“Why the hell would I want to do that?”
“You’re at the center of everything,” Marjorie said. “You’re the last one to see your daughter. The last one to see Patty Swain. We’re not stupid, Mr. Blake.”
“No,” I said. “You are.” I shook my head. “Whatever you’re getting at, this is crazy.”
“Is that why you had to get rid of Patty?” Detective Marjorie asked. “Because she figured out you killed your own daughter?”
I didn’t even think about what I did next. Even if I had, I can’t say that I would have behaved any differently.
I do know it was something instinctual. Someone suggests you killed your own daughter, that you took the life of the person more dear to you than anyone else in the world, what else are you going to do but try to get your hands around his neck and choke the life out of him?
I came out of the chair like it was an ejector seat and went straight for Marjorie, my hands outstretched. I wanted to kill him. And not just for what he was suggesting about me. I was doing it for Syd. These people were supposed to be helping find her, but weren’t getting anywhere because they—maybe not Jennings, but I was no longer sure about her—were wasting their time trying to find a way to put the blame on me.
“You son of a bitch,” I said, reaching for his throat.
But I couldn’t get my hands around it. You weren’t a cop for as many years as I guessed Detective Marjorie had been without learning a thing or two about how to defend yourself. He took hold of one of my arms and used my own force and momentum to throw me into the wall behind him.
Then he turned, grabbed hold of my hair with his meaty fingers, and shoved my face up against the wall. My neck felt like it was going to snap.
“Adam!” Jennings shouted at him.
“You motherfucker,” he breathed into my ear.
“Adam,” Jennings said again. “Let him go.”
“You just assaulted a police officer,” he whispered. “Nice going, dickhead.”
“I didn’t kill my daughter!” I shouted, my lips moving on the pale green surface.
“Adam,” Jennings said, “let’s talk.”
He held me another second for effect, then let me go. Then he and Jennings left the room. I heard the door lock.
I leaned up against the wall, panting, trying to regain my composure. I stood there a good five minutes before the door opened and Detective Jennings came in alone.
“You’re free to go,” she said, holding the door open.
“What, that’s it?”
“You’re free to go.”
“I don’t believe you people.”
“Mr. Blake—”
“Let me guess. Your friend wants to hold me, to charge me, but there’s no evidence against me. Just his wacko theories.”
“Really, Mr. Blake, you should just go.”
“He’d like to charge me with assault, but he’s thinking if you let me go, maybe I’ll make some sort of mistake, something that’ll stick.”
Jennings didn’t speak.
“I’ll tell you the mistake I made. The mistake I made was trusting you. I mean, I know parents are usually primary suspects when something happens to their kids, but I never got the idea I was one in your eyes, not until now. But now, if you’re thinking the way he’s thinking, then I guess I can’t count on you for help anymore. I guess I’m on my own to find my daughter.”
She was still holding the door open. I went through it.
“Thanks,” I said.
THIRTY-ONE
I WAS IN A SWEAT AS I WALKED OUT into the police station parking lot. It wasn’t just from anger. It was hot. I turned on the AC when I got into the car and powered up the windows. I adjusted the vents so they’d be blowing on me, but even after a couple of minutes, all that was coming out of them was hot air. I tried adjusting the settings on the AC controls, but things didn’t get any better.
“Goddamn it, Bob,” I said under my breath.
I drove into the Riverside Honda lot, circled around until I saw a demo—a blue Civic hybrid—I was pretty sure Andy Hertz was using these days, and parked next to it. I walked into the showroom, heading straight for Andy’s desk, but when I passed Laura Cantrell’s office she called out, “Tim!”
I whirled around.
“Bringing back the CR-V?” she asked.
“Try the cops,” I told her.
Andy was leaning over his desk, on the phone. I reached over his shoulder, tapped the receiver base and disconnected him.
He saw my arm and followed it until he realized who’d cut him off. “What the fuck, Tim? What are you doing?”
“We’re going to have a chat,” I said.
“I had a solid lead there,” he said. “Guy wants to get his wife a Pilot for her birthday and—”
I grabbed him under the arm and yanked him out of his chair. “Let’s go,” I said.
“Where? Where we going?”
“Tim! What are you doing?” It was Laura, hands on hips, trying to look like she was running the place.