“Really?” She’d obviously misunderstood what I was asking, but God, if I could take Nekesa, that might make it okay. She and I could ditch them and have fun in Colorado, and even when we were all together, it wouldn’t feel as much like a forced family event. “I could?”
She shrugged, and I felt a little guilty that she was having to make concessions. “I don’t see why not. The condo has two bedrooms and a pullout sofa in the living room, so as long as she doesn’t mind the couch, I think it’d be fine.”
“Wow.” I pushed my hair out of my face, relief flooding through me. “That will make it so much, um, I mean, a little bit less…”
I had no idea how to put it into words without making her feel bad about Scott.
“I get it, Bay,” she said, and I could tell that she did. Which made me hug her, because as much as I didn’t dig Scott, I also loved my mom and didn’t want to make her unhappy.
It was a fucking terrible tightrope of guilt to walk.
I grabbed my phone and texted Nekesa as soon as my mom left the room.
How would you like to go to Colorado?
I was getting whiplash from my own emotions, but as I waited for her response, I realized that if she was able to go, I was actually a little excited for a Colorado getaway.
Only if she can go.
Yes, Scott would be there, but Nekesa always made everything better, and I knew this would be no exception.
Nekesa: I am packing my plaid shirt and Docs as we speak.
That made me smile as I walked over to my dresser. You think I’m kidding but I’m not. Scott is taking me and my mom to Breck for a weekend and they said you can come.
Nekesa: I thought we hated Scott.
That response made me feel like garbage, and I texted: We don’t hate HIM, we just hate the way he’s weaseling into our lives.
Nekesa: That doesn’t sound very different from what I said.
I texted: So are you coming or not???
Nekesa: Let me ask my mom. BRB.
I held my breath as I dug for mountain-wear, and then I squealed when Nekesa came back with: When do we leave??
The next morning, even though the sight of Crew Socks in the kitchen made me as irritated as ever, I thanked him for the trip.
“It’s nice of you to invite us and to let me bring a friend,” I said, genuinely meaning that. My mom was the one who threw out the Nekesa option, not Scott, and he easily could’ve said no or been a dick about it.
Instead, he smiled and said between bites of his everything bagel, “The more the merrier. Only… no more. That’s plenty. The four the merriest and no others…”
“Rolls off the tongue,” I said, which made him laugh.
As he walked out the door, he texted me a link to the condo on Vrbo so Nekesa and I could look at the pictures, which led to an hour-long FaceTime where we discussed outfits, activities, and logistics.
We had to work on Saturday morning—just a half shift, so Scott and my mom were going to leave early in the morning, and we’d drive out when we got off. In my opinion, this was a total best-case scenario, because we wouldn’t even have to spend any time in the car with him.
As long as something insane didn’t happen, like Scott proposing to my mother on the slopes, this could actually be a great trip.
CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR Bailey
The night before we were supposed to leave, Nekesa called me, crying.
“Oh my God—what’s wrong?” I asked, sitting on my bed, watching a rerun of Monk.
She was sniffling and trying to keep it together, but the moral of the story was that she’d come in an hour late the night before (because she’d fallen asleep at Aaron’s house) and gotten into a fight with her parents, and now they wouldn’t let her go on the trip. She was grounded indefinitely, only allowed to leave the house for work and school.
I knew the proper response would be something nurturing, words to make my best friend feel better.
But oh my God, I couldn’t go without her! I just couldn’t.
“What if my mom calls your mom?” I asked, desperate. “Do you think that might help?”
“No,” she said, still crying. “This is big-time. I’m seriously grounded for months.”
“Noooooooo,” I groaned. It was too late for me to get out of the trip now, and I’d been so nice to Scott for letting Nekesa come along that he was totally going to push the whole I-want-to-be-your-pal agenda in her absence.
“Listen, I know you won’t want to,” she said, sniffling before loudly blowing her nose, “but what if you take Charlie?”
“Whaaat? What? WHAT!? No.” That was ridiculous. Right? It was ridiculous. I couldn’t take Charlie, dear God. That was batshit bonkers. My voice was a little high-pitched when I asked, “Why would I do that?”
“Listen.” She cleared her throat and said, “I mentioned the idea to Theo, and he agrees that it could—”
“When did you talk to Theo?” I interrupted. She told Theo she was grounded before even telling me?
“I just got off the phone with him.”
Whoa. I tried to sound casual when I asked, “You guys talk on the phone now?”
“Sometimes, but it’s no big deal,” she said, brushing it off. “Aaron knows and he’s fine with it.”
Should he be? I wondered how to proceed, because even though it wasn’t my business and she didn’t sound concerned, it felt like my friendly duty was to intervene.
“Are you sure that’s a good idea?” I said, trying to keep my voice light and breezy. Though I was anything but.
I knew Charlie would tell me to butt out, but Nekesa’s happiness was more important to me. I needed her to slow down and think before she had regrets. I said, “Don’t you think Theo is rather flirty with you?”
“Nah, he’s just a playful guy,” she said, and I could tell she truly believed it. “So anyway. Back to the trip. Call Charlie.” Huh. That was a quick change of topic, but… okay. I decided to dismiss it and focus on the current tragedy at hand.
I let myself flop back onto my mattress, starting to freak out at the mere idea of Charlie and me in Breckenridge. “I cannot take him on this trip—come on.”
“You don’t want to go alone, and he’s your other bestie. Why not?”
There were a million reasons, starting with the fact that he was Charlie Sampson.
Also—my other bestie?? Where. When. Why? How???
“Not only should you take Charlie,” she said, “but what do you think about pretending to date him?”
“What? Have you lost your mind?” I said, a little too loudly, when my mom and Scott were asleep in the room next door. I lowered my voice and said, “No way.”
I couldn’t even imagine it. It was weird enough when Charlie asked me to go to his friend’s party with him for support in dealing with his ex. But this was different. Pretending to be into Charlie romantically? Exploring what that entailed? No. No way.
Just the thought of it filled my stomach with nervous stressful butterflies, but it didn’t matter because it wasn’t happening.
No way.