Chapter 12
We arrived back to Dimitris’s home just before sundown and I was pooped. All I wanted at that point was to spend our time in bed, enjoying each other until dinner.
Getting out of the car, I was slamming it shut when I noticed him still sitting there, staring ahead with the engine running.
Was he okay? “Dimitris? You’re not getting out?” I frowned at the silent man who seemed too distracted to hear me.
He let out a lungful of air, as if his chest was having a hard time functioning. “I’m going for a drive. I’ll be back.” Dimitris glanced at me, pressing the accelerator at the same time. It was as if he was letting his Roadster know that he’s going to break it soon, testing its limits, its capacity, because he needed some sort of release.
I didn’t like this, but I couldn’t stop him. I made my choice. I had to stick with it. “Wait! Where are you going?” Don’t go, I silently pleaded.
“Nowhere. Anywhere.” He glanced at me, eyes stormy. “Anywhere, but here.”
He didn’t want to be near me and I had to respect that, especially after what had just happened. I didn’t like it, but I had to accept it. “Promise me that you’ll be safe?”
“I’ll try,” he shot out before shifting his gears then speeding away in a flash, leaving me staring at the tire tracks, wondering where he was heading.
Be safe, please.
Back in his bedroom, I sat on the bed, my eyes glued to the clock. After three hours, I was getting worried. When Thea informed me that dinner was ready, I told her to save me some in the fridge because I was tired and needed to nap. Food was the last thing on my mind because I was imagining the worst scenarios in my mind.
Just before midnight, I was past deflated after I got out of the shower and still, there were no signs of him. I went to sleep, thinking where he might be. Did he go to Claudine? Did he fly out to Paris? The thought made me curl in pain. If he did, then I guess, it was for the best. I tried to convince myself, but after an hour, still feeling like shit, I knew it was hopeless.
I woke up sometime during the night when I felt the bed dip next to me then I felt his arms around me, pulling me to the middle of the bed, his body curling against mine.
“Where have you been?” I asked, turning around to face him, cupping his cheek before kissing him. The relief of seeing him in one piece almost broke me out in tears.
“Thinking,” he said against my lips, crushing my breasts against his chest.
He felt so good. I just wanted to get lost in his body. Thank God, he was okay. “About?”
Dimitris sighed, caressing the curve of my breast, pondering. “You. Us. Our Marriage.” Those glowing eyes looked at me then, exuding power over me. “I decided to enjoy these next few days and not think too much.”
Thank goodness, we could agree on that. “Thank you.”
“I’ll do anything for you, yineka mou.” He kissed the slopes of my breasts, breathing heavily. “Tell me what you want and I’ll give it to you.”
“What do you want?” I rasped out, knowing he was in a lot of pain. If my body could help ease some of that away, he could have as much as he wanted. Other than that, there was nothing I could offer him.
“You. I only ever want you.” He paused, studying my face. “Is that even possible, Lindsey?”
I shook my head, answering him. “I’m sorry. I know you’re hurting. I’m truly sorry for that.” Dimitris was a good man. He was and he deserved a good woman to be next to him; a woman that could give him everything, one who didn’t hold back from loving him. I wasn’t a woman capable of loving any man after Brody. I gave my heart years ago.
He nodded, going back to his old position, gathering me in his arms. “Me, too. You don’t know just how much.”
Papers were signed. It was done. In eight weeks’ time or, if Elias’s influence was to be believed, they could resolve it even before that.
There wasn’t anything left to be done except wait until Bass and Emma picked me up. They were arriving tomorrow and we’d be leaving the next day.
Dimitris was holding me tightly, heart pounding rapidly against my ear. “I’ll miss you. I will ache without you, agápi mou. There will never be a day that I won’t think of you. I’m sorry I wasn’t the man that could make your dreams come true.”
Hearing him say these things was unbearable. Time was catching up to us.
Dimitris was slowly saying goodbye. I should be doing the same.