The Paper Swan

“Damian.” I grasped his shoulders. I wanted him inside. “Stop.”

 

He paused, taking in my flushed face, the rise and fall of my chest, my taut nipples, begging for his touch.

 

“If you can’t take, don’t give,” he said, sucking on my hot little button like I’d sucked on his thumb.

 

The fucking tease. His fingers continued their maddening dance, and just when I thought I was about to explode, his cock slid into me, full and hard. It was pure possession, unbridled and complete. The pleasure came, swift and explosive. I clung to him, unable to suppress the cry of delight as wave after wave of electric fire scorched through me. He held still, one hand cupping the back of my head, the other on the curve of my hip as I came in tight spasms around him.

 

“Again,” he said, when I lay replete and breathless under him. “With me this time.”

 

He started a relentless, masterful rhythm that carried me to new crests of passion. As he fueled my desire, his own grew stronger, his body moving with mine in exquisite harmony. I rose to meet him, stroke for stroke, feeling a sense of completeness that I had never known.

 

Ban

 

Eban.

 

Esteban.

 

Damian.

 

I knew all of him now.

 

I opened my eyes at the peak and the intensity of the moment shot through both of us. I abandoned myself to the whirl of sensation, my heart bursting with all the raw, tender, fierce things exchanged in that one look.

 

“Güerita.” He surrendered with a long, shuddering moan.

 

I wrapped my arms around him. He kissed the top of my head and pulled me closer. He wasn’t done touching me. His fingers moved up and down my back in long, languid strokes.

 

“You grew boobs,” he said. “Really, really nice boobs.”

 

“You grew hair.” I traced the silky hair on his arms. “And a really, really big um . . .”

 

“A big what, Skye? Let me hear you say it.”

 

“A really, really big personality.”

 

“The thing about really, really big ‘personalities’ is that they really, really need a lot of attention. And just so you know, I’m always careful. This is the first time I’ve gone—”

 

“Sombrero-less?” I laughed. “I know you’d never do anything to put me at risk.”

 

“How do you know that?”

 

“Because you love me.” There. The words were out and I couldn’t take them back. Let him deny what I’d seen in his eyes, what I knew was the truth.

 

Damian tensed, as if holding something in check. I held my breath, waiting for the mask to slip back on. My heart was going to break to the murmur of the ocean and the night wind rustling through palm trees. The lump in my throat grew to the size of a giant coconut.

 

“It’s true,” he said. “I’ve always loved you. Even when I hated you.”

 

Oh God oh God oh God oh God.

 

“Loved? Past tense?” I was pushing it, but my heart took a perilous leap.

 

“Loved. Love. What does it matter?” He pulled me into the cradle of his arms. “Love don’t die.”

 

“Are you feeding me one of your movie lines, Damian?”

 

“It’s a song.” He laughed. “My tastes have expanded.” His mouth covered my nipple, sending a warm shiver through me.

 

“Wait.” I pulled his head back up. “There’s something you should know.”

 

“I know.” His hands skimmed my waist possessively. “You love me, too.”

 

“Was I that obvious?”

 

“Skye.” He smiled. “You unleashed a fucking strawberry storm on me.”

 

 

 

Damian reattached the mosquito net over the bed and we stood back, surveying my handiwork.

 

“She can’t cook, but she can sew,” he said.

 

“Damn right, I can sew. I learned from the best.”

 

“So stitching all those flowers onto MaMaLu’s scarves paid off?”

 

“It’s called embroidery, and yes. She taught me well.”

 

“I don’t know.” Damian tugged at the patched up mesh. “I think we need to put it to the test.”

 

“Are you suggesting an afternoon romp, because—”

 

I didn’t get too far. Damian had me under the netting before I could protest. Not that I would. Or could. Because Damian in love was a thing of beauty—intoxicating, addictive, demanding, attentive, and always, always hungry.

 

Days passed like that, a whirling dance of sensation and passion and discovery. Nights too. I started taking the birth control pills that were still in the handbag that Damian had stashed away. I’d missed a couple of weeks, but it couldn’t be helped.

 

Every morning, Damian went to pick mangoes for me, with strict instructions to not cook while he was gone. I made the bed, returning MaMaLu’s Lucky Strike box back under his pillow. Sometimes I sat with it, thumbing through the contents, trying to catch a whiff of her, but all I smelled was stale tobacco.

 

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