The car was parked right where the mechanic said it would be.
I had one hand in my purse, as it was getting late, the area was unfamiliar, and I was uncertain as to the safety of my surroundings. As soon as I got in, I locked the car and looked around the interior. I was worried about what I might find, but it looked just like it had before last night.
Once I was satisfied, I didn’t waste time staying parked on the street. The sun was setting and although I’d never been afraid of the dark, tonight I felt like it was somewhere I didn’t want to be.
The traffic was light and the ride to Erin’s house in Weston didn’t take all that long. Her neatly trimmed hedges and classic colonial home looked every bit Erin’s style. She was a woman who had married her high school sweetheart and whose life had been overtaken by her children. Erin was a bona fide soccer mom who also held a position on the PTA board. She took care of four kids, a husband, and their house, and she never had time for herself. I wasn’t sure if I envied her or pitied her.
It didn’t matter—that would never be my life.
I rang the doorbell and immediately heard the sound of little footsteps coming my way.
The door swung open. “Put ’em up or I’ll shoot,” William drawled.
William was Erin’s oldest and at seven, he was quite a little man.
I raised my hands. “Don’t shoot.”
Disappointment flickered on his face. “That was too easy, Elle. Next time you have to draw your own gun.”
Little did he know, I was toting a real gun in my purse. “You mean like this?” I pretended to have a gun pointed at him.
“Whoa, you’re fast,” he said, his eyes like saucers.
“Elle, is that you?” Erin called from the kitchen.
“Hi, Erin. Yes, it’s me.”
“Come on in. Clementine is just finishing dinner,” she said.
“Race you to the kitchen,” I challenged William.
He promptly took off, practically mowing over Conner on the way.
“I want to play,” Conner said. Conner was five and always wanted to be doing what his older brother was doing.
While they sped ahead, I walked past the family room, which was completely littered with toys, and stepped on a Lego or two in the hallway. Erin’s house was always chaos, but the kids always seemed to be laughing and having fun.
Given that, I guessed, what did a little mess matter?
I passed dozens of pictures on the wall. Mostly of the kids, who obviously ruled the household. I stopped at one in particular. It was of a family of five. I knew it was Michael and Erin and their parents, but I wasn’t familiar with the third child. He was an older boy, and his eyes were just as ice blue as Michael’s and his mother’s. I would ask Erin, but she didn’t like to talk about her parents. She and her father didn’t get along, and for that matter, neither did Michael and his father.
The kitchen was in the back of the house and I knew just when the boys reached it.
“I win!” William yelled.
“No, I win,” Conner countered.
“I think you both won,” I said from the archway.
I knew better than to look around but I still did, growing a bit uneasy at the mess. Bottles, cups, and bowls covered almost every inch of the counter. Pots and dishes filled the sink. Crayons and markers were all over the table, and I couldn’t help noticing someone had decided to try his hand at sketching on the wall.
Finally, my eyes landed on a little treasure. Clementine sat in a booster chair with a tray of food and beside her in a high chair sat Braden. Braden and Clementine were practically the same age. I think Braden was a month or two older.
Erin turned around in her chair. She was wearing sweatpants and her fiery red hair was in a disheveled ponytail. She looked how I felt—exhausted. Taigh, who was six weeks old, was at her breast. I think she was still breast-feeding Braden and I wondered how that worked.
“Mama!” Clementine shrieked when she saw me.
My heart stilled and panic struck at the same time.
With uncertainty, Erin’s eyes darted to mine.
“She’s never called me that before,” I managed to say, not sure how to respond to either Erin or Clementine.
Erin waved her free hand dismissively. “It’s the only word Braden knows. They’ve been copying each other all day. She even wanted to drink from my breast.” Erin let out a laugh. “And he wanted to drink milk from her sippy cup.”
Okay then.
Perhaps that was all it was. With a smile, I crossed the room to greet the happy little girl. “Hi, sweet girl. How are you are today?” I cooed.
My heart still wasn’t beating as it should and I had to fight back the urge to cry. She wasn’t my daughter. She had a mother. And hopefully her mother would be returning to her soon. But all of that didn’t make the moment any less special.
“I couldn’t get her to eat the peas,” Erin said, switching breasts.