“I’m not asking you to.” He came closer, taking my hand. “I just needed you to know how I felt.”
“And now, as you said, I’ll take all this into consideration as I’m making my choice. Which will be soon.”
He rubbed his finger across my hand, a gesture that felt less comforting than it should have.
“I’m serious about you, Eadlyn. Don’t doubt it.”
“Oh, I don’t,” I whispered. “Not in the slightest.”
“I DON’T UNDERSTAND,” NEENA CONFESSED the next morning as I recounted the date to her. “Isn’t him confessing his devotion a good thing? Like, maybe he could be one of the top two instead?”
Everyone else was still at breakfast, so the office was empty. As the sun beamed through the windows, we sat together on a couch, legs curled beneath us, as if this was the morning after a slumber party.
“I don’t think so. Something about it felt so forced. Not that he didn’t actually feel those things, but it was like he orchestrated a moment so I would have to hear it.” I rested my head on my hand, the lines repeating in my head. “And then I felt guilty. He talked about his dad and said I’d make a good Wesley and … it was all just off somehow.”
My free hand picked at the hem of my skirt as if my fingers could undo my tangled thoughts. “I think what it was,” I began, “is that he said he’d felt this way since the night of the kitchen fight, but we haven’t really had much interaction since then, at least not one-on-one. So for him to have this growing, deep, serious attraction to me … where does it stem from?”
Neena nodded. “It’s like he’s in love with someone he thinks you are, not who you really are.”
My whole body wilted in relief. “That’s it. That’s exactly what this feels like.”
“So send him home?”
I shook my head. “No, I promised Hale he could leave next. He’s ready, and I don’t want to disappoint him, not after everything he’s done for me.”
“Good morning, Your Majesty. Hi, Neena.” Lady Brice walked in, holding a muffin in her hand. “Your Majesty, I have some documents from your brother for you to review. It appears France wants to renegotiate their trade deal. I think this will be the easiest one in years.”
“Aww, what a handy little thing, that Ahren.” I was sure this was more Camille’s doing than his, but I knew his presence was helpful.
“He sure is. I also have three contracts for you to review from New Asia; they’re waiting on your desk. And the producer of the Report would like to film an interview with you this afternoon, something about transition pieces, I don’t know.”
“Oh, so, a nice, easy day?” I joked.
“As always!”
“Lady Brice, did you help Dad this much?”
She laughed. “Only for a short time. Once you grew up, he wanted you to take on a bigger role. And as soon as you feel you’re on your feet, I’ll happily step back, or maybe retire.”
I scrambled off the couch and grabbed her by the shoulders. “No. Not ever. You will live and die in this office!”
“As you wish, my queen.”
“Your Majesty! Your Majesty!” someone yelled.
“Josie?” I called, watching as she ran in. “What’s the matter?”
“I was watching TV. Marid.” She was gulping in breaths.
“What about Marid?”
She swallowed. “He was seen shopping for engagement rings. It’s all over the news.”
All the advisers flooded into the parlor as we watched everything unfold. Very quickly, the many people I didn’t trust with my secrets were made all too aware of what Marid had been plotting and just how close he was coming to the crown.
“He’s got the look of a king, doesn’t he?” one newscaster said.
“Of course he does! He’s descended from one!” her cohort replied.
“Really, wouldn’t that be so romantic?”
“It would. Oh, it so would, but she is in the middle of a Selection.”
The newscaster brushed her hand across the air. “Who cares? Let them go. None of them has the charm of Marid Illéa, not by a long shot.”
I flipped channels.
“According to the jeweler, Mr. Illéa was looking at some rather expensive pieces, which would only be fitting if he is indeed planning to propose to the queen.”
“This is yet another unlikely event in a series of unprecedented moves surrounding the royal family. First, we have a Selection led by a princess instead of a prince. Second, we have a young woman ascending well before she’s been either fully trained or her father has passed. And now we have an outside suitor trying to steal the queen’s heart before one of the Elite has a chance. It is absolutely fascinating.”
I flipped channels again.
“Kathy here was on hand when the young Mr. Illéa came in. Can you tell us what you saw?”
“Well, he seemed a little bashful at first, as if he wasn’t ready to admit why he was here. But after about fifteen minutes of him lingering along the case, it was pretty obvious what he was looking for.”