Liars and Losers Like Us

Justin, the guy who never has a problem laughing at his own jokes if someone else won’t, says, “Wow, what a crazy coincidence. The two best friends that anyone could have, voted for each other.”

I sink farther down into my seat, wondering what it’d be like to actually disappear into the hard brown plastic.

While Justin laughs and breaks into a song about two best friends, the girls name another girl, three more popular guys, and then Sean. Oh wow. His name is practically across from mine. A notion creeps into my head like a tiny spider. Maybe being on Prom Court wouldn’t be that bad. Seeing Sean in a tux and being on stage with him could be—

A snort erupts from the girl behind Justin. Mr. N. has written “Maisey Morgan” right under my name on the board. Sean laughs under his breath as I look over to check out Maisey’s reaction. She’s pulling and twisting her hair into her fist and I can only see the side of her face but it’s probably the same shade as mine. Like me, no way was she expecting someone to shout out her name.

Maisey Morgan is the biggest nerd in our class. She’s pretty much owned that title since elementary school. Maisey’s the homely doll at the bottom of your old toy box. Stringy red hair, gangly arms, wobbly legs; eyes beady and vacant. Our class has been singing the Maisey Mouse song to her ever since someone left a dead mouse in her desk in sixth grade. I’ve never sung the song to her personally, but I’m not going to lie. It’s almost a habit to hum it in my head when I see her scurrying down the hallway. Just because I haven’t walked up to her and called her “Maisey Mouse” to her face, or thrown wadded up worksheets at her, doesn’t mean she hasn’t been involved in the punch lines of a few of my jokes throughout the years.

“Oh, to be Maisey’s King!” Justin says in a high-pitched squeal. Then he sings in a cartoony voice, “I just caaaaan’t waaait to be king!”

Maisey turns, face flushed and her stare is blank. As she turns back, I smile at Kallie, raising my hand again.

“Justin Conner.” That shuts Justin up and everyone laughs. Sean Mills turns around and looks at me. (At me!)

“Good one, Bree.” And he winks. Wait. Maybe it was just a blink. I try super hard not to smile but the rest of my face smiles for me. I feel myself floating out of my chair. I also catch a breeze of his scent. It reminds me of hot apple cider and driftwood. To be real, I’m not even sure what driftwood smells like—but it’s for sure a woodsy tone. It feels like I’m immersed in whatever feeling people are talking about when they say someone is “boy crazy.” Which could be a good name for his cologne. Or soap. Hell, maybe it’s just his natural scent.

Kallie raises her right then left eyebrow and mouths something that looks like “I told you so.”

I smirk, pretending to write something important in my notebook while Mr. Norderick copies the names from the board onto his notepad.

“Good work, kids. Hopefully your choices will prevail on Friday and all will be right with BHS and the USA.”

I give him a courtesy laugh over Justin’s groan. Mr. Norderick’s not so bad for a teacher. He knows about my parents getting divorced and didn’t make a big deal about it.

My dad moved out this summer and I haven’t really made a big deal about telling everyone. Or anyone. I didn’t feel like talking about it, plus I’m not sure how something like that gets announced. And because it’s been like eight months, it feels more awkward to say something now. For some reason, my mom felt a need to call the school counselor to let her know that she and dad were in the middle of a divorce. Maybe she forgot that I’m seventeen. Ms. Selinski, the counselor for all students with last names A–L, must’ve passed our little family drama on to all my teachers. About half of them mentioned something first semester. But on the first day of second semester none of my teachers said anything except Mr. N. who asked me to stay after. He said he figured I’m still dealing with a lot right now and if his assignments got to be too much or I needed help with anything, to let him know. That’s all he said. He didn’t pry or give off any kind of creeper vibe, so I appreciated that.

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That night at dinner Mom asks the usual, “How was school?”

I smile, contemplating how much to tell her. She’s tried to have more “sit down” dinners since Dad moved out. Since she’s a lot happier these days, it’s actually kind of nice. Also, I’m not the best person at putting myself out there to hang with other friends when Kallie’s not available. So, “Post-divorce Mom” is kind of like a live-in friend these days.

“Something more than ‘fine’ I’m guessing?”

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