"I was never much on the Bible, I guess."
"My mom was. She thought it was very important that my brother Fred and I have a certain amount of religious background. She never said why. All the good it ever did me, so far as I know, was that I was always able to answer the Bible questions on 'Jeopardy.' Do you remember 'Jeopardy,' Stu?"
Smiling a little, he said: "And now here's your host, Alex Trebeck."
"That's the one. It was backward. They gave you the answer; you supplied the question. When it came to the Bible, I knew all the questions. Job was a bet between God and the Devil. The Devil said, 'Sure he worships You. He's got it soft. But if You piss in his face long enough, he'll renounce You.' So God took the wager. And God won." She smiled dully. "God always wins. God's a Boston Celtics fan, I bet."
"Maybe it is a bet," Stu said, "but it's their lives, those folks down there. And the guy inside you. What did she call him? The chap?"
"She wouldn't even promise about him," Fran said. "If she could have done that... just that... it would have been at least a little bit easier to let you go."
Stu could think of nothing to say.
"Well, it's getting on toward noon now," Fran said. "Help me pack up, Stuart."
The half-eaten lunch went back into the hamper with the tablecloth and the rest of the wine. Stu looked at the spot and thought of how there were only a few crumbs to show where their picnic had been... and the birds would get those soon enough. When he glanced up, Frannie was looking at him and crying. He went to her.
"It's all right. It's being pregnant. I'm always running at the eyes. I can't seem to help it."
"It's okay."
"Stu, make love to me."
"Here? Now?"
She nodded, then smiled a little. "It will be all right. If we watch out for the spiny things."
They spread the tablecloth again.
At the foot of Baseline Road she made him stop at what had been Ralph and Nick's house until four days ago. The entire rear of the house was blown away. The back yard was littered with debris. A shattered digital clock radio sat atop the shredded back hedge. Nearby was the sofa under which Frannie had been pinned. There was a patch of dried blood on the back steps. She looked at this fixedly.
"Is that Nick's blood?" she asked him. "Could it be?"
"Frannie, what's the point?" Stu asked uneasily.
"Is it?"
"Jesus, I don't know. It could be, I suppose."
"Put your hand on it, Stu."
"Frannie, have you gone nuts?"
The frown-line creased her brow, the I-want line that he had first noticed back in New Hampshire.
"Put your hand on it!"
Reluctantly, Stu put his hand on the stain. He didn't know if it was Nick's blood or not (and believed, in fact, that it probably wasn't), but the gesture gave him a ghastly, crawly feeling.
"Now swear you'll come back."
The step seemed rather too warm here, and he wanted to take his hand away.
"Fran, how can I - "
"God can't run all of it!" she hissed at him. "Not all of it. Swear, Stu, swear it!"
"Frannie, I swear to try."
"I guess that will have to be good enough, won't it?"
"We have to get down to Larry's."
"I know." But she held him more tightly still. "Say you love me."
"You know I do."
"I know, but say it. I want to hear it."
He took her by the shoulder. "Fran, I love you."
"Thank you," she said, and put her cheek against his shoulder. "Now I think I can say goodbye. I think I can let you go."
They held each other in the shattered back yard.
BOOK II ON THE BOARDER Chapter 60
She and Lucy watched the undramatic start of their quest from the steps of Larry's house. The four of them stood there on the sidewalk for a moment, no packs, no bedrolls, no special equipment... as per instructions. They had all changed into heavy walking shoes.
"'Bye, Larry," Lucy said. Her face was shiny pale.
"Remember, Stuart," Fran said. "Remember what you swore."
"Yes. I'll remember."
Glen put his fingers into his mouth and whistled. Kojak, who had been investigating a sewer grating, came running.
"Let's go then," Larry said. His face was as pale as Lucy's, his eyes unusually bright, almost glittery. "Before I lose my nerve."
Stu blew a kiss through his closed fist, something he could not remember doing since the days when his mother saw him off on the school bus. Fran waved back. The tears were coming again, hot and burning, but she did not let them fall. They began. They simply walked away. They were halfway down the block now, and somewhere a bird sang. The midday sun was warm and undramatic. They reached the end of the block. Stu turned and waved again. Larry also waved. Fran and Lucy waved back. They crossed the street. They were gone. Lucy looked almost sick with loss and fear.
"Dear God," she said.
"Let's go in," Fran said. "I want tea."