The Dead House

“With me in my room, silly,” I told her.

She gave a couple of sleepy grunts. “It’s too cold in here. I don’t like it.”

I glanced at the window—it was shut firmly. And Jaime was still in her fluffy coat.

“It’s not cold,” I said, touching her cheeks, which were warm.

“And it smells funny.”

I sniffed the air. Nothing.

“I don’t like it,” she said, eyes shadowed.

It was weird. Jaime loves everything, and when she doesn’t, she doesn’t moan about it. Those Bailey shits have got into her head.

“Come on, Jaime. It’s just a room!”

“There’s something bad in here.”

What could I say? The Baileys have been turning her against me for months. Not in an obvious way, of course, but in subtle ways. And there’s nothing I can do about it. It makes me crazy.

“I have to go,” she said, climbing off my bed. There were duvet lines across her cheek, and sleep was still heavy in her eyes. “Mrs. Bailey said she would wait for me at the end of the corridor.”

“Jaime?” I said, as she turned to go. “Don’t let those dickballs tell you things about me.”

“Okay.”

“You know me better than they do,” I added.

She nodded. “Okay.”

As the door was closing behind her, I thought of something.

“Wait—Jaime?”

Her little head popped back. “Yeah?”

“Have you heard from Carly lately?”

“Yes.”

“She sound… normal? I mean, did she sound okay?”

She just shrugged. “I have to go now.”

“Okay, Beanette.”

The door closed. I didn’t get a chance to say “I love you,” so I said it to the closed door. The words, spoken but unheard, fell to the floor, where they shattered like glass. Everything so fragile, and I love her so much. That, I think, is fragile too.

I sniffed the air, and still I didn’t smell a thing.

I should have asked what it smelled like.



Later, Dorm

Kaitlyn is:


1. A prophet

2. Demonstrably insane

3. An incredible force

4. Bipolar

5. A ghost

6. A big dog in a little cage



Which of these seems likely, Dr. Lansing?

So sick of her. Sick of her ideas. Sick of it all. I am not a symptom! She’s the symptom. She’s sick.


Sick!

Sick!

Sick!

Sick!

Sick!

SICK!





From: RealxChick

To: AriHait558

Date: 19 Sept 2004

Subject: A Disgrace to My Gender



So I finally caved and emailed you. What a crappy night so far.

Grumpy.





From: AriHait558

To: RealxChick

Date: 19 Sept 2004

Subject: Re: A Disgrace to My Gender



It never ceases to amaze me the rules girls put on their lives.


I saw you near the art block the other day, and you looked right through me. Hence my silence. I suppose I’m a little too weird to acknowledge during school? Maybe your friends will disown you if they find out you’re secretly befriending the weird guy in the bowler hat.

A.





[There is no reply from Kaitlyn on the server.]



Diary of Kaitlyn Johnson


Sunday, 19 September 2004, 10:00 pm

Basement

You have dark hair. (I’ve always wanted dark hair.) Your eyes will be brown, a color that holds secrets well. Isn’t that fitting? You’re tall, because I’m not. You have three tattoos—an asp on your left wrist, a sparrow on your right ankle, and a dagger on your thigh. You have plump lips that are for kissing, not talking, and your eyes sparkle with inner light. You like to listen.

What do you think, Dee? Have I described you accurately? Do you need a more distinctive feature to tell you apart from the rabble of the world? How about this: You have one brown eye and one green eye. You take in through the green and cage with the brown. You have a nose stud too, and you always wear black.

Welcome to my head, Dee. Please, look around.

I’m in the bowels of the main building, exploring the basement. It’s so cold.

I swear, Dee, this place is as big as the entire main building. Chairs, tables, boxes, uniforms, equipment, netting, the old (and new) hall curtains, mannequins, old mattresses from the boardinghouse, skeletal teaching props—you name it. Not only did I reach a point where I thought I’d never find an exit, but I also lost track of the window that gave me entry. Just my luck, being trapped down there with useless things. Maybe, I thought, I’ll die down here. It got me thinking about whether I’m a prop in Carly’s life, or she’s one in mine.

There’s another room down there, Dee. Totally cut off from everything else. A tiny little box of a room with its own staircase—grimy and moist—up to a secret servants’ corridor that leads between walls and out into the kitchen. This room is the only part of this building not cluttered with stuff. The only thing in there is a big Victorian cupboard—an armoire. It gave me the chills. Even though it’s just an empty room, it felt as if someone was in there with me. Maybe more than one person. At any rate, I felt watched.