Chapter Fourteen
Everything is fine. He’s not with another woman. He’s just busy. You didn’t scare him off.
All morning she was filled with worry. But she repeated her mantra, trying to talk herself down. By the time she left for work an hour later, she almost believed it.
The jitters were simply new lover nerves. The fact that he hadn’t returned her I’m falling for you wasn’t something to worry about. They were going to the Spring Festival together tonight; they’d play Skee-Ball, have some cotton candy, and then sneak off to an alley somewhere for a quickie.
Jamie smiled to herself, liking that image. Glad, too, that she’d talked herself down from pointless fears.
On the walk to work, her phone buzzed, and she removed it from her purse to check the message.
Her shoulders fell as she read it.
Hey baby. Can we reschedule? Something came up that I have to take care of NOW. Call you later.
She looked at the time. It was ten thirty in the morning. What could possibly have come up that he had to take care of now? A fire? God forbid. But if it was a fire, she’d have heard sirens, and he’d have said so.
Jamie jammed the phone back into her bag. It had to be an error. A missent message. He couldn’t possibly be canceling their first real date.
Or could he?
She walked through town, looking in familiar store windows on her way to The Panting Dog, trying to reassure herself that she could trust him. He was reliable. He was serious. But already her heart was racing at a rabbit’s pace because this was her fear. That once she went all in, he’d pull out. He’d love her and leave her like he did with the other ladies. As she stopped at a red light, she noticed a familiar profile at the end of the next block. A pretty brunette. An even more beautiful blond man. Then he opened Cara’s car door for her, walked around to the passenger side, and drove off with her.
This is what came up? He needed to spend time with Cara when he claimed he was working and volunteering?
She blinked and squeezed her eyes shut, then open, as if that would hold back the stupid tears.
“Whoa. Easy there.”
Jamie lifted her eyes to Becker as she slammed a glass down hard on the bar. She’d just cleaned the glass, and was now prepping for the dinner shift at The Panting Dog.
“Sorry,” she said, lowering her gaze. She didn’t want her boss to know she was pissed and hurt, though she was having the hardest time keeping her emotions hidden.
“Whatever it is, let’s just dial it down a notch,” he said in a gentle voice.
But she had to stay mad. Anger was a shield, and if she let it fall, she’d break down, and she’d deserve it. She was an idiot for letting him in. He had no interest in a real relationship at all. Hell, he had no real interest in her seeing as how he had a perfect chance to tell her he was falling too and he didn’t. This must be his M.O. and now she was on the receiving end of love ’em and leave ’em. Screw their friendship. To hell if they were going to be able to stay friends now.
But Becker was a good guy and her boss, so she couldn’t take it out on him. She stared at a bottle on the counter, wanting to throw it across the room, watch it explode and take the hurt with it.
“You okay?” he asked.
She was not okay. She was not okay in any way, shape, or form. “Yeah, totally,” she lied and scrambled for something else to talk about. “My friend is moving back here soon. I can’t wait to see her,” she said, trying to focus on anything but Smith and the fact that she hadn’t heard a word all day. She was wound up now, her insides a twisted mess of worry and regret. She’d been played like a fool, hadn’t she? Believing she was special, and being left when it suited him.
She didn’t know what she’d do when she saw him again, but she’d have to figure it out now because he strolled in the door, looking quite pleased with himself. He held his arms out wide, as if he were leading a victory parade.
“Good evening, ladies and gentlemen,” he said, nodding to Becker. “But especially to the lovely lady behind the bar.”
Jamie took the deepest breath she’d ever taken in her life, letting the hurt that came with it expand throughout her entire body. She picked up the bottle of wine that had gone unopened, whirled around, and marched to the back room to tuck it away. Seconds later, she felt a hand on her shoulder. She shrugged it off.
“Hey, darlin’, you okay?”
“Don’t ‘hey, darlin’’ me.”
He didn’t seem to process what she’d just said, because he reached for her, trying to touch her hair, but she slipped away from his grasp.
“I texted to tell you I was on my way back.”
“On your way back? From where? From your construction job? From the Burn Center? Or just from getting away from me as soon as you possibly could?”
“Excuse me?”
“You took off like you couldn’t wait to leave this morning. You knew this was hard for me, taking a chance like this, and we’re supposed to be friends. You’re supposed to be able to be honest with me, but instead you just left, and—” she said, and like a strong wind that came out of nowhere, all her anger was gone, and in its place were thick hot tears rolling down her cheeks. “Was it all just about sex after all?”
“Jamie, no, I swear. It’s more than that. You have to believe me. You have to trust me,” he said, reaching out to grab her arm.
But she couldn’t even trust herself or her own emotions. Because she’d never expected to feel so much for him, and now she felt like a fool.
“I have to go,” she said and she stalked off, grabbing her bag from behind the counter, uttering a quick good-bye to Becker and telling Kaitlyn she needed to go since her shift was over. She rushed outside, greeted by the laughter and music and noise from the Spring Festival across the street, already underway in the town square.
She wished it were night, and a dark sky would shadow the tears that slid down her cheeks.
…
“Man, I will never understand women,” Smith said, pulling up a stool and parking himself on it.
Becker chuckled and filled a glass from the tap, sliding it over. “Buddy, I don’t know any man who truly does, so join the club.”
“I don’t get them. Not one bit,” he said, taking a long swallow of the cold beer. Damn, that tasted good. He tapped the side of the glass. “This? Beer? I understand beer. And I understand fires and how to fight them. And I understand hammering nails into wood. But women?” He shook his head several times.
“Wish I could help you. I’m happy to try, though, if you want to lay it on me,” Becker said, resting his hands on the bar counter. “After all, I’m kind of playing bartender here tonight.”
Smith hadn’t told his friend any details yet, and Jamie was his employee, so he erred on the side of caution, not using names. “There’s this woman,” he began.
“Yeah, I’m clear on that part,” Becker said with a wry laugh.
“And she wasn’t sure about going out with me, thought I wasn’t the relationship type. That I couldn’t be serious. But we started to get close, and now she’s worried I don’t really care about her in the same way. ”
Becker raised an eyebrow. “But you do, right?”
“Yes. F*ck yes. But she didn’t even give me a chance to explain. And that’s what makes me crazy. She took off the first time we were together, and now she did it again. She never gives me a damn chance.”
Becker started wiping down the counter. “Listen. It’s a new relationship. You just need to be honest with her. Tell her how you feel, and reassure her—”
“But she walked out when I tried to tell her,” he said, crossing his arms over his chest. “And that makes me wonder if it’s worth it. Or if she’s just going to flip every time something happens.”
“Was she crying?”
He flashed back to her exodus, recalling the way her eyes started to fill with tears. “Yeah,” he said tentatively, not sure what Becker was getting at.
“Then let me tell you something. She likes you and she’s scared. And if you like her too, then you need to go make things right,” Becker said, looking him square in the eyes, man to man. “Do you want to make things right?”
That was the question. Did he? He was pretty sure he did earlier in the day, given what he’d been up to. He wanted Jamie to trust him, though, to have faith that he was a good guy who’d treat her right. Completely. As he analyzed the situation, he reminded himself that last night was their first real date. Everything was still new between them. They were learning how to be together. She was worried and nervous, and his buddy was right. He needed to reassure her. If he did it now, and proved himself now, they could keep moving forward on solid footing. He’d tried hard to win her heart in the last week, pushing past his own fears about how she felt, what their relationship would do to their friendship, and even about growing his own business. If Jamie made the effort to do a Mad Libs apology and set up a dinner with her sister as a show of faith, then he damn well needed to let her know that she could keep trusting him.
“Oh, and I know you’re talking about Jamie,” Becker said with a knowing glint in his eye. “I see the way she looks at you. She’s a good one, Smith. Go make things right.”
He set down his glass on the counter and extended a hand. “Thank you for kicking me in the ass.”
“Anytime.”
…
“Can I have another, please?”
The small voice rose up to Jamie’s ears.
“Of course you can,” she answered, doing her best to be as chipper as could be. Her arms were covered in a fine mist of pink sugar. Jamie reached for a paper tube, dipped it into the sugar-filled tin, and began swirling. But her cotton candy creations were a mess tonight. Lumpy and thin and not the pillowy clouds she was known for.
She swept the tube through the spinning sugar, trying to make an ideal treat for the child, but her hurt was stronger. She pushed hard against the side of the machine, and the paper tube shot out of her hand, landing on the grass.
“Oh crap,” she said, bending down to grab it.
“Hey, let me finish,” her sister said gently. Diane started over, recreating the treat and handing it to the child.
The Spring Festival was in full swing, and a pop band played upbeat tunes in the gazebo, as families, children and couples played games and danced to the music. When the line ebbed at the cotton candy stand, Diane turned to her. “What’s going on? You’re not yourself tonight.”
“Oh, it’s nothing. Just a rough day at work,” she said, glancing away so her sister couldn’t read the lie.
Diane reached for her shoulder. Squeezed it. “Hey. Talk to me. I’m your big sister. I know you didn’t have a rough day at work. You never have rough days at work. You love your job. You love your life. Is this about Smith?”
Jamie sighed heavily, as if all the tension inside her was spilling out too. Along with the stupid tears she never wanted to shed for him. “You were right when you said to be careful. I should have listened,” she said, hanging her head low.
“What do you mean?”
“I trusted him. I let him in. And you warned me way back when. But then I told him this morning that I was falling for him, and he said nothing in response. Actually, he said ‘I have to go,’ and that’s worse than nothing,” she said, fighting back more tears as the band from the gazebo launched into a pop song about second chances. She clenched her jaw, wishing they were playing breakup tunes because that’s what she needed now. “I should have known better.”
Diane smoothed out her hair and brought her in for a hug. “Smith is a good guy. I’ve been talking to him a lot lately because of the hires he’s making.”
“Then why did he just leave? Was it only about the sex after all? And he’s not serious about me?”
“Maybe he had a reason,” Diane said evasively, but with a twinkle in her eyes.
Jamie narrowed her eyes and stared at her sister, trying to see inside and make sense of the nonsense coming out of Diane’s mouth. “Hello? Where is my sister who told me to be careful?”
“I did tell you to be careful, and I stand by that. I also stand by what I said about him being crazy for you. Give him a chance. I think the man knows you pretty well.”
Before she could respond, she heard something scampering toward her, and when she looked down she saw the most adorable furry face she’d ever seen. A German shepherd puppy with a dark snout, pointy ears and huge, fluffy paws. His mouth lolled open and his tongue hung out, giving him the perfect puppy smile. He looked vaguely familiar, like the dog on the waiting list.
“Have you ever seen a more adorable creature?” she said to Diane, a surge of happiness returning to her, thanks to the little canine.
“He’s pretty damn cute.”
The dog licked Jamie’s leg and she laughed at the feel of the rough tongue on her skin. “I probably have cotton candy on my leg too,” she said, then noticed the little puppy had a note attached to his collar. With her name on it. In familiar handwriting. Her heart thumped hard, and all the happiness that had escaped her earlier came crashing back into her like a comet. She reached for the note with shaky, hopeful fingers.
Her heart dared to skip a beat. She trembled and opened it.
I’m falling for you too.
She looked up to see Smith holding a leather leash and wearing a massive grin.
“I believe this is the dog you wanted, ma’am?”
She clapped her hand over her mouth. She glanced from the dog to Smith to the note. Then she felt Diane’s hand on her shoulder. “Told you so.”
Jamie stood. “Did you know about this?”
Diane nodded. “We texted this morning.”
“You knew all along?” Her mouth hung open.
“I did,” she said with a huge grin.
Jamie looked at Smith, and she couldn’t stop smiling either. “That’s why you were so into your phone this morning?”
“I wanted to make sure she thought it was a good idea to get you the dog you wanted. And she said yes. So I had the big sister approval before I got him for you.”
“But how did you get him?”
The puppy rubbed his snout against Jamie’s leg and started licking again. She laughed and picked him up.
“I’ll tell you how. But we need to set some ground rules first.”
…
Smith had the canine trump card, and he was pretty damn sure Jamie was bending his way again. But he was going to need to let her know once and for all how he felt about her.
“Now, listen. I texted you. I told you something came up. And I meant it. This came up.”
The puppy barked. A loud sound for such a young dog.
“I think he wants you to hold him,” he said, and she scooped him up and hugged him tight. “I didn’t tell you where I was because I was with Cara picking up this gift for you. She happens to know all the shelters in Northern California, and she made some calls, and made sure you got the dog you were on the waiting list for. And that’s why I was so damn preoccupied with my phone this morning, texting her, and texting your sister.”
“You did all that for me?” she said, with something like wonder in her voice.
“Don’t you get it? I’m crazy for you. And I should have told you this morning when you told me how you felt, but all I wanted to do was get you this dog. To show you how well I know you and how committed I can be to you.”
“I was just so scared. I’d let you in and I want you in, but I thought you only wanted the no-strings part and that once you got the strings, you wanted to cut them off.”
He laughed. “I want all those strings wrapped around me. Maybe with a leash, too. Now give this little guy some attention,” he said, nodding to the dog.
She stroked the puppy between his small pointy ears, then kissed him once on the head. “I love him already,” she said. Then she spoke quietly, looking contrite. “Will you forgive me for walking off again?”
“I hauled ass to San Jose when I heard we could get him. And I frigging hate San Jose. It was a six-hour drive round trip with all the traffic,” he said. “I should have taken a moment on your front step and told you I was falling for you too, but I was so damn excited to get you the thing you’ve wanted most. For you, Jamie. I wanted you to have this dog for no other reason than I am damn crazy about you and only you, and nothing is going to change that.”
A grin played on her lips. “This dog is the thing I’ve wanted most. But there’s something else I want, too. Someone else.”
“You’d better want me,” he said, as if giving her a command. Then he softened. “So what are we going to name him?”
We.
They were a we.
Jamie studied the puppy in her arms. “How about Chance? Because you always told me to give you a chance.”
He nodded, liking the name. “I think that’s a most excellent name for a most excellent dog. Now, come dance with me,” he said, tipping his forehead toward the gazebo as the band started on a slow song.
“But I have to make the cotton candy,” she said.
Diane tapped her shoulder. “I can handle the cotton candy. Go dance with your man and your dog.”
As they swayed under the stars, the dog played at their feet.
“And to think, it all started when you asked me to dance at the kickoff party,” she said, tucking her face in the crook of his neck.
“And then we did many other things.”
“Speaking of,” she said, “Maybe we can get out of here soon.”
“That’s my woman. Coming back for more.”
“So much more,” she said. She grinned at him, then the dog, at their feet. “Smith, I’m glad I took a chance on you.”
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Acknowlegments
Thank you to all my readers who I adore to the ends of the earth and back! A big thanks to the editors at Entangled and to my agent Michelle for making this opportunity possible. Endless affection and hugs to my loving family, to the world’s two most amazing dogs, and most of all to Lexi, Kendall, Sawyer, Monica, Violet, Melody and Jessie for the NWB. I love you ladies like crazy!
About the Author
Lauren Blakely writes sexy contemporary romance novels with heat, heart, and humor, and many of her books have appeared on the New York Times, USA Today, Amazon, Barnes and Noble, and iBooks bestseller lists. Like the heroine in her novel, FAR TOO TEMPTING, she thinks life should be filled with family, laughter, and the kind of love that love songs promise. Lauren lives in California with her husband, children, and dogs. She loves hearing from readers! Her novels include Caught Up In Us, Pretending He’s Mine, Playing With Her Heart, Trophy Husband, Far Too Tempting, The Thrill of It, Every Second With You, Night After Night, and After This Night. She also writes for young adults under the name Daisy Whitney.
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