chapter 3: Unjustifiable Death
A las! they had been friends in youth;
But whispering tongues can poison truth;
And constancy lives in realms above;
And life is thorny; and youth is vain;
And to be wroth with one we love
Doth work like madness in the brain.
-Samuel Taylor Coleridge, "Christabel"
After breakfast the next day Charlotte instructed Tessa and Sophie to return to their rooms, dress in their newly acquired gear, and meet Jem in the training room, where they would wait for the Lightwood brothers. Jessamine had not come to breakfast, claiming a headache, and Will, likewise, was nowhere to be found. Tessa suspected he was hiding, in an attempt to avoid being forced to be polite to Gabriel Lightwood and his brother. She could only partly blame him.
Back in her room, picking up the gear, she felt a flutter of nerves in her stomach; it was so very much unlike anything she'd ever worn before. Sophie was not there to help her with the new clothes. Part of the training, of course, was being able to dress and to familiarize oneself with the gear: flat-soled shoes; a loose pair of trousers made of thick black material; and a long, belted tunic that reached nearly to her knees. They were the same clothes she had seen Charlotte fight in before, and had seen il ustrated in the Codex; she had thought them strange then, but the act of actual y wearing them was even stranger. If Aunt Harriet could have seen her now, Tessa thought, she would likely have fainted.
She met Sophie at the foot of the steps that led up to the Institute's training room. Neither she nor the other girl exchanged a word, just encouraging smiles. After a moment Tessa went first up the steps, a narrow wooden flight with banisters so old that the wood had begun to splinter. It was strange, Tessa thought, going up a flight of stairs and not having to worry about pul ing in your skirts or tripping on the hem. Though her body was completely covered, she felt peculiarly naked in her training gear.
It helped to have Sophie with her, obviously equal y uncomfortable in her own Shadowhunter gear. When they reached the top of the stairs, Sophie swung the door open and they made their way into the training room in silence, together.
They were obviously at the top of the Institute, in a room adjacent to the attic, Tessa thought, and nearly twice the size. The floor was polished wood with various patterns drawn here and there in black ink-circles and squares, some of them numbered. Long, flexible ropes hung from great raftered beams overhead, half-invisible in the shadows. Witchlight torches burned along the wal s, interspersed with hanging weapons-maces and axes and all sorts of other deadly-looking objects.
"Ugh," said Sophie, looking at them with a shudder. "Don't they look too horrible by half?"
"I actual y recognize a few from the Codex," said Tessa, pointing. "That one there's a longsword, and there's a rapier, and a fencing foil, and that one that looks like you'd need two hands to hold it is a claymore, I think."
"Close," came a voice, very disconcertingly, from above their heads. "It's an executioner's sword. Mostly for decapitations. You can tell because it doesn't have a sharp point."
Sophie gave a little yelp of surprise and backed up as one of the dangling ropes began to sway and a dark shape appeared over their heads. It was Jem, clambering down the rope with the graceful agility of a bird. He landed lightly in front of them, and smiled. "My apologies. I didn't mean to startle you."
He was dressed in gear as well, though instead of a tunic he wore a shirt that reached only to his waist. A single leather strap went across his chest, and the hilt of a sword protruded from behind one shoulder. The darkness of the gear made his skin look even paler, his hair and eyes more silver than ever.
"Yes, you did," said Tessa with a little smile, "but it's all right. I was beginning to worry Sophie and I were going to be left here to train each other."
"Oh, the Lightwoods Will be here," said Jem. "They're simply being late to make a point. They don't have to do what we say, or what their father says either."
"I wish you were the one training us," Tessa said impulsively.
Jem looked surprised. "I couldn't-I haven't completed my own training yet." But their eyes met, and in another moment of wordless communication, Tessa heard what he was really saying: I'm not well enough often enough to train you reliably. Her throat hurt suddenly, and she locked eyes with Jem, hoping he could read her silent sympathy in them. She did not want to look away, and found herself wondering if the way that she had scraped her hair back, careful y pinning it into a bun from which no stray strands escaped, looked horribly unflattering. Not that it mattered, of course. It was just Jem, after all.
"We won't be going through a full course of training, Will we?" Sophie said, her worried voice breaking into Tessa's thoughts. "The Council only said that we needed to know how to defend ourselves a bit. . . ."
Jem looked away from Tessa; the connection broke with a snap. "There's nothing to be frightened of, Sophie," he said in his gentle voice. "And you'l be glad of it; it's always useful for a beautiful girl to be able to fend off the unwanted attentions of gentlemen."
Sophie's face tightened, the livid scar on her cheek standing out as red as if it had been painted there. "Don't make fun," she said. "It isn't kind."
Jem looked startled. "Sophie, I wasn't-"
The door to the training room opened. Tessa turned as Gabriel Lightwood strode into the room, fol owed by a boy she didn't know. Where Gabriel was slender and dark-haired, the other boy was muscular, with thick sandy-blond hair. They were both dressed in gear, with expensive-looking dark gloves studded with metal across the knuckles. Each wore silver bands around each wrist-knife sheaths, Tessa knew-and had the same elaborate white pattern of runes woven into their sleeves. It was clear not just from the similarity of their clothes but from the shape of their faces and the pale, luminous green of their eyes that they were related, so Tessa was not in the least surprised when Gabriel said, in his abrupt manner: "Well, we're here as we said we would be. James, I assume you remember my brother, Gideon. Miss Gray, Miss Col ins-"
"Pleased to make your acquaintance," Gideon muttered, meeting neither of their eyes with his. Bad moods seemed to run in the family, Tessa thought, remembering that Will had said that next to his brother, Gabriel seemed a sweetheart.
"Don't worry. Will 's not here," Jem said to Gabriel, who was glancing around the room. Gabriel frowned at him, but Jem had already turned to Gideon. "When did you get back from Madrid?" he asked politely.
"Father called me back home a short while ago." Gideon's tone was neutral. "Family business."
"I do hope everything's all right-"
"Everything is quite all right, thank you, James," said Gabriel, his tone clipped. "Now, before we move to the training portion of this visit, there are two people you should probably meet." He turned his head and called out, "Mr. Tanner, Miss Daly! Please come up."
There were footfal s on the steps, and two strangers entered, neither in gear. Both wore servants' clothes. One was a young woman who was the very definition of "rawboned"-her bones seemed too big for her skinny, awkward frame. Her hair was a bright scarlet, drawn back into a chignon under a modest hat. Her bare hands were red and scrubbed-looking. Tessa guessed she was about twenty. Beside her stood a young man with dark brown curling hair, tal and muscular- Sophie took a sharp indrawn breath. She had gone pale. "Thomas . . ."
The young man looked terribly awkward. "I'm Thomas's brother, miss.
Cyril. Cyril Tanner."
"These are the replacements the Council promised you for your lost servants," said Gabriel. "Cyril Tanner and Bridget Daly. The Consul asked us if we would bring them from Kings Cross here, and natural y we obliged. Cyril Will replace Thomas, and Bridget Will replace your lost cook, Agatha. They were both trained in fine Shadowhunter households and come soundly recommended."
Red spots had begun to burn on Sophie's cheeks. Before she could say anything, Jem said quickly, "No one could replace Agatha or Thomas for us, Gabriel. They were friends as well as servants." He nodded toward Bridget and Cyril. "No offense intended."
Bridget only blinked her brown eyes, but, "None taken," said Cyril. Even his voice was like Thomas's, almost eerily so. "Thomas was my brother. No one can replace him for me, either."
An awkward silence descended on the room. Gideon leaned back against one of the wal s, his arms crossed, a slight scowl on his face. He was quite good-looking, like his brother, Tessa thought, but the scowl rather spoiled it.
"Very well," Gabriel said finally into the silence. "Charlotte had asked us to bring them up so you could meet them. Jem, if you'd like to escort them back to the drawing room, Charlotte's waiting with instructions-"
"So neither of them needs any extra training?" Jem said. "Since you'l be training Tessa and Sophie regardless, if Bridget or Cyril-"
"As the Consul said, they have been quite effectively trained in their previous households," said Gideon. "Would you like a demonstration?"
"I don't think that's necessary," Jem said.
Gabriel grinned. "Come along, Carstairs. The girls might as well see that a mundane can fight almost like a Shadow-hunter, with the right kind of instruction. Cyril?" He stalked over to the wall, selected two longswords, and threw one toward Cyril, who caught it out of the air handily and advanced toward the center of the room, where a circle was painted on the floorboards.
"We already know that," muttered Sophie, in a voice low enough that only Tessa could hear. "Thomas and Agatha were both trained."
"Gabriel is only trying to annoy you," said Tessa, also in a whisper. "Do not let him see that he bothers you."
Sophie set her jaw as Gabriel and Cyril met in the center of the room, swords flashing.
Tessa had to admit there was something rather beautiful about it, the way they circled each other, blades singing through the air, a blur of black and silver. The ringing sound of metal on metal, the way they moved, so fast her vision could barely fol ow. And yet, Gabriel was better; that was clear even to the untrained eye. His reflexes were faster, his movements more graceful. It was not a fair fight; Cyril, his hair pasted to his forehead with sweat, was clearly giving everything he had, while Gabriel was simply marking time. In the end, when Gabriel swiftly disarmed Cyril with a neat flicking motion of his wrist, sending the other boy's sword rattling to the floor, Tessa couldn't help but feel almost indignant on Cyril's behalf. No human could best a Shadowhunter. Wasn't that the point?
The point of Gabriel's blade rested an inch from Cyril's throat. Cyril raised his hands in surrender, a smile, much like his brother's easy grin, spreading across his face. "I yield-"
There was a blur of movement. Gabriel yelped and went down, his sword skittering from his hand. His body hit the ground, Bridget kneeling atop his chest, her teeth bared. She had slipped up behind him and tripped him while no one was looking. Now she whipped a smal dagger from the inside of her bodice and held it against his throat. Gabriel looked up at her for a moment, dazed, blinking his green eyes. Then he began to laugh.
Tessa liked him more in that moment than she ever had before. Not that that was saying much.
"Very impressive," drawled a familiar voice from the doorway. Tessa turned. It was Will, looking, as her aunt would have said, as if he'd been dragged through a hedge backward. His shirt was torn, his hair was mussed, and his blue eyes were rimmed with red. He bent down, picked up Gabriel's fal en sword, and leveled it in Bridget's direction with an amused expression.
"But can she cook?"
Bridget scrambled to her feet, her cheeks flushing dark red. She was looking at Will the way girls always did-a little openmouthed, as if she couldn't quite believe the vision that had materialized in front of her. Tessa wanted to tell her that Will looked better when less bedraggled, and that being fascinated by his beauty was like being fascinated by a razor-sharp piece of steel-dangerous and unwise. But what was the point? She'd learn it herself soon enough. "I am a fine cook, sir," she said in a lilting Irish accent.
"My previous employers had no complaints."
"Lord, you're Irish," said Will. "Can you make things that don't have potatoes in them? We had an Irish cook once when I was a boy. Potato pie, potato custard, potatoes with potato sauce . . ."
Bridget looked baffled. Meanwhile, somehow Jem had crossed the room and seized Will 's arm. "Charlotte wants to see Cyril and Bridget in the drawing room. shall we show them where it is?"
Will wavered. He was looking at Tessa now. She swal owed against her dry throat. He looked as if there were something he wanted to say to her.
Gabriel, glancing between them, smirked. Will 's eyes darkened, and he turned, Jem's hand guiding him toward the stairway, and stalked out. After a startled moment Bridget and Cyril fol owed.
When Tessa turned back to the center of the room, she saw that Gabriel had taken one of the blades and handed it to his brother. "Now," he said. "It's about time to start training, wouldn't you say, ladies?"
Gideon took the blade. "Esta es la idea mas estupida que nuestro padre ha tenido," he said. "Nunca."
Sophie and Tessa exchanged a look. Tessa wasn't sure exactly what Gideon had said, but "estupida" sounded familiar enough. It was going to be a long remainder of the day.
They spent the next few hours performing balancing and blocking exercises.
Gabriel took it upon himself to oversee Tessa's instruction, while Gideon was assigned to Sophie. Tessa couldn't help but feel that Gabriel had chosen her to annoy Will in some obscure way, whether Will knew about it or not. He wasn't a bad teacher, actual y-fairly patient, Will ing to pick up weapons again and again as she dropped them, until he could show her how to get the grip correct, even praising when she did something right. She was concentrating too fiercely to notice whether Gideon was as adept at training Sophie, though Tessa heard him muttering in Spanish from time to time.
By the time the training was over and Tessa had bathed and dressed for dinner, she was starving in a most unladylike manner. Fortunately, despite Will 's fears, Bridget could cook, and very well. She served a hot roast with vegetables, and a jam tart with custard, to Henry, Will, Tessa, and Jem for dinner. Jessamine was still in her room with a headache, and Charlotte had gone to the Bone City to look directly through the Reparations archives herself.
It was odd, having Sophie and Cyril coming in and out of the dining room with platters of food, Cyril carving the roast just as Thomas would have, Sophie helping him silently. Tessa could hardly help but think how difficult it had to be for Sophie, whose closest companions in the Institute had been Agatha and Thomas, but every time Tessa tried to catch the other girl's eye, Sophie looked away.
Tessa remembered the look on Sophie's face the last time Jem had been ill, the way she'd twisted her cap in her hands, begging for news of him.
Tessa had ached to talk to Sophie about it afterward, but knew she never could. Romances between mundanes and Shadowhunters were forbidden; Will 's mother was a mundane, and his father had been forced to leave the Shadowhunters to be with her. He must have been terribly in love to be Will ing to do it-and Tessa had never had the sense that Jem was fond of Sophie in that way at all. And then there was the matter of his il ness. . . .
"Tessa," Jem said in a low voice, "are you all right? You look a mil ion miles away."
She smiled at him. "Just tired. The training-I'm not used to it." It was the truth. Her arms were sore from holding the heavy practice sword, and though she and Sophie had done little beyond balancing and blocking exercises, her legs ached too.
"There's a salve the Silent Brothers make, for sore muscles. Knock on the door of my room before you go to sleep, and I'll give you some."
Tessa flushed slightly, then wondered why she had flushed. The Shadowhunters had their odd ways. She had been in Jem's room before, even alone with him, even alone with him in her night attire, and no fuss had been made over it. all he was doing now was offering her a bit of medicine, and yet she could feel the heat rise in her face-and he seemed to see it, and flushed himself, the color very visible against his pale skin. Tessa looked away hastily and caught Will watching them both, his blue eyes level and dark. Only Henry, chasing mushy peas around his plate with a fork, seemed oblivious.
"Much obliged," she said. "I Will -"
Charlotte burst into the room, her dark hair escaping from its pins in a whirl of curls, a long scrol of paper clutched in her hand. "I've found it!" she cried.
She col apsed breathlessly into the seat beside Henry, her normal y pale face rosy with exertion. She smiled at Jem. "You were quite right-the Reparations archives-I found it after only a few hours of looking."
"Let me see," said Will, setting down his fork. He had eaten only a very little of his food, Tessa couldn't help noticing. The bird design ring flashed on his fingers as he reached for the scrol in Charlotte's hand.
She swatted his hand away good-naturedly. "No. We shall all look at them at the same time. It was Jem's idea, anyway, wasn't it?"
Will frowned, but said nothing; Charlotte spread the scrol out over the table, pushing aside teacups and empty plates to make room, and the others rose and crowded around her, gazing down at the document. The paper was real y more like thick parchment, with dark red ink, like the color of the runes on the Silent Brothers' robes. The handwriting was in English, but cramped and full of abbreviations; Tessa could make neither head nor tail of what she was looking at.
Jem leaned in close to her, his arm brushing hers, reading over her shoulder. His expression was thoughtful.
She turned her head toward him; a lock of his pale hair tickled her face.
"What does it say?" she whispered.
"It's a request for recompense," said Will, ignoring the fact that she had addressed her question to Jem. "Sent to the York Institute in 1825 in the name of Axel Hol ingworth Mortmain, seeking reparations for the unjustified death of his parents, John Thaddeus and Anne Evelyn Shade, almost a decade before."
"John Thaddeus Shade," said Tessa. " JTS, the initials on Mortmain's watch. But if he was their son, why doesn't he have the same surname?"
"The Shades were warlocks," said Jem, reading farther down the page.
"Both of them. He couldn't have been their blood son; they must have adopted him, and let him keep his mundane name. It does happen, from time to time." His eyes flicked toward Tessa, and then away; she wondered if he was remembering, as she was, their conversation in the music room about the fact that warlocks could not have children.
"He said he began to learn about the dark arts during his travels," said Charlotte. "But if his parents were warlocks-"
"Adoptive parents," said Will. "Yes, I'm sure he knew just who in Downworld to contact to learn the darker arts."
"Unjustifiable death," Tessa said in a smal voice. "What does that mean, exactly?"
"It means he believes that Shadowhunters kil ed his parents despite the fact that they had broken no Laws," said Charlotte.
"What Law were they meant to have broken?"
Charlotte frowned. "It says something here about unnatural and il egal dealings with demons-that could be nearly anything-and that they stood accused of creating a weapon that could destroy Shadowhunters. The sentence for that would have been death. This was before the Accords, though, you must remember. Shadowhunters could kil Downworlders on the mere suspicion of wrongdoing. That's probably why there's nothing more substantive or detailed in the paperwork here. Mortmain filed for recompense through the York Institute, under the aegis of Aloysius Starkweather. He was asking not for money but for the guilty parties- Shadowhunters-to be tried and punished. But the trial was refused here in London on the grounds that the Shades were 'beyond a doubt' guilty. And that's really all there is. This is simply a short record of the event, not the ful papers. Those would still be in the York Institute." Charlotte pushed her damp hair back from her forehead. "And yet. It would explain Mortmain's hatred of Shadowhunters. You were correct, Tessa. It was-it is-personal."
"And it gives us a starting point. The York Institute," said Henry, looking up from his plate. "The Starkweathers run it, don't they? They'l have the ful letters, papers-"
"And Aloysius Starkweather is eighty-nine," said Charlotte. "He would have been a young man when the Shades were kil ed. He may remember something of what transpired." She sighed. "I'd better send him a message.
Oh, dear. This Will be awkward."
"Why is that, darling?" Henry asked in his gentle, absent way.
"He and my father were friends once, but then they had a fal ing-out-some dreadful thing, absolutely ages ago, but they never spoke again."
"What's that poem again?" Will, who had been twirling his empty teacup around his fingers, stood up straight and declaimed: "Each spake words of high disdain, And insult to his heart's best brother-"
"Oh, by the Angel, Will, do be quiet," said Charlotte, standing up. "I must go and write a letter to Aloysius Starkweather that drips remorse and pleading. I don't need you distracting me." And, gathering up her skirts, she hurried from the room.
"No appreciation for the arts," Will murmured, setting his teacup down. He looked up, and Tessa realized she had been staring at him. She knew the poem, of course. It was Coleridge, one of her favorites. There was more to it as well, about love and death and madness, but she could not bring the lines to mind; not now, with Will 's blue eyes on hers.
"And of course, Charlotte hasn't eaten a bit of dinner," Henry said, getting up. "I'll go see if Bridget can't make her up a plate of cold chicken. As for the rest of you-" He paused for a moment, as if he were about to give them an order-send them to bed, perhaps, or back to the library to do more research. The moment passed, and a look of puzzlement crossed his face.
"Blast it, I can't remember what I was going to say," he announced, and vanished into the kitchen.
The moment Henry left, Will and Jem fell into an earnest discussion of reparations, Downworlders, Accords, covenants, and laws that left Tessa's head spinning. Quietly she rose and left the table, making her way to the library.
Despite its immense size, and the fact that barely any of the books that lined its wal s were in English, it was her favorite room in the Institute. There was something about the smel of books, the ink-and-paper-and-leather scent, the way dust in a library seemed to behave differently from the dust in any other room-it was golden in the light of the witchlight tapers, settling like pol en across the polished surfaces of the long tables. Church the cat was asleep on a high book stand, his tail curled round above his head; Tessa gave him a wide berth as she moved toward the smal poetry section along the lower right-hand wall. Church adored Jem but had been known to bite others, often with very little warning.
She found the book she was looking for and knelt down beside the bookcase, flipping until she found the right page, the scene where the old man in "Christabel" realizes that the girl standing before him is the daughter of his once best friend and now most hated enemy, the man he can never forget.
A las! they had been friends in youth; But whispering tongues can poison truth; And constancy lives in realms above; And life is thorny; and youth is vain; And to be wroth with one we love, Doth work like madness in the brain.
. . .
Each spake words of high disdain And insult to his heart's best brother: They parted-ne'er to meet again!
The voice that spoke above her head was as light as it was drawling- instantly familiar. "Checking my quotation for accuracy?"
The book slid out of Tessa's hands and hit the floor. She rose to her feet and watched, frozen, as Will bent to pick it up, and held it out to her, his manner one of utmost politeness.
"I assure you," he told her, "my recal is perfect."
So is mine, she thought. This was the first time she had been alone with him in weeks. Not since that awful scene on the roof when he had intimated that he thought her little better than a prostitute, and a barren one at that.
They had never mentioned the moment to each other again. They had gone on as if everything were normal, polite to each other in company, never alone together. Somehow, when they were with other people, she was able to push it to the back of her mind, forget it. But faced with Will, just Will -beautiful as always, the col ar of his shirt open to show the black Marks twining his col arbone and rising up the white skin of his throat, the flickering taper light glancing off the elegant planes and angles of his face-the memory of her shame and anger rose up in her throat, choking off her words.
He glanced down at his hand, still holding the little green leather-bound volume. "Are you going to take Coleridge back from me, or shall I just stand here forever in this rather foolish position?"
Silently Tessa reached out and took the book from him. "If you wish to use the library," she said, preparing to depart, "you most certainly may. I found what I was looking for, and as it grows late-"
"Tessa," he said, holding out a hand to stop her.
She looked at him, wishing she could ask him to go back to call ing her Miss Gray. Just the way he said her name undid her, loosened something tight and knotted underneath her rib cage, making her breathless. She wished he wouldn't use her Christian name, but knew how ridiculous it would sound if she made the request. It would certainly spoil all her work training herself to be indifferent to him.
"Yes?" she asked.
There was a little wistfulness in his expression as he looked at her. It was all she could do not to stare. Will, wistful? He had to be playacting. "Nothing. I -" He shook his head; a lock of dark hair fell over his forehead, and he pushed it out of his eyes impatiently. "Nothing," he said again. "The first time I showed you the library, you told me your favorite book was The Wide, Wide World. I thought you might want to know that I . . . read it." His head was down, his blue eyes looking up at her through those thick dark lashes; she wondered how many times he'd gotten whatever he wanted just by doing that.
She made her voice polite and distant. "And did you find it to your liking?"
"Not at all," said Will. "Drivel y and sentimental, I thought."
"Well, there's no accounting for taste," Tessa said sweetly, knowing he was trying to goad her, and refusing to take the bait. "What is one person's pleasure is another's poison, don't you find?"
Was it her imagination, or did he look disappointed? "Have you any other American recommendations for me?"
"Why would you want one, when you scorn my taste? I think you may have to accept that we are quite far apart on the matter of reading material, as we are on so many things, and find your recommendations elsewhere, Mr.
Herondale." She bit her tongue almost as soon as the words were out of her mouth. That had been too much, she knew.
And indeed Will was on it, like a spider leaping onto a particularly tasty fly.
"Mr. Herondale?" he demanded. "Tessa, I thought . . . ?"
"You thought what?" Her tone was glacial.
"That we could at least talk about books."
"We did," she said. "You insulted my taste. And you should know, The Wide, Wide World is not my favorite book. It is simply a story I enjoyed, like The Hidden Hand, or-You know, perhaps you should suggest something to me, so I can judge your taste. It's hardly fair otherwise."
Will hopped up onto the nearest table and sat, swinging his legs, obviously giving the question some thought. "The Castle of Otranto-"
"Isn't that the book in which the hero's son is crushed to death by a gigantic helmet that fal s from the sky? And you said A Tale of Two Cities was sil y!" said Tessa, who would have died rather than admit she had read Otranto and loved it.
"A Tale of Two Cities ," echoed Will. "I read it again, you know, because we had talked about it. You were right. It isn't sil y at all."
"No?"
"No," he said. "There is too much of despair in it."
She met his gaze. His eyes were as blue as lakes; she felt as if she were fal ing into them. "Despair?"
Steadily he said, "There is no future for Sydney, is there, with or without love? He knows he cannot save himself without Lucie, but to let her near him would be to degrade her."
She shook her head. "That is not how I recal it. His sacrifice is noble-"
"It is what is left to him," said Will. "Do you not recal what he says to Lucie? 'If it had been possible . . . that you could have returned the love of the man you see before yourself-flung away, wasted, drunken, poor creature of misuse as you know him to be-he would have been conscious this day and hour, in spite of his happiness, that he would bring you to misery, bring you to sorrow and repentance, blight you, disgrace you, pul you down with him-'"
A log fell in the fireplace, sending up a shower of sparks and startling them both and silencing Will ; Tessa's heart leaped, and she tore her eyes away from Will. Stupid, she told herself angrily. So stupid. She remembered how he had treated her, the things he had said, and now she was letting her knees turn to jel y at the drop of a line from Dickens.
"Well," she said. "You have certainly memorized a great deal of it. That was impressive."
Will pulled aside the neck of his shirt, revealing the graceful curve of his col arbone. It took her a moment to realize he was showing her a Mark a few inches above his heart. "Mnemosyne," he said. "The Memory rune. It's permanent."
Tessa looked away quickly. "It is late. I must retire-I am exhausted." She stepped past him, and moved toward the door. She wondered if he looked hurt, then pushed the thought from her mind. This was Will ; however mercurial and passing his moods, however charming he was when he was in a good one, he was poison for her, for anyone.
"Vathek," he said, sliding off the table.
She paused in the doorway, realizing she was still clutching the Coleridge book, but then decided she might as well take it. It would be a pleasant diversion from the Codex. "What was that?"
"Vathek," he said again. "By William Beckford. If you found Otranto to your liking"-though, she thought, she had not admitted she did-"I think you Will enjoy it."
"Oh," she said. "Well. Thank you. I Will remember that."
He did not answer; he was still standing where she had left him, near the table. He was looking at the ground, his dark hair hiding his face. A little bit of her heart softened, and before she could stop herself, she said, "And good night, Will."
He looked up. "Good night, Tessa." He sounded wistful again, but not as bleak as he had before. He reached out to stroke Church, who had slept through their entire conversation and the sound of the fal ing log in the fireplace, and was still stretched out on the book stand, paws in the air.
"Wil -," Tessa began, but it was too late. Church made a yowling noise at being woken, and lashed out with his claws. Will began to swear. Tessa left, unable to hide the slightest of smiles as she went.