I walk over to call out to her, to tell her that I’m finished getting ready, but then I pause as she breaks the surface of the water, slicks her hair back, and starts backstroking easily across the pool. She has no idea I’m standing here, has no idea that anyone is watching, and she’s so unself-conscious right now, so natural. So fucking sexy.
I lick my lips as I watch her, water droplets shimmering on the soft curves of her breasts, on the taut lines of her stomach. A small pool of water has gathered in her navel, highlighting the dip it makes in her trim but still feminine stomach. Her skin is a dark bronze in the bluish-clear water, and her hair is like a coffee-colored cloud around her head.
Her eyes are shut, her nipples are hard, and God-fucking-damn if I’m not more turned on than I’ve ever been. My cock is already pushing against my jeans, my pulse speeding up, and never have I wanted to fuck someone so badly that it’s like I want to crawl inside of them, like I want to fuse my soul to theirs.
But that’s how I feel now.
Quietly, like a sailor trying not to disturb a mermaid, I move closer to the door and pull out my phone. I start filming her.
It’s mesmerizing, the way she effortlessly cuts through the water. The grace, the supple lines of her body, the sharp contrasts in color coupled with the occasional tantalizing glance of her *—
It’s not porn, I know that, otherwise I’d be running for my actual camera. But it’s undeniably, powerfully, painfully erotic; it’s that slow burn of desire that reminds you with subtle but insistent nudges that you are a sexual being. It’s the kind of image that lodges in your mind before it nudges your dick, and makes it that much harder to shake, that much more consuming. My theater teacher in high school liked to talk about the unities, where time and place and action all converged into one point. Well, Devi is my unity right now. Drawing my body and my mind and my heart into a single, crystalline point, fusing all the disparate Logans into one bewitched, infatuated man.
I was wrong earlier—I’m not falling for her.
I’ve already fallen.
I don’t know how, given that I can count the number of times we’ve hung out on one hand, and I don’t know why necessarily, given that she’s so vastly different than the other career porn stars I’ve dated.
But it’s true, nonetheless.
I tap my phone screen and end my private video, my throat tight for no reason other than the display of beauty in front of me. I want to jump in there, I want to fish her out of that damn pool and make love to her right here in the sun, but I don’t, because I’m a coward. Because I still remember how it felt to be abandoned, rejected by someone I loved.
Instead, I clear my throat. She drops her feet to the bottom of the pool with a sheepish smile. “Sorry,” she grins. “I couldn’t resist.”
“I can’t resist you,” I rejoin, but the joke is half-hearted because she’s climbing out of the pool, and I’m having trouble breathing. Water streams off her firm, curvy body as she walks towards me. She seems so casual, so open about being naked, and then I wonder if it’s because she is always like that or if it’s because she trusts me and feels comfortable with me.
The thought gives me a little puff of pride, with a simultaneous jolt of affection, and I’m determined to keep her comfortable around me, no matter what the cost. Even if it means keeping my inner Romeo caged up for the time being. I’m sure she has guys claiming to be in love with her all the time. The last thing she needs is her co-worker doing it.
“Do you want a towel?” I ask.
“Yes, please.”
I go fetch her one, but—I can’t help myself—I don’t hand it to her. I towel her off myself instead, drying her limbs before I stand up and dab gently at her face.
She’s smiling. “Full service pool. I like it.”
“It’s not the only thing that’s full service. Come on inside.”
Without bothering to scoop up her clothes, she follows me, and while I talk, I try to drown out the voice in my mind that’s screaming she’s almost naked she’s almost naked, under that towel she’s naked. I’m around naked women every day; it shouldn’t be something that affects me. But it’s Devi, and so it does. Not only because her body is delicious and perfect, but because this marks the first time I’ve seen her completely naked in person since Real Playdates all those years ago.
Somehow, I manage to keep it together—at least on the surface. “So, I have a little something special planned for our oral scene tonight. Do you have any plans late tonight or early tomorrow?”
“Tomorrow?” she asks, and her cheeks darken. “Um, no. I’m pretty much completely free until morning.”
“Excellent,” I say, walking backward into my room. I re-emerge with a bag stuffed full of shit—film equipment but also clothes and toiletries and a giant-ass sleeping bag hanging off the side. “Our scene might be filmed late at night. Is that okay?”
She swallows. And nods. “More than okay,” she gets out.
God, I want to fuck her right now. Watch that delicate throat move as I take a nipple into my mouth. Watch that mouth part when I finally push inside of her.
Patience, patience, I coax myself. All good things come in time.
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