Russell and Ellen kiss Denise and rush out, hoping to be home at a respectable time. It’ll be tough considering the time and store traffic this week, but Wade and I are here for as long as they need us.
Wade stands in front of Denise, arms crossed like a bouncer’s, and looks down at her with a funny-serious glare. “All right, Dee, we are your minions. What do you want to play first?”
Denise runs into her room and returns with an armful of well-loved board games. I think she’s going to make a move for Monopoly Junior, but then she opens the fifty-piece turtle puzzle we once did with her, and if she can be strong enough to piece back together this family of three turtles, then I can, too—then I will, too. Wade has always been more of an observer whenever it comes to puzzles, but I think he’s surprising even himself when he begins participating, starting at the top right, which—spoiler alert—is the cave the turtles are headed to.
It’s kind of cool, like Wade is making sure there’s a home for the turtles Denise and I are creating.
Normally you lead the stories behind each puzzle. I’m ready to do so in your place, but Denise cuts in and her imagination is just as wild as yours. When the puzzle is done, Denise tells—excuse me, commands—us to put the puzzle away while she runs to grab another game.
“I never understand this part,” Wade says. “Breaking apart the puzzle.”
“Theo and I kept some,” I say. Talking about you before, when Wade and I were doing our own thing, was legit awkward. Now that we’re grounding ourselves, it feels natural to bring you up, although a part of me hopes it isn’t making Wade feel a certain way.
“It’s a waste of time if you don’t. It’s like sand castles that people just body slam their friends onto if you leave for a minute,” Wade says.
“I don’t think so. You still take some experience away with each puzzle. Puzzles are sort of like life because you can mess up and rebuild later, and you’re likely smarter the next time around.” I pull apart the edges of ocean and seaweed, then the fins, then the shells, and lastly the heads. I trust the turtles will come out to play again, maybe another time or two before Denise takes a shot at your harder puzzles.
Denise returns with her speakers and connects them to your mother’s laptop and blasts the music from her playlist. “Dance party!” And then she’s dancing with her eyes closed, so she’s blind to how she’s all arms and shoulders. I’m thinking I’m going to have to force Wade to be silly, but he’s up before me and looking down at me with his serious-funny look. He extends a hand and helps me up, letting me go quickly. His head is bopping out of sync with the beat, but maybe he’s lost in his head, a completely different song getting him through this little girl’s dance party.
“Dance, Griffin!” she cries.
I do. I dance like I would with you, which just basically means a lot of hopping, and the three of us dance so hard we’re probably pissing off the family downstairs. Even if they have the balls to come up here with some noise complaint, they’re going to have to bitch to the door because we’re not stopping. I’m not interrupting the happiness of a girl who’s been missing her older brother, the happiness of a guy who’s been missing the first love of his life, the happiness of another guy who lost his best friend, the collective happiness of three people in desperate need of happiness.
When the dance party finally winds down, Wade and I find your mother’s iced tea in the fridge and get glasses for all of us, though who knows when Denise will get to hers since she’s still doing handstands against the wall. We should’ve really encouraged her to go to bed by now, but if she has this much energy, I can’t imagine she’ll actually fall asleep. I hate to think about the thoughts she’s thinking when she’s stuck in bed alone.
My phone buzzes.
It’s a text from Jackson: I bit my tongue twice today. IDK why. If you bit your tongue a third time, would you bite it a fourth time?
I don’t know what the hell kind of message that’s supposed to be, but it’s certainly not a question I’m planning on answering. I throw my phone to the other side of the couch and tell Denise to choose a movie. Denise puts on Peter Pan, which makes me think of Jackson’s former best friends in that play, but I shove Jackson to the back of my mind.
Halfway through the movie, Denise falls asleep on Wade’s arm, and Wade is minutes away from completely passing out himself. It’s early by his standards, so I don’t know why he’s so tired, but it definitely has me wondering what he’s thinking about when he’s alone in bed.