Sarah’s shrieking on the monitor jerked me out of my seat. I ran into the house and up the stairs, my mother close behind, the shrieks getting louder and louder as we approached the nursery.
The door was shut, just as I’d left it. But the bag of snow globes, which I knew I’d shoved in the back of a drawer in my room, was in the middle of the nursery floor. Sarah was pointing at it and shrieking with what I could now tell was impatience and not fright while she bounced up and down holding to the side of her crib. JJ remained sound asleep on his back, arms and legs splayed, a soft smile curving his lips and looking so much like Jack I wanted to cry.
I picked Sarah out of the crib and smoothed her hair from her forehead. She twisted in my arms so she could see the bag and continued to point. “Mmmmmmmm. Mmmmmmmm.”
“What’s in there?” my mother asked.
“The broken snow globes from the Pinckneys’ attic. Sarah’s fascinated with them. She’s not allowed to touch them, but she doesn’t seem to want to. She likes to play a little guessing game with them. Personally, I try to avoid any contact with them at all, but Jayne or Nola keeps taking them out for her.”
As if in agreement, Sarah began bouncing up and down. “Mmmmmmmmm. Mmmmmmmmm.”
“Here,” Ginette said, reaching her arms toward Sarah. “Why don’t you show me?”
I approached the bag with caution, carefully opening the top until I was satisfied that it held only the bases of seven broken snow globes. I stuck my hand inside and pulled one out at random and held it up. It was the Sacramento base.
Sarah thrust both of her small hands away from her, her head violently shaking from side to side.
“That would be a no,” I said.
She began pointing again at the bag, so I dropped the Sacramento base back inside and pulled out another, this one from Orlando.
She made the same gesture as before, and repeated it two more times until I pulled out the Miami base. She put her head down on my mother’s shoulder and smiled, only growing agitated when I tried to put it back in the bag.
“I don’t think she’s done,” Ginette said. “Put it up on the dresser and try another one.”
We went through the same steps two more times until I once again pulled out Orlando, but this time it met with Sarah’s approval, even eliciting a smile. I put Orlando next to Miami and tried to close up the bag, but Sarah made it clear she still wasn’t through. We continued through all seven bases while my mother and I gradually become aware that this wasn’t just a game. She—or someone—was trying to tell us something. I found it more than a little unnerving that they were communicating through my daughter.
Sarah relaxed only when we had all seven bases laid out in a row in the order she’d approved: Miami, Orlando, Memphis, Sacramento, Indianapolis, Cincinnati, and Kalamazoo.
“What on earth is this all about?” My mother approached the bases with Sarah, but the little girl had completely lost interest in the snow globes and seemed more focused on Ginette’s black beaded necklace.
I took my phone from my pocket and snapped a picture and was about to text it to Jack when I remembered that I was pretending he didn’t exist. And that I didn’t care what happened to Jayne or her house and its ghosts, and had even already passed off the listing to my coworker Wendy Wax.
I slid the phone back into my pocket. “Can you watch the children for a little bit?” I began shoving the bases back into the bag, listening to them clank against one another as I dropped each one. “I’m going to put these in Jayne’s mailbox. They belong to her and I don’t want anything to do with them.”
“We can’t leave things the way they are, Mellie. Jayne won’t know what to do.”
“Well, then, she can ask Jack for help, can’t she?”
My mother’s cell phone rang out, her ring tone of Puccini’s “Nessun dorma” appropriate but not as wonderful as my ABBA one. She glanced at the screen, then up at me. “It’s Jack. Please let me take this.”
“Do what you think best, Mother. Just let him know that you aren’t interested in talking to him. And if he asks about me, tell him I died. Or moved to Siberia.” My eyes settled on Sarah, looking up at me with Jack’s eyes, and my heart squeezed. “If he wants to see the children, tell him to send Nola over with the dogs and she can bring the children back with her for an afternoon. As long as Jayne’s not there.”
She sighed, letting the phone go to voice mail. “I’ll just text him. He’s very insistent on talking with me, and it’s hard to tell him no.”
“Welcome to my world,” I muttered. I nestled the bag handles into the crook of my elbow. “I won’t be long.” I glanced at the still-sleeping JJ, then kissed Sarah’s cheek as I left the room, the bag bumping against my leg as I ran down the stairs, each brush and clattering noise a recriminating nudge, reminding me that despite promises to change, I was still the old Melanie—uncertain, fragile, and pathetic.
CHAPTER 31