‘What’s the matter, Cass?’ Matthew asks when he arrives
back from the gym and finds me white-faced.
The tears that I can’t manage to still, spill from my
eyes. ‘You know that young woman who was murdered?
It was Jane.’
‘Jane?’
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‘Yes, the girl I met a couple of weeks ago for lunch
in Browbury, the one that I met at the party Rachel
took me to.’
‘What?’ Matthew looks shocked. ‘Are you sure?’
‘Yes, Rachel phoned to tell me it was someone who
worked for her company. I asked what her name was
and she said Jane Walters. Susie’s cancelling her party
because she knew her too.’
‘I’m so sorry, Cass,’ he says, putting his arms around
me and holding me tight. ‘I can’t imagine how you
must be feeling.’
‘I just can’t believe it’s her. It doesn’t seem possible.
Maybe there’s been a mistake, maybe it’s another Jane
Walters.’
I sense him hesitate. ‘They’ve released a picture of
her,’ he says. ‘I saw it on my phone. I don’t know if…’
His voice trails off.
I shake my head because I don’t want to look, I don’t
want to have to face the truth if it is Jane in the photo.
But at least I would know.
‘Show me,’ I say, my voice trembling.
Matthew moves his arms from around me and we
go upstairs so he can get on the internet on his phone.
While he searches for the latest news update, I close my
eyes and pray – Please God, please God, don’t let it be Jane.
‘Here.’ Matthew’s voice is low. My heart thumps
with dread but I open my eyes and see a photo of the
murdered woman. Her blonde hair is shorter than when
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we met for lunch and her eyes seem less blue. But it is
definitely Jane.
‘It’s her,’ I whisper. ‘It’s her. Who would do such a
thing? Who would do such a terrible thing?’
‘A madman,’ Matthew says grimly.
I turn and bury my face in his chest, trying not to cry again because he’ll wonder why I’m so upset when in his eyes I barely knew Jane.
‘He’s still out there somewhere,’ I say, suddenly scared.
‘We need an alarm.’
‘Why don’t you phone a couple of firms tomorrow
and get them to come round and give us a quote? But
don’t commit to anything before we’ve gone through
everything with a fine tooth comb. You know what
these people are like, they’ll get you to sign up for things you don’t even need.’
‘All right,’ I say. But for the rest of the afternoon and evening, I’m desolate. All I can think of is Jane, sitting in her car waiting for me to rescue her. ‘I’m sorry, Jane,’
I whisper. ‘I’m so sorry.’
FRIDAY JULY 24th
Jane haunts me. It’s a week since her murder and I can’t
imagine there ever being a day when she isn’t foremost
in my mind. The guilt I feel hasn’t lessened with time.
If anything, it has increased. It doesn’t help that her
murder is still very much in the news, with non-stop
speculation by the media as to why she chose to stop on
such an isolated road in the middle of a storm. Tests show that nothing was wrong with her car but because it was a fairly old model with wipers that barely functioned, the theory put forward is that she was having trouble
seeing through her windscreen and was waiting for the
storm to pass before continuing her journey.
Gradually a picture begins to emerge. Just before eleven
she left a voicemail on her husband’s mobile saying she
was leaving one of the bars in Castle Wells, where she’d
been at a friend’s hen night, and would be home soon.
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restaurant with her friends but had returned five minutes later to use the phone there because she’d realised she’d left her mobile at home Her husband had fallen asleep on the sofa and hadn’t heard the call come in so he had no idea that she hadn’t turned up until the police knocked
on his door and told him the terrible news. Three people
have come forward to say that although they drove down
Blackwater Lane on Friday night, none of them saw her
car, parked or otherwise. This allows the police to narrow the time of the murder down to somewhere between eleven-twenty – as it would have taken her around fifteen minutes to reach the lay-by from Castle Wells – and five to one, when the passing motorist found her.
There’s a voice in my head urging me to contact the
police to tell them she was still alive when I passed her car at around eleven-thirty, but the other voice, the one telling me that they’ll be disgusted that I didn’t do anything to help her, is louder. And surely narrowing the time down by such a small margin won’t make any real difference to the murder inquiry. At least, that’s what I tell myself.
In the afternoon, a man from Superior Security
Systems arrives to give a quote for an alarm system.
He immediately gets my back up by arriving twenty