I rolled my eyes. "Please."
"That's my answer." He slowed down, edging carefully around the hole. I glanced at the heart in hand, which was still, shimmering in the heat. "I don't like clowns. They scare the shit out of me, ever since I went to the circus as a kid and one popped a balloon right in my face."
"Stop it," I said, smiling.
"I wish I could."
We were at the end of the road now, a cloud of dust settling all around us.
"Clowns," I repeated. "Really?"
He nodded. "Are you going to accept it as my answer, or not?"
"Is it the truth?"
"Yeah. It is."
"Fine," I said. "Then it's your turn."
I knew a lot about Wes now. That he'd gotten his first kiss from a girl in sixth grade named Willa Patrick. That he thought his ears were too big for his head. And that he hated jazz, wasabi, and the smell of patchouli. And clowns.
The game we'd begun the night we were stranded was ongoing: whenever we found ourselves alone, driving to a job or prepping silverware or just hanging out, we picked it up automatically where we'd left off the last time. When everyone else from Wish was around, there was noise and drama and laughter and chaos. But times like these, it was just me, Wes, and the truth.
When I'd first started playing Truth, back in my slumber party days, it had always made me nervous. Wes was right in saying it was diabolical: the questions asked were always personal or embarrassing, preferably both. Often, playing with my friends or sister, I'd choose to pass on a question and lose rather than have to confess I was madly in love with my math teacher. As I got older, the games were even more brutal, with questions revolving around boys and crushes and How Far You'd Gone. But with Wes, Truth was different. He'd asked me the hardest question first, so all that followed were easier. Or somewhat easier.
"What," he asked me one day, as we walked through Milton's Market looking for paper towels, "is the grossest thing that's ever happened to you?"
"Ew," I said, shooting him a look. "Is this really necessary?"
"Answer or pass," he told me, sliding his hands in his pockets.
He knew I wouldn't pass. He wouldn't either. We were both totally competitive, but really, there was more to it than that, at least for me. I liked this way of getting to know him, these random facts and details, each one like a puzzle piece I examined carefully, figuring out how it fit in with the rest. If either of us won, it would all be over. So I had to keep answering.
"Fifth grade," I said, as we turned onto the paper product aisle. "It was December, and this woman came in to talk to us about Hanukkah. I remember she gave us gelt."
"That's the gross part?"
"No," I said, shooting him a look. "I'm getting to it." Being so economical with his own words, Wes was always prodding me to hurry up and get to the point, to which I responded by padding my story that much more. It was all part of the game. "Her name was Mrs. Felton, Barbara Felton's mom. Anyway, so we got gelt, we were talking about the menorah. Everything was fine."
We were at the paper towels now. Wes pulled an eight-pack off the shelf, tucking it under his arm, then handed me another one, and we started toward the registers.
"Then," I said, "my teacher, Mrs. Whitehead, comes up to Norma Piskill, who's sitting beside me, and asks if she's okay. And Norma says yes, although looking at her, I notice she's a little green."
"Uh-oh," he said, making a face.
"Exactly." I sighed. "So the next thing I know, Norma Piskill is trying to get up, but she doesn't make it. Instead, she pukes all over me. And then, as I'm standing there dripping, she does it again."
"Yuck."
"You asked," I said cheerfully.
"I did," he agreed, as we got in line. "Your turn."
"Right." I thought for a second. "What do you worry about most?"
As always, he paused, considering this. From vomit to deep introspection: this was how Truth worked. You either went with it, or you didn't. "Bert," he said flatly, after a second.
"Bert," I repeated.
He nodded. "I just feel responsible for him, you know? I mean, it's a big brother thing. But also with my mom gone… She never said so but I know she was counting on me to take care of him. And he's so…"
"So what?" I asked as the cashier scanned the towels.
He shrugged. "So… Bert. You know? He's intense. Takes everything really seriously, like with all his Armageddon stuff. A lot of people his age, you know, they just don't get him. Everything he feels, he feels strongly. Too strongly, sometimes. I think he freaks people out."
"He's not that bad," I said, as he handed the cashier a twenty and got change. "He's just…" And now I was at a loss, unable to find the right word.
"Bert," he finished for me.