It always seemed larger when it was empty, without the bodies of my friends and colleagues to fill it. The big floodlights were off, but the smaller stage lights were still on, preventing accidents among the stagehands and cleanup crews who were doubtless sweeping through the building.
“Don’t you always feel more alive when you’re on stage?” He finally let me go, taking a few quick steps away before twirling on his heel and offering his hand with a flourish. He was grinning, looking absolutely delighted with himself. “Miss Pryor, may I have this dance?”
I didn’t have a good way to refuse. I wanted to tell him “no,” to turn and run and find my people—but they were good people. They could do this without me if they had to, and keeping Clint from pursuing me through the theater was as important as getting back to them in a timely fashion. Still, I tried. “I’m not wearing good dancing shoes,” I demurred.
“So? I’ve seen you dance barefoot and in six-inch spike heels. I think you can manage a basic waltz in sneakers, don’t you?” His hand remained outstretched. “I’m not hitting on you, if that’s what you’re worried about. I’m just concerned. You’re not the brilliant dancer I used to know. Something’s eating you. I want it to stop.”
“Life moves on,” I said, and slid my hand into his. He promptly spun me in, and then back out again, moving slowly enough that I could follow him, yet fast enough to make it clear he trusted my capabilities. It would have been flattering, if I hadn’t been so worried. “I had to stop dancing for a while before the show called. I’m not in the best shape.”
“Liar,” he said fondly, beginning to waltz me around the stage. Our steps matched like we’d been practicing together for years. I forced my shoulders down, trying not to let my tension show. Ballroom dance is serious business for those who perform on a competitive level, and we’ve all learned how to hide our fear. “You’re in impeccable shape. If fitness were the only thing we judged, you’d be in the top three easily. You might just walk away with the whole show. What’s eating you, Valerie?”
“Life,” I said, with a very small shrug. “It’s been hard. I thought I’d leave here and find this glorious career waiting for me, and instead, I found a lot of failed auditions, some competitions where I didn’t even place, and a revolving door of partners. I never expected it to be easy. I definitely didn’t think it was going to be impossible.”
“It’s not,” he said. “Why didn’t you call me? I would have arranged some private auditions for you. I can open doors, you know. If you want it, I can make it happen.”
“What would it cost me?” There was no music, but the waltz was so familiar that neither of us needed it. We didn’t dance around the stage; we glided, and his hand was a hot weight on my waist, not crossing any lines of propriety apart from the ones that had already been left far behind us. There was nothing sexual about it. Clint had never pressured me for anything in that direction. So far as I knew, he’d never pressured any of the dancers. It was just there, reminding me that escape was impossible, that I was the dancer and he was the judge, and if I ran, he would pursue.
I couldn’t even blame him for that. He thought he was helping. He thought he was keeping me from losing faith and losing focus, when what he was really keeping me from was the chance to save a life.
Dominic, Alice, get in here, I thought, and wished Sarah were with me. I hadn’t realized how much I’d come to depend on the presence of our resident telepath until she was gone. We wouldn’t even have had to worry about how to get her into the theater. Sarah was a cuckoo. Cuckoos went where they wanted to go, and nobody stopped them. Most of the time, no one even realized they were there. That was what made them so damn dangerous.
“You’d have to promise me you were going to be serious,” Clint said, and his voice was solemn, and his eyes were grave. “I know how good you are, Valerie. Sometimes I think you don’t. Sometimes I think this is all just a game to you.”
“I promise, I don’t think of this as a game.” He twirled me gently out. I automatically scribed a wide arch in the air with my hand before spinning back in again, returning to our frame. My body knew the way, even if my mind wanted nothing more than to get away from here and back to my mission. “Everything I do, I do as seriously as I possibly can.”
Clint nodded. “That was what I was hoping to hear. You could be one of the great ones, Valerie. We could be talking about the things you did for dance for the next fifty years. Don’t throw that away.”
He stopped dancing. So did I. Then, without another word, he took his hand from my waist, raised our joined hands to his lips, and kissed my knuckles. Then he turned and walked away, leaving me alone on the stage.
Thirteen
“There’s no crime in missing the shot. The only crime is being too damn slow to take it.”
—Frances Brown
The Crier Theater, four seconds later