Chapter 18
“WHERE IS HE?” I cried as I raced through the main foyer of the house, skirting around fallen bodies of men and vampires without sparing them a glance. I burst through the front doors to find two men I did not know standing guard on the steps, their warrior garb identifying them as Mohiri. They stared at me curiously and one of them who looked Indian said, “Who?”
“My friend, Roland. Nikolas said he was shot.”
“Oh the werewolf,” his Korean companion replied dismissively. “He took a round of silver to the chest. His pack came and took him away a little while ago. Didn’t look good.”
His words, spoken with such indifference, were like a knife in my heart. “No!” I darted past them down the steps to the driveway. My breath came in short gasps and it felt like my chest was in a vise. I couldn’t lose Roland. I turned back toward the house as Nikolas came through the door. “I have to go to him. Please. He needs me.”
He came down the steps, sympathy written on his face. “Roland is with his people. If anyone can help him they can.” He stopped in front of me. “The men had silver ammo, most likely to protect themselves from the vampires they were working with.”
I shook my head and backed away. “No, no, you don’t understand. I can help him.”
Nikolas put his hands on my shoulders. “He took a direct hit in the chest, Sara. The pack will do what they can for him but this type of injury is almost always fatal to werewolves. I’m sorry.”
“No! I won’t let that happen!” I pulled away from him and swiped at the tears running unchecked down my cheeks. I raised my eyes to his. I would beg him if I had to, I would do anything to reach Roland. “I know I’ve been nothing but trouble to you and you have no reason to do this for me but I have no one else. Please help me, Nikolas.”
Nikolas turned away and I closed my eyes as my heart broke.
“Erik, I need your bike.”
My eyes flew open as the Korean man who had so casually written Roland off as dead tossed a set of keys. Nikolas caught them and led me to two black motorcycles, handing me a helmet before he started one of the bikes. I jumped on behind him and we took off. He slowed down at the gate and I saw a tangle of bodies lying on the cobbled driveway. So much death. I closed my eyes and pressed my helmet against Nikolas’s back to block out the sight. I would not let my best friend become another casualty of this bloodshed. Please God… let us get there in time.
Nikolas did not try to talk to me as we sped back to New Hastings. I wrapped my arms around his body and clung to him as I tortured myself with images of Roland dying before I reached him. My visor was wet with tears by the time we hit the Knolls.
Brendan’s farm had always been the hub of activity for the family so I knew that’s where we would find Roland. The house was lit up and the driveway packed with vehicles when we got there. What if we were too late?
Nikolas drove the motorcycle along the edge of the driveway, taking me right to the front door where a dozen or so people milled around the step. Roland’s cousin Francis was there along with the two men who had shown up after the crocotta attack. I leapt off the bike and tossed the helmet aside as I ran up to them.
“Haven’t you done enough?” Francis demanded angrily, blocking my way to the door. “You are not welcome here.”
I had no defense because he was right. This was my fault. But Roland was my best friend and I would be damned if I’d let anyone keep me from him, especially now.
“I have to see him.” I started to push my way through but one of the other men held me back with one hand. I twisted, trying to break his grip. “Let me go!”
“Take your hand off her,” said a voice so frigid that the air around us seemed to drop several degrees. Nikolas walked up behind me and the man’s hand fell from my arm but he did not move out of my way. The tension on the porch was palpable as the werewolves faced the Mohiri warrior.
The door opened and Brendan appeared holding a tobacco pipe. “What’s going on here?” he growled and everyone on the porch fell silent.
“Brendan.” I used the distraction to slip between Francis and the man who had stopped me. “Please, I need to see Roland!”
He laid a large hand gently on my shoulder and shook his head. “I know how much you care about him but you can’t go in there right now. It’s not safe.”
“Not safe?”
“The silver went into too deep. It’s too close to his heart and we can’t get to it. He’s half mad with the pain and he doesn’t know anyone right now. He’d tear you apart.”
At that moment, an agonized howl split the air and I gasped at the pain I heard in it.
“He can’t heal,” Brendan explained gruffly. He coughed and his eyes glistened. “A couple of hours at the most.”
“No!” I pushed past him and he did not try to stop me. “Roland is not going to die!”
The house was full of people, most of whom I recognized from my time spent out in the Knolls with Roland and Peter. Some looked at me in confusion as I barreled past them and others sent me openly hostile stares. I ignored them all and shoved my way through them until I saw Judith step out of a room at the end of the hall. She carried herself with strength but her face was lined with grief.
I went to her, expecting her to throw me out of the house. Not that I wouldn’t deserve it. But I was willing to risk her rejection if there was the smallest chance I could help Roland.
“Sara, you shouldn’t be here,” she said in a choked voice. “Roland wouldn’t want you to see him like this.”
“I have to see him, Judith. I can help him.”
“Oh honey.” She pulled me into a tight hug and I let her, sensing that she needed it. “I know it’s hard to accept but there’s nothing we can do for him now.”
“But I can. I really can. Just let me try,” I begged.
“This is no place for you, Sara,” Maxwell said from behind me and I could hear censure mingled with sorrow in his voice. “There is nothing you can do in there but cause yourself more grief. You should leave.”
I spun to face him. “No goddamnit!” My voice rose above the din and people started to turn our way. It was the first time I’d ever raised my voice to Maxwell, but right now I didn’t care if he was the damn alpha of a werewolf pack. “I’m not going anywhere until I see Roland!”
I grabbed Judith’s hand and stared into her reddened eyes, willing her to believe me. “We can’t give up on him without doing everything we can. I can help him.”
“Sara –”
From inside the room a werewolf let out a long painful cry. I laid my hand on the door and felt the agonizing waves of pain on the other side. “Please,” I begged Judith.
Judith looked at Maxwell then nodded at me. I reached for the doorknob.
“What’s going on?” someone asked behind us. “What is she doing?”
I opened the door. “Whatever it takes.”
I walked into the room and let out a strangled cry when I saw the creature foaming at the mouth and thrashing wildly in the corner. The room had been hastily stripped of its bed and there was only a mattress on the floor. Thick chains ran from loops embedded in the floor to manacles on the werewolf’s wrists and ankles. I shuddered to think that they had a room already set up to deal with something like this.
The wolf’s fur was matted in places and still wet with blood and there was blood on the walls, mattress and floor. It was impossible to believe that this savage creature was my best friend.
“Roland?” I called softly and the wolf began to snarl and strain at the chains. Someone yanked me out of the room and I turned to see Nikolas.
I held up my hand. “It’s alright. I just tamed two hellhounds, remember?”
Whispers started in the crowd behind us. Nikolas reluctantly let me go and I went into the room again. I sat on the floor like I had in the cellar earlier tonight and opened myself to let the warm energy fill the room. I forced myself to relax then I began to talk to him in the same soothing tone I’d used on the hellhounds. I had doubted myself when I first tried to tame the dogs but now I knew what I could do. A crazed werewolf could not be much different than a pair of monstrous hellhounds.
“Roland, do you know who I am?”
The werewolf bared his impressive fangs and answered me with a low threatening growl.
“I see. Well that won’t do at all. I know you are in a lot of pain and we are going to deal with that soon, but first I think we need to have a talk. Or I’ll talk and you can listen. How does that sound?”
Another growl filled the room.
“I know I said that Remy was my first friend here, but you were always my best friend. The best times of my life have been with you and Peter. Remember when we used to have slumber parties and Brendan let us camp out in the hayloft that one time? We told ghost stories until we were all too scared to sleep and we ended up sneaking back into the house after everyone else went to bed. Or the time you nipped some of Brendan’s whiskey and we got drunk for the first time. I never touched that stuff again.”
I talked for half an hour, reliving the happiest memories I had of him and reminding him of the things we hadn’t done yet, the plans we’d made. My power filled the small room and slowly the wolf eased its thrashing and stared at me with tortured eyes. I stopped talking and noticed the silence in the room. It took me a few seconds to realize that the whole house was quiet, everyone was listening to me.
“Roland?”
The wolf let out a short mournful whine, his yellow eyes never leaving mine.
“You were pretty shocked to learn about Remy, weren’t you? But he’s not my only secret. Remember the other day after the marina when I said there were things I had to tell you about me? Do you want to know what it is – what I can do?”
He blinked and made a small whimpering sound.
I got to my knees and began to inch slowly toward him until Nikolas grabbed my arm to hold me back. “What are you doing? That’s an injured werewolf. He’ll rip you apart.”
“No he won’t,” I said without taking my eyes off the wolf. “You always ask me to trust you. Now it’s time for you to trust me.”
He held on for a long moment before he slowly released me. I continued toward Roland, stopping at the edge of the mattress to let a stronger wave of power flow over him. “I know it hurts a lot but I’m going to make the pain go away now. You know I would never hurt you, don’t you?”
The werewolf eyed me warily as I reached out one hand. It felt like the entire house held its breath as my hand touched a hairy paw. As soon as I made contact I sent the power pooled into my hand pouring into him. The effect was slower than I was used to but none of my other patients had been a four hundred pound werewolf.
“There you are,” I said when the yellow eyes finally softened in recognition. “You had me worried there.”
The wolf opened his jaws and made an inhuman sound like he was trying to talk to me before he sagged against the mattress and let out a shuddering sigh. My heart broke at seeing my friend in so much pain.
“Shhh,” I whispered to him, laying my other hand his chest so my power could search for his injuries. It did not take long to find the source of his pain, a silver pellet embedded in one of the muscles around his heart. I needed to remove it if he was going to live. I had never used my power to remove a foreign object but I imagined it wasn’t that different from forcing an infection from the body. I hoped that was the case because Roland’s life depended on it.
I laid both hands over his heart and focused my healing on the piece of silver, trying to shrink it like I would an infection. I felt it twitch but it refused to be moved from the muscle.
The wolf looked up at me with trusting eyes and I gave him a reassuring smile. “I think this is going to require a bit more contact.”
I lowered my body to the mattress amid gasps from the people crowding the doorway and wrapped my arms around the huge furry body. He did not resist when I pulled him to me and released a torrent of energy into him, directing it to the piece of silver that was slowly killing him. I held on tight as the heat built up in my chest where it touched him and my hands began to glow like pieces of iron in a forge. The werewolf twitched violently when the fire surrounded the silver pellet, slowly melting it and incinerating it into oblivion. The healing fire receded enough to fix the damaged tissue and smother the deadly fever that had started to spread through his body. When I could feel no more injury or sickness, I pulled the power back inside me.
My arms loosened their hold and I sagged against the wolf, more drained than I had ever been after a healing. “Now you know my secret,” I mumbled happily.
After several minutes, I felt the body next to me begin to shrink and lose hair. From somewhere close by I heard shouts and Brendan’s booming voice say, “Holy Mary Mother of God!”
Arms lifted me and held me against a warm hard chest. “I think she’s just exhausted,” Nikolas said, his voice a mixture of worry and reverence. “Hopefully, all she needs is some sleep.”
So I slept.
* * *
A slat of sunlight across my face woke me up. I raised a hand over my eyes and stared at the vaguely familiar lace curtains and striped wallpaper for a minute before I shifted to look around the room. My eyes fell on the shape of someone sitting on a chair in the corner.
“How are you feeling?”
I rubbed my blurry eyes, feeling like the one time I had a hangover. “I’ve been better. Where am I?”
“At the farm. You weren’t in any shape to go anywhere last night.”
The farm? Last night came flooding back to me. “Roland!”
“He’s fine. He’s down the hall.” The chair scraped and Nikolas sat beside the bed blocking the sunlight. His expression was hard to read. I couldn’t tell if he was going to take my hand or yell at me.
“Is this normal after you do that?” he asked quietly. “Passing out?”
“After a healing? It doesn’t usually knock me out like that, but I’ve never healed a werewolf before.” I stifled a yawn. “Usually I’m ok if I rest for an hour or so.”
“You do this a lot?”
I gave him a tired smile. “More times than I can remember. I’ve been doing it since I was six.”
He looked thoughtful for a moment. “That day on the wharf, you asked me if Mohiri had other powers. You wanted to know if we could heal others.”
“Yes.”
He ran a hand through his hair and I notice he was wearing the same clothes he had on yesterday. “I don’t know of any Mohiri who can do what you did last night. Is that what you did with those two monsters at in that cellar?”
I nodded. “I’ve used before it to calm animals but I had no idea it would actually work on hellhounds.” I thought about the two hounds with a touch of awe. “What happened to them? You didn’t –?”
“They tried to follow you so Chris and Erik had them restrained. They’ll be transported to one of our facilities until we figure out what to do with them.” He smiled for the first time since I woke up. “We couldn’t have a pair of hellhounds running amok around Portland.”
“What kind of facility? I don’t want them hurt.” I could only imagine the tortures those hounds had suffered already in their lives.
“No one will harm them.” Nikolas shook his head and let out a short laugh. “They are yours now. Once a fell beast imprints on a new master they are incredibly loyal. They will only answer to you.”
“That’s what the witch said.” He raised an eyebrow and I told him the Hale witch was in the cellar but didn’t try to stop me.
He rubbed his hand over his jaw and I saw that he needed a shave. I felt the craziest urge to reach out and touch his face but I stopped myself just in time. That healing must have really messed me up.
“A lot happened in that cellar last night. Do you want to talk about it?”
“No.” I turned my face away so he couldn’t see the horror and revulsion in my eyes. I’d let that thing take over my body. All my life I’d kept the demon subdued in a corner of my mind, never knowing what it was or understanding its real strength – until last night. I suppressed a shudder at the memory of how quickly the demon had grown, filling my skin and occupying my mind until I almost forgot I still existed. It was locked behind its walls again but I would never forget how close it had come to imprisoning me instead. I would never let it have that kind of power over me again.
“Every Mohiri struggles with their Mori at some point in their lives. For most it happens when they are younger and lack the training to manage the demon impulses. You have such control over your Mori that it must have been very frightening to let your guards down the way you did. But don’t let your fear make you forget why you did it. You saved those trolls.”
I pressed my lips together tightly and fought the tears that burned behind my eyelids. After Nikolas had wrestled me from the demon, the first thing I saw was Remy kneeling in a corner with his three little cousins in his arms. The gratitude in his eyes and the happy cries of the little ones should have made it all feel worthwhile. I was happy Minka and the others were home safe again and we had prevented a bloody troll rampage, but coming so close to losing myself to the demon had changed something in me. I would still give my life to protect the people I loved but I did not think I could ever give up my mind that way again… for anyone.
“You are stronger than the demon,” Nikolas said as if he could see into my head and read my fears. “I knew that when I met you. But hearing how you fought off the Hale witch and then last night, watching you with the werewolf, I realize you have power I can’t comprehend. You saved more than one life last night. People here are calling you a hero.”
I shifted and stared at the ceiling, remembering how Roland had looked when I walked into that room. “Some hero,” I choked out. “Roland wouldn’t have needed healing if I hadn’t gotten him almost killed in the first place.”
“What happened last night wasn’t your fault, Sara. We found out who was behind all this. His name is Yusri al-Hawwash and he is a billionaire oil sheik who found two years ago he has Alzheimer’s. He’s been searching everywhere for a cure and he was looking for trolls long before you sold that bile. He’s a desperate man with unlimited resources.”
“But he would have looked somewhere else if I had been more careful.”
“That still does not make you responsible for his actions.” He moved closer. “Look at me.”
I turned my head to meet his insistent gaze. “Yes, you have made mistakes but you are not to blame for the greed and deeds of another. Your fault lies in taking too much on yourself. You have to learn to trust people and stop trying to take on the world alone.”
I sighed heavily. “My life was a lot less complicated a month ago. Maybe now things will start to settle down again.”
It was Nikolas’s turn to sigh. “I wish that were true but after what I saw last night; I think you might be in more danger than we first thought.”
I sat up with my back against the pillows. “What do you mean? We haven’t seen any sign of vampires except those working for the sheik – which I totally don’t get by the way. And the sheik’s witch only tried to grab me to get to the trolls.”
“Think about it, Sara. The young trolls were taken around the same time you were attacked at the rest stop, which means the sheik didn’t need you to find the trolls. So why did they come after you when they had what they wanted?”
The implication of his words hit me just as he spoke again. “You want to know why vampires would risk helping humans kidnap trolls. What if the vampires wanted something and they made an agreement with the sheik – a trade of some kind? You for the trolls.”
“No, the two vamps I ran into tried to kill me not capture me.” I realized I’d said the wrong thing when his nostrils flared. “Remy and I took care of them,” I added quickly.
“You killed a vampire?” There was disbelief in his voice.
“With Remy’s help. He’s scary good.”
Nikolas looked like he was about to say something but changed his mind. “Even if you are right about the vampires, there is one thing you are overlooking. You have an incredible ability. If word of it gets out, the sheik will be coming after you and he won’t be the only one.”
“It won’t do him any good. I can’t heal humans,” I said, earning a dubious look. “My uncle is in a wheelchair. If I could heal humans, don’t you think he’d be the first one I’d heal?”
“But no one else would know that,” he pointed out. “Last night was just a taste of what could happen. They will keep coming and people will get hurt. And don’t forget, we still have a Master to worry about. He could come after you just to use you against Madeline.”
My stomach tightened. “Don’t hold back. I’m not quite paralyzed with fear yet.”
“You need to hear these things, Sara.”
“You’re trying to scare me, to get me to go with you,” I accused him.
His eyes held mine. “Yes I am. But that doesn’t make them any less true.”
My heart sank because he was right. This was no longer about my freedom or what I wanted. If I stayed in New Hastings, I would put everyone I cared about in real danger. I might not be able to heal the next one who got hurt. What if they came after Nate? I could never forgive myself. I didn’t want to go to the Mohiri. But for now, it looked like my only option.
I looked away so he could not see the tears threatening again. “I – I need to tell Nate, to explain it to him. It’s going to be hard for him to understand all this.” I had no idea how I was going to even start telling Nate about everything. But I couldn’t just take off.
“We have some things to wrap up in Portland that will take a few days and it should give you the time you need with your uncle. I know it this is hard for you but you are doing the right thing.” He got up and carried the chair back to the corner then opened the door. “I swear to you that I will keep you safe.”
He closed the door quietly behind him and I slid down to bury my face in the blankets. Part of me wanted to cry out my misery and another part wanted to scream about the unfairness of it all. I didn’t want to give up everything and everyone I knew and slink away into hiding. I wanted things to go back to the way they were.
Pushing back the blankets, I stood and looked around for my sneakers. I slipped them on and ran my fingers through my tangled hair, wondering where I’d lost my scrunchie last night. I twisted my hair into a loose knot until I could find a hair tie then opened the door. I needed to see Roland before I did anything else.
I knocked on the other three doors upstairs but Roland wasn’t in any of them. Voices carried up the stairs and I thought I heard his laugh. If he was well enough to be up, that was a good sign. I set my shoulders and descended the stairs.
The house had cleared out considerably since last night. In the living room I found Brendan, Judith, Roland, Peter and Francis. It wasn’t hard to figure out they were waiting for me. When I appeared, all talking stopped and everyone looked at me. Francis’s glare told me he hadn’t forgiven me for getting Roland hurt, no matter what I had done after. The others’ expressions were a little harder to read and I stopped nervously in the doorway, not sure what to say to them.
“Good morning, Sara. How are you feeling?” Judith asked.
“Good… thanks.”
She jumped up and swept me into a tight hug. “Thank you,” she whispered thickly into my ear. Sniffling, she let me go and hurried into the kitchen. I stood there feeling even more self-conscious.
Roland patted the spot next to him. “Are you alright?”
“I think I’m supposed to ask you that.” I studied his face to see for myself that he was ok. He looked a little paler than usual but other than that no signs of illness.
His smile was tired but his blue eyes twinkled. “That was the secret you were going to tell us? You don’t like to do anything small do you?”
Brendan cleared his throat. “What you did last night was… incredible. We’ve never met anyone with your ability so you can imagine we’re all very curious. Can you tell us about it? Have you always been able to do that?”
“I found out I could heal animals when I was six.” I told them how I started out healing animals and learned later I could heal nonhumans. I tried to describe how it felt when I used the power but it was like them trying to tell me how it felt to shift. I explained that it always made me tired and how much depended on the extent of the healing. They had a lot of questions and I tried to answer them all.
“So you’ve done a lot of these healings?” Brendan asked.
“More than I can count.”
Roland sat up straighter and stared at me with new understanding. “That time Uncle Brendan’s mare hurt her leg and everyone thought they’d have to put her down. No one could believe it when the vet said the leg was sound. That was you, wasn’t it?”
I nodded. I would never forget that day three years ago when we showed up at the farm to find it in an uproar because one of the horses had lamed itself. I’d run straight for the barn and waited until everyone left before I fixed the fractured bone. Roland had found me asleep by the barn door and teased me about it all night.
“There were other times too, now that I think of it,” Brendan said almost to himself. “My old Lab that got shot out in the woods and that sickly litter of kittens the cat abandoned. I never could understand how any of those animals survived. Now that I remember it, you were here every time.”
“How did you manage to keep this from us all this time?” Roland wanted to know. “How is that no one ever figured out what you could do?”
I lifted my shoulders. “I had to work to hide it. You don’t know how hard it was. Remember when I started volunteering at the animal shelter and you guys couldn’t understand why I quit after a few weeks when I loved it so much? Whenever they brought in a sick dog or cat I had to heal it. I couldn’t help myself. But then someone noticed all the animals suddenly improving. I had to leave to protect my secret. It’s bothered me ever since because there were so many animals I could have helped.”
Peter had been quiet since I came downstairs and I could tell he was still pretty shaken up by last night. He looked at me with a kind of reverence that made me uncomfortable. “So the biggest thing you’ve ever healed is a horse?”
“Yes, but that was nothing compared to a werewolf.”
He grinned. “Well you turned out to be a good one to have around in a fight. We’re lucky you were here last night.”
“Lucky?” Francis snorted angrily. “If she wasn’t messing with trolls and dragging you guys into her mess, Roland wouldn’t have been hurt in the first place.”
“Frances…” Brendan began.
“I’m part of this pack and I get to say my piece.” Francis looked ready to jump out of his seat at any second. I thought about the animosity that had always existed between us and knew this just added to his reasons to dislike me. The hard part was that he was right. Roland and Peter had both been hurt yesterday because of me. What if Peter hadn’t been able to heal himself? What if Roland had died on the spot or I hadn’t gotten to him in time?
“Last night proved what I’ve been saying for years: we need to stick with our own kind and leave everyone else to their own business. Now we have crocotta coming onto our land, something they have never done before. We have Mohiri hanging around like they own the place and we’ve been dragged into a fight with vampires and goddamn witch doctors over trolls who would rather tear your heart out than look at you. And it’s all because of her.” He pointed at me and I met his contemptuous stare quietly. “You all have always been soft on her because she’s the poor little orphan girl. But she’s not so little anymore and she’s not even human. She’s one of them for Christ’s sake so she should be with them. Since when do we welcome Mohiri into our homes?”
“Francis, that’s enough!” Judith admonished sharply from the doorway.
“He’s right,” I said loudly and everyone stared at me. “Everything he said is true – except about the trolls. Remy’s has always been a good friend to me. I should have known better about the bile, and I should have said no when he asked me to use it. Just because he’s a troll doesn’t mean he understands people or how dangerous they can be.” I took in a shaky breath. “I understand if you hate me but none of this is his fault.”
Roland laid his hand over mine after I finished my impassioned speech. “Sara, no one here hates you. Don’t mind Francis. You know how he is.”
Francis sneered at him. “Of course you stand up for her, Roland. You’ve had a thing for her since you met her.”
What? I turned to Roland and a flush crept up his neck. “Maybe back when we were younger… but not for a long time.” He gave me a sideways look. “Oh come on. All the boys liked you when you started school with us. Pete did too.”
The look on Peter’s face told me he wanted to pound Roland for pulling him into this. “Yeah, but after a while we decided that we didn’t want to fight about it.”
I made a choked sound. Judith coughed and disappeared into the kitchen again and I was sure I heard muffled laughter from the other room. I sank further into the couch, wishing it would swallow me up.
“See, that’s what I mean. You guys were always biased when it came to her. I’m not saying Sara is a bad person. But she’s not good for the pack. ” Francis leaned forward in his chair. “And I’m not the only one who thinks that.”
“It is not your place to say that,” Brendan said sternly and I thought I heard a growl beneath the words. “Max and I discussed this last night and we will decide what is good for this pack, not you or anyone else.”
“Fine,” Francis said sullenly. He stood and stomped to the door. “But if Maxwell agrees with you, why isn’t he here right now?” He slammed the door hard behind him.
No one spoke for a long cruel moment during which terrible doubts assailed me. Was it true? Did Maxwell share Francis’s sentiment? Maxwell could be a hard person sometimes – almost the opposite of his brother and sister – and his gruffness often made me feel like a little kid waiting for a scolding. I understood him a little better since learning he was the leader of a werewolf pack but it didn’t make me any less worried about his displeasure. If he was as angry as Francis implied, would he order Roland and Peter to stay away from me? As alpha his commands had to be obeyed no matter what my friends wanted. My heart squeezed painfully at the thought of losing them after everything we’d been through. My dad was gone, I’d lost Remy, and in a few days I had to leave Nate and my friends and everything I knew. I didn’t think I could survive another loss.
Brendan let out a long deep sigh and my fear grew at the grim set of his jaw as he looked at me. Brendan was the kind-hearted one, the peacemaker and they’d decided that he should be the one to tell me I was no longer welcome here. I braced myself for the blow and saying goodbye to the people who had been like a family to me.
“Max and I are not pleased with what’s been going on here lately, especially how reckless and foolish you youngsters have been. Last night, you never should have gone off like that without alerting the pack to what was going on. Because of that, we almost lost a pack member and that is inexcusable.” Beside me Roland tensed and hung his head as Brendan continued. “You two are young men now and should know by now to not go off alone, which means something is obviously missing in your training. That will be remedied soon enough, I promise you.”
He turned his attention back to me and I shrank away from the disapproval in his eyes. “We made some allowances for you considering your past and everything going on in your life lately. It’s a lot to deal with for someone your age. But you’ve shown a lack of good judgment and a reckless disregard for your safety that we never would have expected from you.”
“I’m sorry,” was all I could say past the lump in my throat.
“For all your mistakes you are a good person, Sara, and no one doubts your loyalty and courage. What you did here last night was nothing short of miraculous. You saved one of ours and the pack does not forget something like that. So where does that leave us?”
“I… don’t know.”
Brendan’s expression did not falter. “Max thinks you three need to be separated because you encourage each other’s bad behavior.”
“What?” Peter cried and Roland shouted, “No!” I didn’t say anything because I was not surprised. The ache in my chest grew and cold settled in my stomach.
Brendan held up a hand. “We talked it over and we decided that breaking up your friendship would be cruel but there will be some new rules if you want to keep it. To start: for the next three months, the only place you will see each other is at school. Every spare minute you boys have will go to extra training and trust me you’ll be too tired to get into trouble. There will be no more adventures like last night. You three pull something like that again and that’s it. Understood?”
All I could do was nod. I was so relieved that Maxwell hadn’t ordered me to stay away from the pack that I was afraid I’d start to cry if I spoke. Roland shifted like he was about to argue and I squeezed his hand hard to stop him. This was the harshest I’d ever seen Brendan, which said a lot about how serious he was and I didn’t want to push the matter.
Brendan was not finished. “There is one other thing. Sara, you need to tell your uncle what is going on in your life. We aren’t going to try to force you to do it but it’s not fair to him for you to be running around putting your life and maybe his in danger and keeping him in the dark about it. He deserves better than that. You’ve been on your own for far too long without supervision. I’m not saying that Nate is a bad parent, just that he is not informed enough to guide you properly and set restrictions when needed.”
“I’m going to tell him today when he gets home.”
“Good.” Brendan slapped his hands against his knees and stood. “The three of you have to work to earn back the trust you lost, starting now. Maxwell is coming over soon to talk to you boys and I promise it will not be pleasant. The Mohiri is outside waiting to give Sara a ride home.”
Roland tightened his grip on my hand. “Already? Can’t she stay a little while longer?”
“No, I need to go,” I said, already dreading the task ahead of me. “I should get home before Nate does.”
Peter made a feeble attempt at a smile. “It’s only three months, right?”
His words brought on a pang of anguish. I had to tell them I was leaving and it hit me just how hard it was going to be to say goodbye to them. We’d stay in touch somehow but it would never be the same as what we had here. It hurt to think of not finishing our senior year together, not sitting together at graduation or looking at colleges together.
“I… made a decision,” I said, unable to look at them. “I’m going to stay with the Mohiri for a while.”
“What!” Roland cried in disbelief.
“Nikolas doesn’t think it’s over with the vampires and I – I think he might be right.” I told them about the sheik and Nikolas’s theory that vampires were working with the humans to try to get to me. And that the sheik might come after me if he thought I could heal his disease. “No one is safe as long as I’m here.”
“We can take care of ourselves,” Peter argued.
“You can but what about Nate? He’d be defenseless if they came after him to get to me. Nikolas said I’ll be safe with the Mohiri, especially if there is a Master in the picture.” I looked at each of them, my eyes pleading with them to understand. “I don’t want to go, but I don’t think there’s any other way to keep Nate safe.”
“What about the trolls?” Roland asked hopefully. “They’re your friends, right? Won’t they help if you ask them?”
I shook my head. “Remy says the elders know about us selling the bile and they will forbid him from seeing me. If we’re lucky it won’t be a forever thing but I don’t think I can count on any help there.” I hadn’t even begun to process the pain of losing Remy’s friendship. I pushed it to the back of my mind because I if I had to deal with one more loss right now I would break.
“Damn! Even trolls get grounded,” Peter said with a whistle.
We fell quiet for a few minutes until Roland finally said, “So you’re going to tell Nate everything and then leave. I don’t think he is going to handle this well.”
I groaned. “He’s not going to take it well either way. And you know him – he won’t believe anything without proof.”
“I could come over and shift for him,” Peter offered and I let out a humorless laugh.
“Yes and give him a heart attack. I think seeing a werewolf up close and personal will be too much for him even if it is you.”
“Hmm, you’re probably right.”
“I’ll figure something out. Maybe I can show him an imp. Our place is full of them.”
“Probably not a good idea to tell him he has a demon infestation,” Roland pointed out dryly. “Especially with you leaving.”
This was going to even harder than I’d thought. There was not going to be an easy way to break any of this to Nate but I needed to show him something or he’d never believe me. “I need a way to show him proof without scaring the hell out of him.”
“Ok so no close encounters,” Roland thought out loud. “Maybe a picture of something… or a video.”
“You mean like a video of an imp?” Unless you got close enough to see their very sharp teeth, they looked pretty harmless. “How will he know it’s not a fake? It has to be something he can’t refute.”
Peter’s face lit up. “I have an idea. Give me your phone.”