Chapter 76
Fran lay awake with the reading lamp on. It cast a pool of bright light on the left side of the clean white sheet that covered her. In the center of the light, face-down, was an Agatha Christie. She was awake but slowly drifting off, in that state where memories clarify magically as they begin to transmute themselves into dreams. She was going to bury her father. What happened after that didn't matter, but she was going to drag herself out of the shockwave enough to get that done. The act of love. When that was done, she could cut herself a piece of strawberry-rhubarb pie. It would be large, it would be juicy, and it would be very, very bitter.
Marcy had been in half an hour ago to check on her, and Fran had asked, "Is Peter dead yet?" And even as she spoke, time seemed to double so that she wasn't sure if she meant Peter the baby or Peter the baby's grandfather, now deceased.
"Shhh, he's fine," Marcy had said, but Frannie had seen a more truthful answer in Marcy's eyes. The baby she had made with Jess Rider was engaged in dying somewhere behind four glass walls. Perhaps Lucy's baby would have better luck; both of its parents had been immune to Captain Trips. The Zone had written off her Peter now and had pinned its collective hopes on those women who had conceived after July 1 of last year. It was brutal but completely understandable.
Her mind drifted, cruising at some low level along the border of sleep, conning the terrain of her past and the landscape of her heart. She thought about her mother's parlor where seasons passed in a dry age. She thought about Stu's eyes, about the first sight of her baby, Peter Goldsmith-Redman. She dreamed that Stu was with her, in her room.
"Fran?"
Nothing had worked out the way it should have. All of the hopes had turned out to be phony, as false as those Audioanimatronic animals at Disney World, just a bunch of clockwork, a cheat, a false dawn, a false pregnancy, a -
"Hey, Frannie."
In her dream she saw that Stu had come back. He was standing in the doorway of her room, wearing a gigantic fur parka. Another cheat. But she saw that the dream-Stu had a beard. Wasn't that funny?
She began to wonder if it was a dream when she saw Tom Cullen standing behind him. And... was that Kojak sitting at Stu's heel?
Her hand flew suddenly up to her cheek and pinched viciously, making her left eye water. Nothing changed.
"Stu?" she whispered. "Oh my God, is it Stu?"
His face was deeply tanned except for the skin around his eyes, which might have been covered by sunglasses. That was not a detail you would expect to notice in a dream -
She pinched herself again:
"It's me," Stu said, coming into the room. "Stop workin yourself over, honey." His limp was so severe he was nearly stumbling. "Frannie, I'm home."
"Stu!" she cried. "Are you real? If you're real, come here!"
He went to her then, and held her.
Chapter 77
Stu was sitting in a chair drawn up to Fran's bed when George Richardson and Dan Lathrop came in. Fran immediately seized Stu's hand and squeezed it tightly, almost painfully. Her face was set in rigid lines, and for a moment Stu saw what she would look like when she was old; for a moment she looked like Mother Abagail.
"Stu," George said. "I heard about your return. Miraculous. I can't tell you how glad I am to see you. We all are."
George shook his hand and then introduced Dan Lathrop.
Dan said, "We've heard there was an explosion in Las Vegas. You actually saw it?"
"Yes."
"People around here seem to think it was a nuclear blast. Is that true?"
"Yes."
George nodded at this, then seemed to dismiss it and turned to Fran.
"How are you feeling?"
"All right. Glad to have my man back. What about the baby?"
"Actually," Lathrop said, "that's what we're here about."
Fran nodded. "Dead?"
George and Dan exchanged a glance. "Frannie, I want you to listen carefully and try not to misunderstand anything I say - "
Lightly, with suppressed hysteria, Fran said: "If he's dead, just tell me!"
"Fran," Stu said.
"Peter seems to be recovering," Dan Lathrop said mildly.
There was a moment of utter shocked silence in the room. Fran, her face pale and oval below the dark chestnut mass of her hair on the pillow, looked up at Dan as if he had suddenly begun to spout some sort of lunatic doggerel. Someone - either Laurie Constable or Marcy Spruce - looked into the room and then passed on. It was a moment that Stu never forgot.
"What?" Fran whispered at last.
George said, "You mustn't get your hopes up."
"You said... recovering," Fran said. Her face was flatly stunned. Until this moment she hadn't realized how much she had resigned herself to the baby's death.
George said, "Both Dan and I saw thousands of cases during the epidemic, Fran... you notice I don't say 'treated' because I don't think either of us ever changed the course of the disease by a jot or a tittle in any patient. Fair statement, Dan?"