"No," he said truthfully. "I could live just as long and die just as happy if I never saw Arnette again. Did you want to go to Ogunquit, Frannie?"
"Eventually, maybe. But not right away. I'd want to go to western Maine, what they called the Lakes Region. You were almost there when Harold and I met you in New Hampshire. There are some beautiful places, Stu. Bridgton... Sweden... Castle Rock. The lakes would be jumping with fish, I'd imagine. In time, we might settle on the coast, I suppose. But I couldn't face that the first year. Too many memories. It would be too big at first. The sea would be too big." She looked down at her nervously plucking hands. "If you want to stay here... help them get it going... I'll understand. The mountains are beautiful, too, but... it just doesn't seem like home."
He looked east and discovered he could at last name something he had felt stirring around in himself since the snow had begun to melt: an urge to move on. There were too many people here; they weren't exactly stepping all over each other, at least not yet, but they were beginning to make him feel nervous. There were Zoners (and so they had begun to call themselves) who could cope with that sort of thing, who actually seemed to relish it. Jack Jackson, who headed the new Free Zone Committee (now expanded to nine members), was one. Brad Kitchner was another - Brad had a hundred projects going, and all the warm bodies he could use to help with each of them. It had been his idea to get one of the Denver TV stations going. It showed old movies every night from 6 to 1 A.M., with a ten-minute news broadcast at nine o'clock.
And the man who had taken over the marshaling chore in Stu's absence, Hugh Petrella, was not the sort of man Stu much cottoned to. The very fact that Petrella had campaigned for the job made Stu feel uneasy. He was a hard, puritanical fellow with a face that looked as if it had been carved by licks of a hatchet. He had seventeen deputies and was pushing for more at each Free Zone Committee meeting - if Glen had been here, Stu thought he would have said that the endless American struggle between the law and freedom of the individual had begun again. Petrella was not a bad man, but he was a hard man... and Stu supposed that with Hugh's sure belief that the law was the final answer to every problem, he made a better marshal than Stu himself ever would have been.
"I know you've been offered a spot on the committee," Fran was saying hesitantly.
"I got the feeling that was an honorary thing, didn't you?"
Fran looked relieved. "Well..."
"I got the idea they'd be just as happy if I turned it down. I'm the last holdover from the old committee. And we were a crisis committee. Now there's no crisis. What about Peter, Frannie?"
"I think he'll be old enough to travel by June," she said. "And I'd like to wait until Lucy has her baby."
There had been eighteen births in the Zone since Peter had come into the world on January 4. Four had died; the rest were just fine. The babies born of the plague-immune parents would begin to arrive very soon, and it was entirely possible that Lucy's would be the first. She was due on June 14.
"What would you think about leaving on July first?" he asked.
Fran's face lit up. "You will! You want to?"
"Sure."
"You're not just saying that to please me?"
"No," he said. "Other people will be leaving too. Not many, not for a while. But some."
She flung her arms around his neck and hugged him. "Maybe it will just be a vacation," she said. "Or maybe... maybe we'll really like it." She looked at him timidly. "Maybe we'll want to stay."
He nodded. "Maybe so." But he wondered if either of them would be content to stay in one place for any run of years.
He looked over at Lucy and Peter. Lucy was sitting on the blanket and bouncing Peter up and down. He was giggling and trying to catch Lucy's nose.
"Have you thought that he might get sick? And you. What if you catch pregnant again?"
She smiled. "There are books. We can both read them. We can't live our lives afraid, can we?"
"No, I suppose not."
"Books and good drugs. We can learn to use them, and as for the drugs that have gone over... we can learn to make them again. When it comes to getting sick and dying..." She looked back toward the large meadow where the last of the children were walking toward the picnic area, sweaty and winded. "That's going to happen here, too. Remember Rich Moffat?" He nodded. "And Shirley Hammett?"
"Yes." Shirley had died of a stroke in February.
Frannie took his hands. Her eyes were bright and shining with determination. "I say we take our chances and live our lives the way we want."
"All right. That sounds good to me. That sounds right."
"I love you, East Texas."
"That goes back to you, ma'am."
Peter had begun to cry again.
"Let's go see what's wrong with the emperor," she said, getting up and brushing grass from her slacks.
"He tried to crawl and bumped his nose," Lucy said, handing Peter to Fran. "Poor baby."