“Why here?” Cole asks.
“Think.”
There’s no hint of malice in Dylan’s expression. Not even a hint of challenge. But there never is. He’s smart enough to make someone believe personal destruction is in their best interests.
“I’m not an Arizona historian, Dylan.”
“But you know history is the reason we’re here. Which means you know me. So think. Why would I pick this place?”
Think back on our relationship, is what he’s saying. Think back on all the conversations we had, all the private movements we shared together, moments I was willing to throw away completely as soon as you cut off my funding so more volunteers wouldn’t die.
Luckily Cole doesn’t have to. He knew the answer after a brief web search. He knew the answer when Ed asked him the question on the flight, but to say so would have meant admitting to a level of intimacy he wasn’t ready to reveal to Ed just yet.
Still, he scans their surroundings to see if there’s some clue that might suggest his first guess is wrong.
Just behind Dylan great shafts of dusty sunlight stream through the restaurant’s ruined ceiling, falling across the scattered rows of booths inside. Stacked against the hole-filled walls are piles of rotting chairs and sun-bleached cushions pulled from the booths. The booths were red leather once, Cole assumes; now most of them are bone white. The preservative effects of the dry desert air have done a steady battle with the wind and whatever other forces have passed through this place, taking bites along the way.
To the east is the slight downhill grade Ed mentioned. The freeway is so far away it’s almost impossible to see the sunlight winking off the roofs of passing cars. But if the map he studied before he left is to be believed, somewhere down there is Aravaipa Creek.
“Grant’s massacre,” Cole says.
Dylan smiles. He gets to his feet slowly, brushing the sand from his knees. “One hundred forty Apache women murdered and scalped by a coalition of Natives, Anglos, and Mexicans. Mutilated. Another testament to mankind’s bewildering appetite for inflicting suffering.”
“There were political reasons for the attack.”
“There is never a political reason for mutilating anyone.”
“The federal government was reducing the money they provided to ensure peace between merchants and the Natives, especially the Apache. The merchants were afraid they wouldn’t have the goods to pacify the tribes. It set the stage for the attack. I’m not saying it justifies it.”
“Nonsense. Women and children scalped and mutilated in their beds. It was sexual sadism. No different from this Mask Maker in Los Angeles. They just didn’t have the word for it yet.”
“Do you have other women?” Cole asks.
Dylan cocks his head to one side, as if he’s waiting for Cole to finish this question.
“Out in the field, I mean,” Cole adds, “enjoying your gift.”
“Just one. The one you saw.”
“Did you test it on any others?”
“Yes.”
“How many?”
“One.”
“Not Charlotte Rowe, the girl I saw on the tape.”
“No.”
“Did you sleep with them?”
“The first girl, yes. Not Charlotte.”
Cole regrets asking the question as much as he regrets the blush Dylan’s answer brings to his cheeks.
“I told you,” Dylan says. “I don’t adhere to popular labels in that area.”
“There is no popular label for someone whose sexual identity is entirely professional ambition. Well, there is. But they don’t give them out at Harvard.”
“What are you accusing me of, Cole?”
“The first girl. The one it didn’t work on. Is she dead?”
“Yes.”
Cole feels his pulse beating in the side of his face. Amazing that this news, amid the rest of it, makes him feel like he’s breathing through a straw. Dylan’s expression is blank. He studies Cole as if whatever emotional reaction Cole will have to this information is a tiresome but necessary inconvenience. But Cole isn’t seeing Dylan anymore. He’s seeing video footage he long since destroyed; footage of a decorated war hero chewing on his right arm after he’d torn it from his body and beaten himself with it until one of his legs broke.
My money, he thinks. My money funded all that bloodshed, all those scenes I can’t erase from my nightmares. All of it, thanks to my money. My father’s money.
They’d come up with a phrase for it, for the swift orgy of relentless, cannibalistic self-destruction that consumed all four test subjects within minutes of their trigger events. Going lycan. If only they had truly become something else in those final moments, another creature, not a wide-eyed howling human suddenly programmed to quite literally tear itself apart in a frenzied rage.
Did it matter that they were willing volunteers? That they knew the risks? That the last two had actually watched videos of what had happened to the first two and still agreed to take the drug? These facts had comforted him some back then. Back then he thought he’d put a stop to it by shutting the project down. He never thought Dylan capable of taking the nightmares they’d seen in that lab out into the world.
“Do you need to sit?” Dylan asks.
“Fuck you,” Cole whispers.
Dylan nods and looks away, waiting, it seems, for Cole to collect himself.
“So this first girl,” Cole asks, “she went lycan?”
“She knew the risks. I told her I wouldn’t let her suffer. I kept my promise.”
“So you were wrong. It had nothing to do with the gender of the subjects. And even though I forbade you to test it on women, you went out and did it anyway.”
“You forbade me to test it on women because you’re a sexist and you have Mommy issues.”
“I put a stop to it because I was tired of watching people tear themselves apart.”
“I see, so it was just an excuse then. So you could fire me because you’d finally panicked. Give me a break. You didn’t care about those volunteers. You cared about exposure.”
“I didn’t fire you. I cut the funding for a project that ended in disaster, and if you remember correctly, it wasn’t just my call to make.”
“Don’t worry. I remember our partners quite well.”
“You were one of our most brilliant scientists, Dylan. I could have put you on something else the next day.”
“Oh, on what? Some antianxiety drug that’s just going to tranq people into functional oblivion? I was trying to create survivors, not blissed-out drones.”
“But you didn’t.”
“Until now.”
“And you killed a woman to do it, which makes you a monster.”
“And you, as always, are a revolutionary pretending to be a shill. The conflict will drive you mad, Cole. I guarantee it.”
“Because I’m not willing to kill any more people in the name of your research?”
“You don’t have to.” He extends his arms and gives Cole a bright smile. “You have a successful test subject.”
“And she’s already killed someone.”
“I’d say that’s an unfair reading of what happened on that video, wouldn’t you? She was protecting herself from two thugs who were probably going to rape her and leave her for dead in the middle of the desert. Forgive the absence of tears.”
“Where is she, Dylan?”
“She won’t be that hard for you to find if you reactivate The Consortium.”
Cole’s barely been able to say this name aloud to himself in the two years since Project Bluebird ended. It’s easier to remember those horrifying videos of their test subjects than it is to recall the weight of responsibility these secret partners brought to bear on him. The idea that Dylan could so casually call for its reactivation is as offensive as everything else he’s said and done these past few days. Maybe even more so.