I make another loop around the track as he continues to call out my name. As I approach him again, he moves into my lane and I veer to avoid him.
There's a sharp tug on the back of my shirt and I stumble forward to a stop. I'm gasping for breath as Garret turns me around and holds me against him so tight I can't move despite my efforts to break free.
"Stop." He says it quietly now as he presses my head against his chest. "Just stop running."
I give up trying to fight him and let my body collapse into his.
A minute ago I never wanted to see him again, but now I don't want him to let me go.
"Tell me what's wrong," he says. "If it's something I did, I'm sorry. I'll fix it."
The cold rain continues to pour down in a steady stream. My shorts and shirt feel heavy against my skin and I shiver as the wind blows around us.
He runs his hand along my arm. "What are you doing out here? It's freezing and you're soaking wet. Let's go inside."
My legs aren't ready to move. My entire body is aching, leaving my emotions numb, just the way I want them.
"Jade, talk to me."
I look up and see him watching me, waiting for some kind of answer. Before he can speak again, I reach up and press my lips to his. I shouldn't be kissing him so I don't understand why I'm doing this. But I don't understand anything right now.
Garret gently pulls away. "Tell me what's going on. Why are you out here? Why were you at the party? And why were you drinking?" His voice is filled with so much worry and so much concern. After seeing him at the party I don't know why he even cares. But I know he does. I can feel it and I can see it in his face and it pisses me off. I don't want him to care about me. Not now. Now after what he did.
I push away but his arms tighten around me. I won't look at him. Because when I do all I see is the image of him coming out of that room. With her. And then I see the vodka bottle and it reminds me of my mom and that letter she wrote.
It's too much. It's too many emotions. I want the numbness back.
The rain continues to pour and I shiver again.
"We're going inside." Garret's tone is forceful. He finally lets me go but grabs my hand, pulling on me to go with him. "Jade, come on. I'm not leaving here without you."
My mind is still racing, trying to make sense of things that make no sense at all.
When I don't move, he picks me up and carries me up the hill to our dorm.