The part that can’t get enough, no matter how many times I’ve fucked her, touched her, and made her scream my name.
Despite loving the feel of her writhing body beneath me and how she demands the roughness I give, I’m starting to think it’s not only due to the need to fuck her. Or else I wouldn’t have shown up here every single day for the past week.
I knew I shouldn’t have stayed when she asked me to. I shouldn’t have given in to the temptation of her gentle voice and her inviting warmth, but I did.
And now, I can’t force myself to leave.
I can’t bring myself to spend a single night without her wrapped around me as if I’m a lifeline. In a way, I’m thankful for her small sofa that only allows us to sleep when we’re glued together or she’s lying partially on top of me.
Now, I feel it again. The way she relaxes against me as if her little body belongs in the crook of mine. My jaw clenches as my dick begins tenting against my trousers, but I refuse to let him take rein this time. I refuse to bend her over the kitchen counter and take her rough and hard.
At least, not at this moment.
For some reason, I want to keep feeling her like this, in the silence, with her body so attuned to mine that we breathe in sync.
“Aren’t you supposed to be helping me chop potatoes?” she whispers when I grab each of her hands in mine but don’t do anything.
“One moment,” I murmur against her hair, rubbing my nose in it. “I haven’t gotten my fill of your smell.”
She squirms, a tremor going through her hand. “I can feel it, you know.”
“It?” I ask with a note of amusement.
“Your…thing.”
“It’s called a cock, not a thing, Anastasia.”
“Yeah, well, it’s poking my ass.”
“That’s because my cock is demanding access.”
Her face turns a deep shade of red. “Pervert.”
“Me or my cock?”
“Both!”
“Then you’re stuck with two perverts, beautiful. Aren’t you the lucky one?”
She wiggles again and that only serves to aggravate the state of my unsatisfied erection.
“You might want to stop that unless you’re planning on being my dinner.”
I feel the hitching of her breath against my chest as she goes still, then murmurs, “What about me? I don’t get dinner?”
“You can choke on my cock if you want.”
“Stop it.” She laughs, elbowing me. “I want real food.”
Her hit isn’t strong, but I stagger back due to the force of something entirely different—her laughter.
It’s such a rare occurrence to hear the musical sound of her laughter. Her eyes close slightly and her head tips back a little as if she can’t contain it.
I’m trapped in it, in how fucking carefree she looks. Ever since I first met her, she’s been a bit reserved, careful, and always counting her steps. But over the past week, she’s been slowly but surely getting more comfortable around me.
The fact that I’m the only one who brings out this side of her fills me with a raw sense of possessiveness and a deep feeling of pride.
I’m the only one she laughs around.
Only me.
“Come on. We need to make something before the movie starts.” She nudges me when I remain frozen, completely and utterly fucking smitten with a view that meant shit to me in the past.
“You mean, I need to make something since you’re hopeless at it,” I joke to camouflage my inexplicable reaction to her. “And I’m not watching another Harry Potter film tonight.”
“Why not? They’re fun!”
“They’re unrealistic.”
“It’s fantasy, so that’s the whole point.”
“Still not my thing.”
“You’re weird.” She rolls her eyes. “Next, you’ll tell me you didn’t read the books.”
“I didn’t.”
“Oh my God, who are you and where have you been living?”
“In England, where those books were set and I’m still not interested.”
“How about Lord of the Rings? The Hobbit?”
“No and no.”
She gasps inaudibly, her mouth closing, then opening a few times. “How is that even possible? Wait. Are you from another planet?”
“Nope, earthling through and through.”
“This won’t do.” She shakes her head with pity written all over her face. “I’m going to have to fill in the gaps you’re missing. We’ll start with the books and then the movies.”
“Why in that order?”
“The books are always better, duh.”
I smile at the way she says “duh.” It’s a new word for her, something that she most likely learned from Gwen.
“What if I don’t like any of them?” I ask with a poker face, egging her on.
She takes the bait, a frown appearing between her brows. “Then we’ll reread them until you do.”
“We?”
“Yeah, I’ll read them for you.”
“Hmm. Depends.”
“On what?”
“On whether or not I get to touch you during the process.”
Her face goes red again and it’s fucking adorable. “Does everything have to include touching?”
“If I can help it.”
“Fine. But you need to focus on the story.”
“I’m good at multitasking.” I grab her by the waist and lift her up on the counter. She squeals, her fingers latching onto my gray T-shirt. “Which book are we starting with?”
“Which one do you want?” she asks breathlessly.
“What’s your favorite fantasy book?”
“Peter Pan.”
“Why?”
“Because I used to think I was Wendy when I was a kid. She was a free fairy and could fly away any time she wanted.”
“Is that what you want?”
Her lashes flutter against her cheeks as she lets out a low, “Maybe.”
“Even now?”
She lifts her head and her fake eyes meet mine, but the emotions in them are guttural and so fucking real, they stab me in the chest.
The moment she opens her mouth to speak, her phone vibrates on the counter beside her and she startles. I’m about to throw the fucking thing away, but the moment she sees “Sandra” flashing on the screen, Anastasia grabs the phone and wiggles away from me.
She hops down from the counter and escapes to the living area. “Hey, Sandra. Is everything okay…? No, yes, I mean, of course I can talk…”
I tilt my head to the side, watching as she flops onto the sofa, her complete attention on what Sandra is telling her.
Ever since that time in my office, they often talk on the phone and it’s had a positive impact on Sandra’s mental state. I’m a bit annoyed at my client for interrupting me, but at the same time, I admire how selfless Anastasia is when it comes to Sandra. She went out of her way and waited outside during the pretrial hearings of the civil case, despite having a form of social anxiety that makes her antsy in public places.
When I told her she didn’t need to come anymore, she vehemently shook her head and said, “What I feel is nothing compared to what Sandra is going through. She needs as many friendly faces as possible in there.”
Still, Sandra has the worst timing.
She cut Anastasia off when she was about to say something monumental. I release a breath and go to salvage the mess she made of the potatoes.
All I keep thinking about is why the hell I don’t want to ask her what her reply would have been.
Why the hell am I fucking frustrated that she might’ve said yes?
That if given the chance, Anastasia would become her favorite fucking Wendy again and fly away from this world.
Me included.
21
ANASTASIA
A rustling startles me awake.
For a moment, I think I’m back in my house and there’s an emergency and everyone needs to evacuate the property.
But before I can stumble from the bed, the ceiling with stars that glow in the dark comes into view.
A breath whooshes out of me, but it gets stuck in my throat when I make out the reason behind the rustling.
Knox.