Grad school was brutal. Every student in my cohort was cultured, experienced, and basically brilliant. With impressive professional backgrounds covering topics like foreign affairs abroad, reporting from the campaign trail, and even medical journalism. I was no slouch—I’d carved out a respectable niche for myself in the sports writing world—but it was intimidating. The pressure to keep up was insane. And not just to keep up; I wanted to be at the top of my class like I had been in undergrad.
Possible in theory; grueling in practice.
I groaned, slumping over my open Numbers, Statistics, and Data Journalism textbook. I’d been studying for so long that the words were blurring together. The more I reread it, the less sense it made. Like staring at a word so long that it no longer looked like a real word.
And sadly, schoolwork waited for no woman—or her birthday, which was today.
Downstairs, the front door slammed. I glanced at my phone to discover I’d completely lost track of time. Chase was a couple of minutes late, and I wasn’t even dressed. Footsteps sounded on the hardwood, and moments later, he appeared in the doorway to my office, his keys in one hand.
He flashed me a heart-stopping smile. “Sorry I’m late. I had to make a quick stop.” His smile faded, and he studied me with a frown. “Have you been studying all day?”
“Maybe.” I hated to admit it, because he already felt bad about being gone all day for training camp.
“James.” He crossed his arms, leaning against the doorframe. “Did you at least eat something? Take a break?”
Chase had left for the arena early, and I’d rolled out of bed not long after, taking a quick shower before shuffling directly to my office down the hall. I’d even set up a Keurig machine on a side table near my desk so I didn’t have to leave to make coffee. It was a brilliant, if dangerous, move on my part.
And I hadn’t exactly eaten breakfast. But I did eat lunch, so that counted as “something,” right?
“Don’t worry,” I said. “I ate lunch on the deck and studied out there for a bit.”
Or I tried to until our neighbor’s kids and their friends got into their pool and yelled Marco and Polo at the top of their lungs. After moving out of an apartment complex full of people in their twenties who threw ragers every weekend, I thought we’d be guaranteed some peace and quiet in the suburbs. I never imagined it would be noisier here, but that was absolutely the case between the hours of three and eight p.m. Guess that’s what we got for buying in a family friendly neighborhood.
Chase always laughed and said it’d be our kids making a racket soon enough. Fair point. Especially if our kids were anything like him—based on what his mother said, I was going to have my hands full.
Or maybe our kids would end up being quiet and studious like I was a child. But probably not.
“Did you take a break?” Chase repeated, raising his dark eyebrows.
“Yeah, I took a few study breaks in between.”
He narrowed his eyes. “Uh-huh.”
Chase, still standing in the doorway, was freshly showered post-training and wore a fitted black tee and newer jeans. I, on the other hand, was barefoot in black yoga pants and a random pink tank top, with wild, wavy hair. He’d kept my birthday present a secret, but regardless of what it was, my current hair and outfit situation probably wouldn’t cut it.
I flashed him an apologetic look and stood. “Can you give me a few minutes to change? I’m a mess.”
“You look cute.” He stepped in front of me and put his hands on my waist, angling in for a brief kiss. “But I’ve gotta grab something to eat anyway.”
No surprise there. The man was always eating. Our grocery bill was astronomical.
“Oka—”
Instead of releasing me, he ducked his head, captured my lips, and kissed me again, deeper. I dug my fingertips into his shoulders, my breath turning shallow. Just as I was starting to lose myself in the kiss, he pulled back, giving me a knowing look. If we kept going, we wouldn’t be leaving the house anytime soon, if at all.
“Now,” he said, steering me out of the office and into the hallway. “Go get ready. I’ll give you fifteen minutes.” He smacked me on the butt before turning and strolling away.
I paused for a moment, my burned-out brain trying to catch up from the kiss and a full day of studying. It wasn’t until he was out of sight that I remembered my question.
“Can you give me a hint about how to dress?” I called.
His voice echoed from in the kitchen. “Wear pants.”
Pants. Okay. Vague, but better than nothing.
I headed into the all-white master bathroom and quickly washed my face before applying a little makeup and a spray of my new perfume. Then I stood in the middle of our oversized walk-in closet, staring at the rows of clothes aimlessly. After changing three times, I finally settled on broken-in jeans, a white tank top, and a lightweight tan knit sweater—it was fall, and I had turned into such a wimp about cool weather that I could pass as a native Californian.
Inside his black SUV, the air conditioning blasted full force—as always—and I quickly turned the fan down and the passenger-side temperature up so I didn’t freeze to death en route to our destination. Chase shifted into reverse and placed a hand on the back of my seat, shoulder-checking before he backed out of the driveway.
“How was camp?” I asked, sliding on my tortoiseshell sunglasses. They were another early birthday present from him. It was like birthday week in our house.
Chase shrugged. “It was good. Always a little rough to get back into the swing of things.”
“A little rough?” Now he was the one telling white lies about his day. He was tired, and he looked it.
“Fucking brutal,” he admitted. “But I hate to complain when you’ve been working so hard and I’ve barely seen you.”
Between his pre-season training and the start of my journalism grad program, quality time together had been scarce. It was an abrupt change from our leisurely summer, the majority of which we had spent lounging lakeside a few doors down from Dallas and Shiv, taking out the boat, and sleeping in late. Having zero real-life responsibilities to worry about had been a nice reprieve, but they’d come crashing down again in full force lately.
Plus, now that we were back in LA, and Dallas and Shiv were in Colorado, I was going through best friend withdrawal. I’d made some friends in LA, especially other girlfriends and wives from the team, but it wasn’t the same. Neither was drinking wine via video call.
“This program is intense.” I raked a hand through my hair, which I’d recently cut to shoulder-length. It still felt bizarrely short, like I was missing a limb. “It’s already kicking my butt.”
“Hey.” He placed his hand on my knee, warmth from his skin radiating through the denim fabric. “I understand the little fish, big pond feeling. But you’re there for a reason.”
“You have to say that.”
Chase had been intimidated for all of five minutes during his first NHL game. Then he skated around the ice like he owned it and had ever since.
“Doesn’t make it less true.”
Outside the window of the SUV, the freeway sped by, but I still had no idea where we were going.
“When are you going to tell me where you’re taking me?”
Chase shot me a sidelong glance, his lips tugging. “You’ll see soon enough.”
Three exits later, a huge gray structure appeared in the distance. The lettering on its oversized red sign grew clearer as we drew closer. We were headed to the same place he’d been only hours earlier.
“Are we going to the arena?”
“Skating,” he said. “Birthday tradition.”