My mouth opened, but I had no clue what to say. I felt like the total shit that I was. I got where she was coming from. She shouldn’t have lied, and I could see she regretted that decision, but I understood. That last day, when we had that nasty argument, was a horrible day. Jordan handled the situation badly, and I didn’t handle it all.
“I’m sorry, Sam. If it’s any consolation, I never really believed you had planned the pregnancy. I was shocked at what was happening, and I didn’t know what to think. I will tell you this… I have never thought of you as that type of person. You are not deceitful.”
“But, I lied about the baby.”
“Yes, but I think you thought you were doing what was best for you at the time.”
A smile graced her trembling lips, and my heart ached with love for her. I wished I could tell her, but the time wasn’t right yet.
“Thank you,” she said softly.
I nodded and decided it was time for a subject change.
“What are you reading?”
Barely blinking at the sudden switch, she shrugged. “Nothing really.”
“What’s it about?”
Sam’s cheeks flushed pink and she turned away, hiding her face by taking a sip of water. Chuckling, I reached over and playfully pulled on her hair.
“Come on, there’s nothing to be embarrassed about. I think all books are great. They’re fun, a fantasy, a great way to escape. Just because it’s a romance doesn’t mean anything other than you like romance.”
She was silent for a few moments while she ate. I ate some more as well, giving her time. I could tell she was a little embarrassed to be talking about a romance novel, but the most important part was that she was actually having a conversation with me. Knowing a little more about her curiosity with shifters was an added bonus.
“Well, it’s a paranormal romance about a guy who can turn into a wolf,” she finally said, looking up at me cautiously.
“A werewolf?”
“Yeah.”
“And?”
“He meets this woman, well, he saves her from a gang in a back alley and she sees him shift. He kidnaps her so she won’t tell, and she gets pissed.”
I chewed, thinking over what she said. Kidnapping was drastic, but I could see how it was feasible.
“What happens next?”
She blushed, but shrugged as if it was no big deal. “They have sex.”
I put my plate down on the bed beside me, giving her more of my attention. “Then what?”
She shook her head. “I don’t know. I haven’t gotten that far yet.”
“Let me see?”
She gave me the book, and I opened it to the page she had dog-eared. After reading only two paragraphs my head jerked up.
“Whoa!”
“Give that back,” Sam said, reaching for the book, her eyes narrowed.
I could tell she was trying not to laugh, and as much as I wanted to, I didn’t play with her. I gave the book back to her with a smile.
“That was pretty hot, kind of like reading porn.”
“Hey!” She slapped me on the arm with the book. “I thought you wouldn’t make fun.”
Rubbing my arm in mock pain, I laughed. “I’m not, I love porn.”
“You like porn?”
“Well, yeah, most guys do.”
“Do you watch it a lot?”
She was beginning to sound concerned, and I grinned. She was so sweet sometimes.
“Eh, no.” I stopped laughing and brought my face a little closer to hers, looking her in the eye. “I’d much rather have the real thing.”
“Oh.”
Her breath fluttered against my lips and what started out playful, turned serious. I ached to touch her, and I couldn’t hold out any longer.
Unbelievably, my hand shook as I reached out, hoping she wouldn’t stop me. She didn’t, and I ran my fingers through her soft hair. I watched the strands slide between my fingers, completely dazed that I was actually touching her like that.
Our eyes met, and I could tell she was hesitant, but she hadn’t said stop yet. I leaned in slowly until our lips barely brushed. Hers parted on a gasp, and I took advantage, running my tongue lightly over her bottom lip. She tasted a little of garlic and her own sweet flavor.
I brought up my other hand, cupping her face, never taking my eyes off hers as I nibbled lightly. With a breathy sigh, she closed her eyes and kissed me back, teasing my tongue with hers.
I broke away, placing small kisses down her chin and onto her neck. Burying my nose right behind her ear, I breathed in her sexy scent. It was the wrong thing to do. Her scent had my control slipping and next thing I knew, I was plundering her mouth, licking, sucking, nibbling until I felt her small hand against my chest.
At first, I thought she was just as hungry for me as I was for her, but then I realized she was pushing at my chest not pulling me closer. Breaking the kiss, I held her face gently as we both caught our breath.
“Please Alex, we can’t,” Sam pleaded.
I watched her confused eyes begin to glisten with the first sign of tears, and I let her go.