damp earth is smeared over every exposed inch. An eternity passed after Zombie buried me. I can still see their faces blank with astonishment and horror as I burst from the grave, the two recruits sent back to pick up the squadmates they left behind to kill us. Sullivan had a similar look after she smashed her head into my nose. I’ve become the stuff of wonder and nightmares.
So I want to be clean. I want to feel human again.
“Won’t matter if the water’s cold?” Zombie asks.
“I won’t feel it.”
He nods like he understands. “It should be me. Not in the shower. Ha, ha. I mean going with you. Not Cassie. I’m sorry, Ringer.” He pretends to study the cave’s jagged teeth jutting down over our heads, a dragon’s mouth frozen in midchomp. “What was he like? I mean. That guy. You know.”
I know. “Tough. Funny. Smart. He loved to talk. And he loved baseball.”
“What about you?” Zombie asks.
“I have no opinion about baseball.”
“Not what I meant and you know it.”
“It doesn’t matter,” I answer. “He’s dead.”
“Still matters.”
“It’s something you’d have to ask him.”
“I can’t. He’s dead. So I’m asking you.”
“What do you want from me, Zombie? Seriously, what do you want? He was kind to me—”
“He lied to you.”
“Not when it mattered. Not about the important things.”
“He betrayed you to Vosch.”
“He sacrificed his life for me.”
“He murdered Teacup.”