chapter ELEVEN
ALESSANDRO SAT ALONE in his office on the executive floor of the Corretti Media tower. His mobile beeped insistently at him, but he ignored it. Just as he ignored the new proposal Giovanni had drafted for him, comprising Alessandro’s bid for the cursed docklands regeneration project. All he needed to do was sign it.
And then, of course, persuade Alessia Battaglia’s grasping, two-faced father to honor the commitment he’d made back when Alessandro and Alessia had agreed to marry.
But instead he’d cleared his office.
The proposal was one more gauntlet thrown down in this same old war. It cut out his cousins completely, following right along in Carlo’s footsteps, adhering to the same script his father and uncle had written in their blood decades back.
Alessandro pushed back from his desk and roamed restlessly around his great office, a suitable corporate celebration of a man of his wealth, power and position. It was a space meant to intimidate. To assert in no uncertain terms the full weight and heft of Corretti authority.
That goddamned name.
He walked to the windows, and looked out over the city of his birth. Palermo basked before him in the summer sun, corrupt and decaying, beautiful and serene. A mass of contradictions imprinted with the fingerprints of history, this place; streets marked with violence surrounding ancient green squares of breathtaking loveliness. Byzantine churches, leftover city walls, influences ranging from the Phoenicians to the Mafia. And it was inside of him. It was home. Unlike his brother, he had never wanted to live abroad. Sicily sang in his blood. Palermo was the key to who he was.
And who he was, who he had always been, was a Corretti.
But he was no longer sure what that meant.
He could have become his father at any time in all these years. He could have stepped all too easily into Carlo’s shoes today. He’d finally felt what that would mean. He’d wanted it. He’d even thought Niccolo Falco deserved it.
But the woman who’d told him that he deserved what was right, whatever that was, deserved better than a violent criminal as her husband. And it made him question not only himself, but this whole notion of who the Correttis were. If it was a curse, this name—or it was merely one more choice they all kept making.
Today Alessandro had chosen not to take the easy way, the corrupt and criminal way. His father’s way. He’d spent his life believing he did what was right, that he did his duty.
Now it was time to prove it.
He walked back over to his desk and shoved the proposal out of his way, picking up his mobile to make two calls he should have made years ago. To offer, if not an olive branch, a start. A fresh, clean start.
His duty to his family should be about the living, not the dead. The Corretti name should not be forever synonymous with the actions of those long buried.
Because the past didn’t matter. What mattered were the choices they made now. He, his half-brother, Angelo, and his cousin Matteo shouldn’t have to follow along in the footsteps of monsters, simply because those monsters were their fathers. And they certainly didn’t have to become them.
Surely, he told himself, they could simply … stop this.
His cousin Matteo picked up the phone, and Alessandro braced himself for a necessary, if excruciatingly awkward, conversation.
It was only as dark as they allowed it to be, he thought. And it was long past time for the light.
Elena let herself out of her parents’ house high up on the rocky hillside, and pulled the door closed behind her quietly, so as not to disturb her father’s rest. It was a gray, foggy morning, the air thick and cool against her skin. She pulled her old jacket tighter around her, and set off down the slanting street.
She felt turned inside out. Rubbed entirely raw. Her parents had done nothing but love her since her return yesterday afternoon. Her mother had wept. Her father had smiled as if she was a blessing from on high. Elena was humbled. Grateful.
And she’d still been unable to sleep, her mind and her body torturing her with memories of Alessandro. Images of Alessandro. All of that heat and light, fire and need.
She’d learned nothing.
The sloping streets and ancient stone stairs that led the way down the hillside were second nature to her. Each house, each alley, each clothesline hanging naked in today’s weather, was like its own separate greeting. This was home. It had always been home. She was made to smell of the sea, the salt and the sun and the bounty they provided. There was no shame in that.
Yet today she felt out of place in a way she never had before.
It will come, she assured herself as she came to the bottom of the steep hill that led into the main square. You’ve been away for a long time.
Everything seemed different in the thick mist. Sounds were muffled, and strange echoes seemed to nip at her heels. She narrowly avoided one of the village’s biggest gossips, darting around the far side of the great statue that sat in the center of the square, and was so busy looking back over her shoulder to be sure she’d escaped that she ran right into someone.
Elena opened her mouth to apologize, but she knew that rock-hard chest. She knew the strong hands that wrapped around her upper arms and righted her.
It seemed to take a thousand years to lift her gaze to his, to confirm what she already knew.
What her body was already celebrating, with an insistent ache in her heart and core alike.
“What are you doing here?” she gasped out.
Alessandro’s wicked brows rose in arrogant amazement.
“You left me.”
“I had to come home,” she blurted out in a rush, the strangest urge to apologize to him, to offer him comfort, working its way through her. Proving, she thought, her terrible weakness. “And what does it matter to you?”
“You left me,” he said again, each word distinct and furious.
Elena ignored the things that clamored in her then, all of that fear and despair that she’d lost him, all of her desperate, foolish love for a man she couldn’t have. Not really. Not the way she wanted him.
“Is this about the land?” she asked baldly. “Because you didn’t have to come all the way here for that. You don’t have to pretend anymore.”
His eyes blazed, so lethally hot she took a step back, and then cursed herself for it. Alessandro was a lot of things, but he wasn’t Niccolo. She knew he would never hurt her—not like that.
“It turns out,” Alessandro bit out, betrayal and accusation in those dark green eyes, “that I am sick and tired of being discarded on my wedding day.”
Elena paled, then reddened.
“Not here,” she managed to get out.
She ducked into one of the ancient passageways that wound around behind a few of the shops and deposited them on a lonely stretch of the rocky cliffs overlooking the small harbor. And then she faced him.
He stood there, dark and furious, dressed in one of those impossibly sleek suits that made him look terrifying and delicious all at once, a symphony of powerful, wealthy male beauty. It reminded her that she was only a village girl in old clothes and messy hair, no doubt smelling again of fish.
“What exactly are you doing, Elena?” he asked, his voice clipped.
“This is where I belong,” she said defiantly. “This is who I am.”
He only watched her, his dark green eyes narrow and fierce.
“I brought you something,” he said after a moment. He reached into an inside pocket of his suit jacket and she was sure, for a dizzy moment, that he was going to pull out those torn panties and then what would she do? But instead, he handed her a thick envelope.
Elena took it, her fingers acting of their own accord, a miserable, sinking sensation washing through her, from her throat to her heart to her belly.
“Is this—?” Her throat was so dry she could hear the words scrape as she formed them. “Are these divorce papers?”
This was what she wanted, she tried to tell herself. This was a good thing. But she wanted only to curl up somewhere and cry.
His hard mouth curved into something far too angry to be a smile.
“It’s a legal document,” he said, his eyes never leaving hers. “It relinquishes any claim I might have had to your family’s land, and hands it back to you.” Elena made a small noise, her fingers clutching almost convulsively at the envelope. “And I suggest you take note of the date. It was signed three days ago.”
Meaning, it took her a confused moment to understand, that he had signed the land over to her before their wedding.
“I don’t …” she whispered.
“In case there is any lingering confusion,” he said in that deadly way of his, “I never wanted the goddamn land. I wanted you.”
Which meant he really was the man she’d wanted him to be—but Elena couldn’t process that. There was nothing but a roar of thunder inside her, loud and overwhelming.
He didn’t love her, she reminded herself then, cutting through all the noise. No matter what kind of man he was.
The envelope shook in her hand. “I don’t know what to say.”
“What a surprise.” His voice was cool, but his eyes burned hot, and she burned with them. “And here I thought your silent defection was so eloquent.”
He reached out for her other hand, taking it in his, and Elena watched in stunned silence—as if it was not her hand at all, as if it was connected to someone else—as he reached into a different pocket and slid the rings she’d left in the penthouse back onto her finger.
“I don’t want those,” she croaked out. His hand closed around hers then, and she felt that electric charge sizzle all the way up her arm.
“They’re yours,” he bit out, his dark eyes flashing. “Just like the clothes you left behind. If you don’t want them, fine. Sell them. Burn them in your back garden. But I won’t take them back.”
She yanked her hand away, as if her palm was on fire. It felt like it was. It felt like she was.
But Alessandro was a dream and it was time to wake up. She had to stop prostrating herself to impossibilities. She had to stop dreaming about what she thought she ought to have, and concentrate instead on what she did have. And that wasn’t him.
“I appreciate this more than I can say,” she said in a low voice, stepping back from him and tucking the envelope in the pocket of her jacket.
“All I asked was that you have a little faith,” he gritted out. “Was that really so hard, Elena? Did it warrant you running away from me mere hours after our wedding?”
“We have sex,” she said evenly, because it was time to accept reality. “That’s all it is, Alessandro. That’s all it ever was.”
“You’re still such a liar,” he said in a kind of wonder.
“It’s not real,” she continued, determined to make him see reason. “It’s chemical. It fades.”
“We do not just have sex,” he said, moving toward her then. “What we have, Elena, is extraordinary. It was there from the moment we met.”
He reached over and slid his palm along her jaw, her cheek, anchoring his fingers in her hair. That same fire roared in her, that easily. That same old connection that had caused all this trouble. And he knew it. His mouth curved.
“You can’t—” she began, but he only pressed a finger over her lips and she subsided, her heart pounding.
“And if you want something real,” he said in a low, stirring voice that did nothing to conceal his temper and seemed to echo in her bones, her veins, her core, making something like shame twist in her, low and deep, “then you’re going to have to treat me like I’m real, too. Not something you have to bend and contort to get around. Just a man, Elena. Nothing more or less than that.”
That thudded into her, hard. She wrenched herself back, away from his touch. She fought for breath.
“You’re a man, yes,” she threw at him. “I know that. But your only form of communication is in bed—”
“Do not,” he interrupted her furiously, “do not claim I can’t communicate when your version of a discussion involves sneaking off for a plane ride and two hours’ drive.”
“You don’t understand!” She hardly knew what she was saying. She was panicked. Cornered. “I loved you so much I was willing to do anything. I wrecked my engagement. I betrayed my family. I lost myself—anything to have you. But that’s not love, Alessandro.” She shook her head wildly. Desperately. “It’s an addiction. It’s just sex.”
“Thank you,” he said grimly, “for using the past tense. Keep sticking your knife in, Elena. Twist it, why don’t you.”
But she couldn’t stop. It was as if something else had taken control of her.
“We never should have met,” she told him. “We were never meant to meet. It was a complete disaster at first sight.”
“It was love at first sight,” Alessandro snapped at her. “And you know it.”
That was like a deep, terrible rip, so far inside her she didn’t think she could survive it.
“Don’t you dare say that!” she hurled at him. “Don’t you dare pretend!”
“I love you!” he thundered, the words ricocheting from the stone walls of the village, the rocky cliffs, the thick fog and the water below.
Or maybe that was only in her head. Maybe that was her heart.
Alessandro found her gaze, held it. Frustration and determination gleamed there in all of that dark green, along with something else.
Sincerity, she thought, from some stunned distance. He meant it. She heard a small noise, a kind of gasp, and only dimly realized she’d made it.
“I love you, Elena,” he said, his voice serious. Certain. “Since the moment I saw you, I’ve never been the same.”
“You …” But she couldn’t seem to speak.
“There were no contracts,” he said then, fiercely. “No discussions about assets or settlements. No prenuptial agreement. I simply married you, because I can’t be without you. I can’t let you leave me.” His dark eyes flashed. “I can’t.”
She tried to say his name, formed the syllables of it with her mouth, but no sound came out.
“I have a great darkness in me,” he said then, intently. “I can’t pretend I don’t. But it’s not going to win. It can’t, if I have you.”
She shook her head, as if she could shake this off. As if she could push him back into those neatly labeled boxes she’d set out for him. She had to do it, or she might die where she stood. She didn’t question that—she simply knew it.
“We were always destined to burn ourselves out, Alessandro,” she said when she could speak. “This was doomed from the start.”
He closed the distance between them then, and took her shoulders in his hands. Kind and gentle. Heartbreakingly firm.
“Do you want me to convince you?” he asked roughly, a broken look in his dark eyes. “Is that what this is? Because we both know I can.”
“What?” Her ears were ringing, louder by the second. “No, I—”
“Tell me what you want, Elena,” he said, all of his ferocity and all of the desolation she’d sensed in him right there between them, suddenly. Alive in the damp air. “Do you want me to hunt you down, make you accept what’s between us? Do you want me to leave you alone? You need to choose. You need to fight.”
He dropped his hands then, stepped back, and the distance between them was unbearable. It made her shake.
“You can’t put this all on me,” he continued, his voice low but with the ring of a kind of finality that made everything inside of her twist tight in anguish.
“I don’t know what I want,” she lied, and the look in his eyes then shamed her. Destroyed her. Because he knew she was lying. He always knew.
“I loved you before I knew your name,” he said then. “I love you more now, even when you lie to my face. All you have to do is own this, Elena.”
She shuddered. She couldn’t do it. She couldn’t—
“I do,” she said desperately. “I love you.”
“I know you do,” he replied, a slight curve to that hard mouth, but it wasn’t enough. “But that’s not the issue, is it? It never has been.”
And something in her finally broke then. Pride, fear. Selfishness and vanity. All the things she’d been accused of, all the accusations she’d levied at herself. It all simply cracked into pieces and washed over her.
“I left because I couldn’t bear to be so stupid,” she told him in a rush. “To make such a terrible mistake again.” Her eyes filled with tears, spilled over, wetting her cheeks. “But I married you because I wanted to marry you. I wanted you.”
She wiped at her eyes, then focused on him, and he took up the whole world. Commanding and strong. But waiting to hear what she’d say next. What she’d decide. As if she was the one with the power, after all.
“I still do, Alessandro,” she whispered. “I want you more than I’ve ever wanted anything else. I can’t fight that. I tried.”
“You don’t have to fight that,” he said, his dark green eyes so fierce on hers she trembled. “You don’t have to fight me. Just fight for this, Elena. Don’t run away. Don’t hide.”
She made a wordless sort of sound, far past the ability to speak, and he pulled her close and let her cry.
“I’m not your enemy,” he murmured into her hair.
“I know,” she whispered into his strong, warm chest. “I know you’re not.”
She shuddered against him, and then he kissed her. Sweet, sure. Hot. Like a promise. Like hope. And when he drew back she saw the future she’d been too afraid to imagine, right there in his dark eyes, that curve of his perfect mouth.
“Come back to Sicily with me,” he said. “And stay this time. Stay for good.”
Elena nodded, too overwhelmed to speak. And this wasn’t surrender, she realized. She wasn’t losing a thing. She was gaining Alessandro—she was gaining them.
She was trading in something broken, something ruined and outgrown, for a shared set of wings and the whole bright sky to call their own.
“I want you to meet my parents,” she whispered. “My father. He’s not well, but … I think he’ll like you.”
“That is exceedingly unlikely,” he said quietly. “I’m a Corretti.”
And it was Elena’s turn to kiss him then, to press her mouth against his and set him free with all of that fire that was always, only theirs. To love him with nothing held back, nothing hidden. To bask in that terrible, impossible, extraordinary love that had slammed into them with no warning, changing them both. Changing everything.
“He’ll love you,” she told him. She looped her arms around his neck and adored the way he smiled down at her. “Because I love you. That’s how it works.”
He was shadow and light. Ruthless and kind. Dark green eyes and that wild, hot heat when he looked at her.
And all of him hers, as he had been from the start. From that single glance across a crowded room.
“I will always be a Corretti,” Alessandro said. It was a warning. Or, she thought, a promise.
Elena smiled. “So will I.”