Chapter 15
The first day back was odd. I woke up thinking I was still in Athens, in his bed. Best I get used to the idea of not having him around. I knew I had spent a week with him, but it somehow felt as if it had been more than that.
Groaning my frustration out, I perked up when I heard Brody’s voice in the hallway, talking to Emma.
Was my brother here, too? I’d rather that he wasn’t. I couldn’t stand his googly-eyeing Emma like sick puppy.
I was grateful for Emma covering up for me about Greece. I was still reeling from the events and I didn’t need to divulge the how, what, when and why about my four-day run being a married woman.
Not moving, I anticipated the moment when Brody would knock. It took him a couple of minutes before he did so, opening my door. Seeing his familiar face was great, but that usual thump-thump wasn’t there. Give it time, I thought encouragingly. Some things needed getting used to. Like in two months, I was going to be a divorced woman. That shit definitely needed getting used to.
“How was your vacation, pookie? I’ve missed you around here.” Brody sat on my bed, kissing my cheek.
It had been like no other, most definitely. “It was different.”
Brody got comfortable, half-sitting as he leaned on his elbows, he took his shoes off and placed his legs against mine. “I tried calling your phone, but it goes straight to voicemail. Did you lose it or something?”
That phone was somewhere in Athens—broken apart, dead and useless. “I lost it. I’m planning to head out and get a new one. Want to come with?” I offered, not wanting to think of Athens.
Or glowing eyes.
Anything Greek related, I should avoid.
“Sure. Do you want me to wait here or outside while you get ready?” Brody asked, looking like he wanted to kiss me, but I couldn’t do it. It would be wrong, so wrong.
“Outside. I need to shower and stuff. Give me fifteen, yeah?”
“Fifteen, it is.” He got up and kissed my forehead. “Welcome home, love of my life.”
My life, I thought with a sinking feeling. Then why did it feel like I was living someone else’s?
~L~
That night, I was in bed, having a hard time sleeping. I just needed some comfort and the sudden thought of my blankie got me depressed.
He never gave it back. When I was in his arms, I slept soundly, thus making the point of my blankie irrelevant. Now, though, I needed it more than ever and Dimitris had it. I didn’t even have his number so I could text him to ship it back since the man threw my phone off into the blasted city below.
At one in the morning, I gave up trying to sleep, deciding to dress and take the five-minute walk towards my brother’s house, where Brody lived as well. Knowing that the boys didn’t lock their main door, I had no problems getting in. Like the rest of the world, had they decided to come and join the party—robbers and killers included.
I didn’t know what I was expecting coming here, but what didn’t cross my mind was to find Amber and Emma here—with Brody and Carter, my brother. Shit, woman. What was she playing at? “Does Bass Cole know you’re in your ex-boyfriend’s home at this hour?”
Their laughter died. Good, because I didn’t feel like laughing inside.
“Did you just come here to be a bitch, Lindsey? Emma’s not doing anything wrong,” Carter snapped at me.
He was always f*cking protective of Emma, which was dumb and stupid because the idiot had an orgy while he was “so in love” with her. “I’m looking out for her, idiot! As for you, Emma, when are you going to learn? Didn’t you just tell me that you want to be with Bass and that you’re so in love with him? This—” I pointed at my angry-looking brother. “—will f*ck him up, you hear? So unless you want him to crawl back in Nikki’s vagina, get your ass home!”
“Lindsey! Calm down, I texted him and he said okay. So, stop freaking out!” Emma was ticked off, but I didn’t care.
I knew the kind of man Bass was and deep down, he wasn’t happy with this. “God! You can be such a blonde bimbo sometimes! I love you, Em, but this is f*cking stupid. You have a great man that loves you, never f*cking cheated on you, never f*cked any of your friends or best friends for that matter or the f*cking entire campus. When will you learn? When he’s gone? Do you remember the last time he left you? Do you?”
Emma stood up, pink from anger and probably of embarrassment for speaking to her amongst other friends, but hell, she needed to know and my brother needed to shut his mouth.
“I remember it, thank you, Lindsey. I hope you remember yours, too, because for such a smart woman like yourself, you make dumb decisions, too. Bass is a great man, however I knew one other who was like him, too. He might even better, but I guess we’ll never know now.” Emma shot me a disbelieving look before strutting in her tight jeans, looking like a sex bomb on her way out.
“Wow! What’s gotten into you?” Amber wondered out loud, mouth hanging ajar.
Life. Life got to me again. F*ck me.
No more Greek, I chanted in my head before I started to walk out the door, shaky and teary from what Emma had just said.
Dimitris was similar to Bass, I guess that’s why they got along very well, but I didn’t have what Emma and Bass had when it came to Dimitris. Ours didn’t start off like theirs and besides; I wasn’t in love with him. It was that simple.
“Lindsey!” Brody called out behind me, halting me from walking further down the road. When he finally caught up with me, he gathered me in his arms, concerned as he studied my face. “What’s wrong, pookie?”
“I lost my blankie.” Everyone that knew me since childhood knew the significance of that piece of cloth. It was my world.
Dimitris knew somehow, someway, that it meant something to me. He was a smart man, so he’d have easily figured that one out. He wanted to inflict pain and boy, wasn’t he successful. He took something that was close to my heart since I crushed his.
“How about we get you a new blankie tomorrow? Or better yet, I’ll have someone make you a new one.” I nodded, feeling somewhat less like crying. “Do you want me to stay with you?”
“Please.” If I was alone tonight, I’d end up crying my eyes out and I didn’t want that.
We were standing outside my door when I saw a shadow pass. When I double checked to see what it was, there was nothing there. Shrugging, we let ourselves in after I handed Brody my keys.
Dressed for sleep, with me in my silk slip and Brody wearing only his boxers, we brushed our teeth side by side, him cracking jokes about bad breath and cavities when I heard the doorbell chime.
The f*ck? It was almost two in the morning. Ugh, this better not be Carter or Amber not bringing her keys again! “I’ll get it. If it’s my brother, he’s really going to get a ranting,” I mumbled out as I wiped my mouth with the Egyptian cotton towel after rinsing.
I was running my hands through my hair before I yanked the door open. Not caring that I was wearing a nightie, I stepped out to see if anyone was there. “Great, stupid college, drunk kids!” I muttered out loud before turning around to go inside the house.
“What the—” I almost had a heart attack when I saw a paper bag—with my folded blankie in it… and my old phone or one that looked like it, anyway—sitting right there, when it had only been five minutes ago that I’d come back home.
Dimitris. Here. Somewhere. Was he watching me?
I went to pick the phone up and it powered on with no problem. I realized that it was brand new, but my contacts, pictures and everything else were in there. How the heck did he manage to get that phone when I saw it fly out, freefalling, into the city of Athens?
Scrambling through my contact list, I dialed his number. I was holding my breath, waiting to hear his voice as the ring kept going until an automated person told me that he was unavailable.
I looked into the road, checking out parked cars to see if he was in any of them, half hoping to see him and half hoping that he’d left already. My heart sunk when it dawned on me that he wasn’t here. Of course, he’d leave. Knowing him, he probably felt bad about my phone and my blankie and just needed to make sure I got them back. He was an amazing guy. I knew that, but it was wretched when he proved to me again that he was.
When I got back into my bedroom, Brody looked confused when he saw my phone and blankie. “You had it all along?”
I shook my head, pressing my lips together. “Someone had it shipped here.”
“At two in the morning?”
“I guess so.”
~Dimitris~
Name me a masochist, a man to the point of desperation or simply a man in love, but I couldn’t stay away from her.
It was two in the morning and I should’ve gone straight to the hotel to wait until the morning to see her, however my need overrode reason.
Getting out of the car, I was walking towards her house when I heard her voice somewhere close. The instant surge of joy that bubbled out fizzled the second I heard a man’s voice as well. I just knew that the man’s voice was the same man she’d been in love with since childhood. It was there in his voice when he called her pookie.
I hid behind a tree, hoping that they didn’t see me as they walked towards my direction. I was holding my breath until they moved past. A quick glimpse, a second was all it took to change everything for me as I watched them go inside her home, his arms wrapped around her. The ultimate nail to my coffin, though, was the kind of smile she gave him; it literally broke me in two. Never once had she smiled at me like that, pure and unmasked.
A couple of minutes later, I came out of my hiding place when I was sure they were safely inside her home. Each step I took towards her house resounded with the heaviness in my heart.
Lindsey was happy, that’s all I should think about. My unrequited love and feelings were demons I would surely fight for the rest of my life, but it was my own fight to battle, not hers or anyone else’s. This was all my doing, placing us in this predicament, although I was going to undo it and hoped that it was for the best, for her.
Piteously, I placed the bag on her doorstep then waited a moment before I kissed the pad of my finger and pushed for the doorbell. Hiding behind the very same tree, I listened until the door was opened, heard movements about—Lindsey’s in particular.
“Great, stupid, college drunk kids!” Lindsey muttered, sounding annoyed before she gasped loudly, “What the—”
Her gasp told me that she’d found the paper bag. The dark shade around the tree convinced me enough to tilt my head a bit, merely enough for me to get a peek of her and still have my body hidden away.
She took hold of the phone, powering it on before she checked what was in it. The tiny light from the screen accentuated her breathtaking beauty. Her beautiful face frowned as she went through her files. When her frown deepened, I knew she’d found her old pictures and videos in there.
After that night, the one where I threw her phone over the ledge to the city below, I had hired a team of people to locate the broken device. A difficult task since God knew where the heck it had landed. After five days of searching, it was located on a rooftop somewhere where it had smashed down, though not enough to destroy its memory. I hadn’t meant to throw it out, but when I heard her talking to him in a sexual context, my jealousy took over. It was a knee-jerk reaction. When it came to Lindsey and any man associated with her, I was jealous of them because I knew she didn’t love me. Somehow, I took our constant mating and the overzealous need to be around each other, into something more—one I imagined in my head.
Lindsey had her phone next to her ear, calling someone. My heart dislodged in my throat when my phone vibrated in my pants. I was relieved that I had it on vibrate. When she bit her lip after the voicemail picked up, I fought the urge to steal her away and keep her as mine because I knew the truth. She wasn’t mine. Her heart was set on being with Brody Thompson.
Lindsey took a few steps to check the parked cars and sighed when she didn’t find me. She was wearing a tiny, silk slip that outlined her erect nipples. The length ended an inch below the curve of her butt and, when she spun around to head inside her house, the images of her spending the night with Brody in her bed a couple of days after me, brought moisture to my eyes.
Blinking them back, I willed myself to move until I was safe in the confines of the vehicle, breathing through my mouth. Pappou had been right when he’d said that sometimes it takes for the person to be gone to realize their true value because it made Lindsey realize who she wanted to be with.
“Make her happy,” I murmured, thinking of Brody.
Taking hold of my phone, the missed call from Lindsey got deleted, along with her phone number. I wasn’t trying to be immature, but I didn’t want to fight with myself on a daily basis about calling or texting her. The second task was to call my pilots.
“There’s been a change of plans. How long will it take to get ready to fly out to Paris?” I asked, determined to leave this city, this country, and be as far from her as possible.
An hour and a half later, I was up in the air, drinking my sorrows away before the jet’s phone started ringing. It was my mother. “Ma, tell Pappou to file the papers. She’s where she should be, where she should’ve been to begin with.”
She begged me to let her go, so I shall or I will at least try with all my might.
~D~
Back to my old, drunken self, I arrived at my apartment in Paris, one where I had Claudine living.
“Mon cher,” Claudine greeted me the second I entered the apartment. I paused, staring at her, confused.
Her smiling face, grated me the other way. The feeling of suffocation was capsizing me. The need to run and leave everything behind was so profound; I knew I needed to do something before I went mad.
“I have to go.” I scurried out of there, Claudine’s face blurring away as I got into the elevator again.
I ended up at a club and, two hours later, I was beyond inebriated, checking into a hotel along with the two hot, blonde Germans I had met.
They felt good, but the more I f*cked them, the worse the tightening of my chest ached. I wished this feeling could suffocate me and kill me while I was cock-deep inside a woman’s vagina.
That would certainly make for a good headline.