“Yes,” he exaggerates with a pout. “Based on the way she laid into me, I was positive I was going to come here and have you tell me to get lost permanently.”
“Poor baby,” I croon, also with exaggeration, before stepping into his body. My arms wrap around his waist and I press my cheek into the middle of his chest.
His arms automatically encircle me and he presses his lips briefly to my head. “Am I forgiven?”
“Yes,” I tell him with no hesitation, because I’d decided to do so the minute he told me he’d overslept. I mean, who hasn’t done that at some point in their life?
“Can I stay the night and can we have makeup sex?” he asks hopefully.
I snicker and squeeze him. “Sure, if that’s what floats your boat.”
Roman’s arms release me and his hands go to my shoulders, pushing me back from him enough so he can look down at my face. “You totally float my boat, in bed and out. I’m really sorry.”
“I said you were forgiven,” I tell him softly, loving the way his face monumentally softens with relief and hopefulness that he can have something “more” than anything he’s ever had in his life. “Let’s go have makeup sex now.”
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“I’m close,” Roman murmurs as he kisses my neck, moving in and out of me in long, slow glides of wet flesh on the verge of a spectacular release. “Tell me you’re close.”
“I am,” I breathe, my entire body quivering from this fantastic lovemaking. He’s already made me come twice, once with his mouth between my legs in what I’m thinking he felt was a further need for apology, and then again when he turned me over on the mattress, pulled me up onto my hands and knees, and fucked me quickly from behind. I came extraordinarily fast for a second time, collapsed from the dizziness that ensued, and then gasped in surprise when he pulled out, flipped me over and entered me again.
Since then, he slowed the pace to a rhythmic undulation that I think was meant to display his stamina, as well as prolong this indescribable feeling of complete connection that we have in this moment.
Roman’s mouth moves from my neck to my jaw before his lips claim mine in a deep, slow kiss that matches his strokes. I can’t help the deep moan that rumbles upward from my chest through my throat and rolls from my tongue onto his. It causes his hips to punch forward and he thrusts into me deep, causing me to instantly shatter once again. My body bucks from the force of my orgasm and my moan turns deeper, more animalistic. As if the flame of my orgasm causes Roman’s to fire, he pulls back and then dives in deep one more time, his hand going to my hips to dig in and hold me in place. He grinds his hips against me and his mouth pulls away from mine as he starts to come. Roman throws his head back, squeezes his eyes shut, and a long gust of breath comes outs as he releases…body trembling, fingers digging into my flesh, his face a mask of exquisite pleasure.
It’s so beautiful…I feel a storm of euphoria sweep through me that has nothing to do with what our bodies just shared, but everything to do with what our hearts did.
After, when our pulses calm and Roman leaves me briefly to take care of the condom, we wrap ourselves in each other’s arms and burrow in deep under the covers. We lay on our sides, bodies pressed tight and our limbs tangled.
“We should fight more,” I say into the darkness, feeling almost smug that we overcame this little hiccup.
Roman is silent for a moment, and I wait for him to tease me back, but instead he says, “You’re not an easy woman to fall for.”
This surprises me so much my body jerks slightly, which causes his arms to tighten around me. He immediately explains. “I’m just saying…you make me feel things that are so new and foreign that half the time I’m struggling just to figure out what the hell is going on with me.”
I relax, as I understand what he’s saying. Roman’s never had a relationship where you owe your time and attention to someone. He’s never had to make someone a priority and he’s trying to find his balance. It makes me smile brightly on the inside to know it’s actually a struggle for him, because even if it’s hard, he’s still clawing his way through these emotions to make it work with me.
What I want to tell him can’t be said. I want to say that he’s not easy to fall for either. Our relationship is fettered with his inability to give certain things like time with my family or his grueling work schedule that takes him away from me for days at a time. I don’t mention my frustration with him and Gray. I don’t share with him that I worry on a daily basis about whether we’ll be able to reach a place where I can have all the people in my life like and respect one another. I don’t tell him the tensions that permeate those issues are causing me heartburn and some sleepless nights.
Instead, I merely snuggle in closer to him and tell him, “It will get easier, Roman.”