I felt all of Finn’s love inside me. Pulling, pushing, a feeling that went beyond fucking. When he came, I shut my eyes and lost myself in that world of throbbing pleasure. I felt him pulsing inside me for what felt like hours. Keeping me on the edge of orgasm. His hands slid up my body, spreading wide across my stomach and chest, pulling me up, devouring me with his strength. Strength that was deserved and earned through working out and fighting for survival.
I stood and felt him slowly ease out of my body. His right hand cupped my right breast. His left hand rested on my belly. The water hit our bodies and I put my head to his shoulder. It was so calming, relaxing, a moment that I’d never forget. I looked at him and he looked at me.
“What about the Cormac thing?” I asked.
“What?”
“You and Cormac. Fighting. Have you thought about going back to that?”
“We’re standing naked in a shower together and you’re asking me about my future?”
“Yeah, I guess,” I said. “Is that a problem?”
“No. Not at all.” Finn kissed me. The water could never match the heat between us. “I don’t know. That’s the answer. I make a lot of money with Fiore. He’s a good man to me. Always straight with me. I have my own celebrity status doing what I do. I have protection. I mean, I rolled a truck and made a phone call… and it was all taken care of.”
“But it’s all illegal,” I whispered. “That’s the life you want? For yourself? Your… family…?”
“I don’t have any family.”
I reached up and touched his cheek. “You have me.”
And maybe there’s life inside me already.
If there was, did it matter? The thought of carrying a baby and then giving it away to Fiore… just, no.
“I have you,” Finn said. “And right now, we have to get through all this shit. We have to stick together and do whatever it takes. Zander is going to keep pushing and Fiore will keep fighting. For us, we just have to keep fucking.”
I slipped my hand back and grabbed at Finn. “I think we can arrange that.”
Finn smiled big. “We’re going to run out of hot water soon. Let’s take this to the bed.”
I nodded.
I wanted to tell him how much it meant to me that he opened himself and the cabin for me. I knew how hard it was for him to talk about Carrie. I knew how hard it was for him to take me inside the cabin. Not just using his hands or his mouth, but he offered his entire body to me. Again and again.
I stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around my body. I looked down and touched my stomach. As I swallowed hard, trying to gather up all my emotions, I thought about it. I really thought about it. Being pregnant. By Finn. Carrying his child.
It was insane to think.
It was even more insane to want it… and to not want to give the baby to Fiore.
I looked back at the shower and saw Finn’s figure through the curtain.
I bit my lip and didn’t know how to handle it all.
I convinced myself I was better off waiting in bed, naked, and letting Finn fuck all the worry out of me.
That at least made me smile.
I opened the door and screamed.
Fiore stood there, something in his hand.
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I stumbled back and almost lost my towel.
Finn dove out of the shower, completely naked, fists curled tight, up, ready to attack.
“Well then,” Fiore said as though this was a normal thing for him. “Did I just catch you two after a few rounds in the shower?”
“What the hell?” Finn yelled.
I leaned against the bathroom sink. I looked at Finn, standing there, dripping wet, naked, and my eyes couldn’t help but scan his body from the side. There were muscles everywhere. Aside from his bulky arms, the way his abs curled around to his ribs, showing off ridges that could make any woman melt. He had his legs staggered in a stance, all of it coming to him naturally. He was born to fight. To defend. To protect.
“Cover your dick up,” Fiore said.
Finn grabbed a towel. “What are you doing here?”
“Checking up on things.”
“We’re fine,” I said.
“I can see that,” Fiore said. “How do you feel, Shayna? Full?”
His eyes were big and glossy. It was really weird.
“What’s happening with Zander?” Finn asked.
“Don’t worry about that,” Fiore said. “I brought a gift.”
He held up a bag and shook it.
“What’s that?” I asked.
Fiore threw the bag at me.
I thought it was a severed body part. That’s where my mind went. That’s the life I had lived for years now.
It wasn’t a severed body part in the bag.
I took out the small package and felt my heart almost stop.
It was a set of pregnancy tests.
“Christ,” Finn said.
“It’s time to see,” Fiore said. “We can’t wait any longer for this. The moment you’re pregnant and start showing is when I take down Zander for good.”
“You already told him about me,” I said.
“But I need the proof. I want the piss stick with the plus sign to send to him. Then I’m going to send an ultrasound picture. Oh… it’s going to break him…”
I looked at Finn. All he could do was nod at me.
I had to do this. I had to take a freaking pregnancy test.
It should have been an intense moment for me… well, it was, but not like it was supposed to be. It should have been exciting and scary, wanting to see a positive result and celebrate.
But I didn’t know what to think or feel.
“Do it,” Fiore said.
Finn stepped toward the door. “Just yell when you’re…”
“No,” Fiore said. “I’m watching.”