“Colin.” Talon hit the table again. “He wanted you back. Somehow that motherfucker got into our house.”
“What about Larry Wade?” I asked. “It could have been him.”
“Why would Larry leave me a rose?” Jade asked.
I let out a sarcastic laugh. “Why would Larry molest his nephew?”
Eight eyes met mine, all widened. Perhaps I shouldn’t have said such blatant and tactless words, but really, the time for pussyfooting around this subject was long past. “Look, I’m sorry if that upset any of you. I really am. But this is no longer a secret. Everybody knows why Larry is sitting in a jail cell. It made the news, and this time Dad and Wendy Madigan weren’t around to cover it up. Maybe I should have quashed it. In truth, I thought about it, but what good would that do any of us now?” I zeroed in on two of the eyes. Talon’s. “Did I do the right thing, Tal? Did I do the right thing by not covering it up?”
He met my gaze, and his expression softened. A bit. “I would’ve covered it up myself if I’d wanted to, Joe. As humiliating as it is, I know it wasn’t my fault. Maybe my story will help someone. Who knows? That’s the least of my concerns right now. Right now, I want to know who the hell broke into my house and put a flower on my woman’s pillow.”
Chapter One
Jonah
In the end, I knew the guilt would eventually kill me.
As I lay on the harsh pavement in a dark alley, guilt—in the form of a couple homeless vagrants booting me in the kidneys—was kicking my ass.
I always protected my face. I couldn’t risk my brothers seeing evidence of what I was up to. Anything from the neck down was fair game though. Sometimes I even threw the guys a couple bucks for their trouble.
Tonight, though… Nope.
Tonight guilt would end my life.
And I welcomed it.
“Joe! Thank God!”
My sister’s voice. I opened my eyes. Marjorie’s form was a blur, but it was her. Her dark eyes shone with concern. Where the hell was I?
I groaned. My lower back throbbed, and I inhaled sharply. Big mistake. Damn, guilt had gotten a few of my ribs, too.
But I was alive.
Still alive.
“Thank God you woke up. I’ll go get Ryan. He just stepped out for a minute to take a call.”
Marj’s blur was replaced with a blue blur I didn’t recognize.
“How are you feeling, Mr. Steel?”
Like shit, thanks. I wasn’t sure if I’d said it out loud.
“I’m going to check your blood pressure. You might feel some squeezing.”
Not likely. I couldn’t feel anything over the bass drum beating on my back.
“You’ve been beaten pretty badly,” the blur said.
Not badly enough, apparently. I inhaled again, and a knife sliced through me. Damned broken ribs. Nothing I hadn’t experienced before many times. This was the first time I’d ended up in the hospital, though. As I tried to focus on the blur through slitted eyes, my heart sped up.
What had I been thinking? I didn’t want to die.
I had this revelation every time after I let myself get beaten up. Each time would be the last. I swore it. Well, this one would truly be the last. Even though she’d been a blur, Marj’s voice had cracked with fear. I couldn’t take that sound in my baby sister’s voice, nor in the voices of either of my brothers.
I breathed in again, wincing at the sharp, knifing pain.
Never again, goddamnit. This dangerous self-indulgence was over.
“Hey, you gave us a pretty good scare, Joe. Thank God you managed to crawl to that bar and get help. What were you doing in that neighborhood? What the hell happened?”
Ryan’s voice. A bar? I’d been at a bar? The last thing I remembered was blacking out in the alley. I opened my mouth to speak, but only a crackled croak emerged.
“It’s okay, bro. Don’t try to talk. Looks like you’re going to live.”
Dr. Melanie Carmichael sat across from me in her office decorated in dark wood and hunter-green. She was as beautiful as I remembered. She and I had met months ago in a hotel bar. We’d both been staying at the hotel for different conferences. Her golden-blond hair had fallen in gentle waves against her shoulders as she sat next to me, sipping a cocktail. She wore it up today, pulled back in a tight bun at the top of her head. She was still gorgeous, even with the severe schoolteacher hairstyle. Piercing green eyes, though—they were the same. I hadn’t been able to look away from them that night in the bar, and I was having a difficult time trying to do so now.
How was I supposed to tell this woman my innermost thoughts?
My brother Talon had, and he was on his way to healing from a horrific childhood trauma of being abducted and held captive by three men when he was ten years old. Once I had regained consciousness in the hospital, Talon had come and begged me to make an appointment with his therapist.
So here I was, three weeks later, my ribs still aching a bit, sitting in a supple leather recliner. My brother had sat in this chair, no doubt, and told this woman his deepest secrets. Now it was my turn.