I force myself to push open the door and step inside, not even sure if she’s trailing behind me. When I turn around, she’s standing in my living room. I want her to stay; I want those smiles and that maniacal laugh and her cheesy jokes. But I don’t want this feeling that will return full force when she leaves again. I can only do this once, so for all intents and purposes, I’m going to do it right.
“What do you want, Allison?”
She hesitates, looking around the room to stall. I turn back around and begin to make my way to the bedroom. “Let yourself out.”
“Wait,” she calls out. “I just…please, Justice. I can’t leave things like this.”
I face her with a huff, my annoyance as palpable as the friction hanging between us. “Like what?”
“I know I hurt you and-”
“I’m not hurt.”
“Oh.” She looks surprised, like she expected to have wounded me. Like she just knew that she was that f*cking important to my happiness. She nods as if she’s just realizing that she isn’t. Not even close. “Well, I know I shouldn’t have led you on to believe we…that there could be more than friendship between us.”
I take a step toward her, a mocking smirk on my lips. “Is that what you thought it was?”
“What do you mean?” she frowns.
“What—you thought I was your friend? You thought I actually liked you? That I wanted us to grow into something more?” I laugh sardonically, the sound harsh and too loud even to my own ears. “Allison, you are a client. An obligation. Not my friend. I don’t have friends, and if I did, I surely wouldn’t seek one in you.”
“What?”
I move in fast, anger and aggravation guiding each step, until I’m a meager inch from her face. Fear sparks those turquoise eyes and she gasps in surprise, those soft, sweet lips trembling. I imagine biting them, sucking them into my mouth and tasting that trepidation.
“Did I f*cking stutter? You’re not my friend, and you never will be. Are you friends with your maids? Your driver? The person that walks your rat of a f*cking dog and picks up its shit? You paid me for a service, and I provided it. End of story.”
She finally finds the good sense to take a step back, disgust etched in that beautifully blemished face. “Why are you acting like this? How can you say that we were never friends, Justice? I told you things. Personal things. And you acted like you genuinely cared. You were so attentive and nice-”
“Nice? Nice?” I shout, the sound piercing my cranium. The pain is nothing compared to the ache spreading in that cold, hollow space in my chest. The space the sun no longer touches. “I’m not f*cking nice, Ally. Ain’t shit nice about me.”
She squints like she’s just now seeing me for the very first time. “So it seems.”
“Good.” I turn back around, expecting to feel triumphant. Yet, that empty ache just keeps spreading until it’s in my throat, choking me. I can barely breathe, but I can’t let her see that. I can’t show her what she’s done to me… what she’s doing to me now. “You can leave,” I croak, through the pressure on my vocal cords.
I stand stock-still until I hear the click of the door behind me. I exhale, releasing a sound that’s too broken and ragged to have possibly come from me. I don’t feel like myself. I feel like an imposter has crawled its way into my body, sheathed my skin, and controlled my bones like shifting gears. He said those things to Ally, not me. Yet I’m the one left with the fallout.
The pressure in my chest and throat rage on like rising bile, and I work to strip off my clothing, desperate to wash away the remains of her on my body. The water in the shower is hot, but I don’t feel it. I don’t feel anything, yet everything all at once, emotion and sensation overwhelming me to the point of numbing pain. It’s all too much to digest, all too much to keep perfectly contained under my cloak of detachment. I’m failing at the one thing I’ve always done so well—not giving a f*ck.
I taste salt in the water that sprays over my face, as another broken sound heaves from my throat. I lean up against the shower wall to prepare to be sick, although the discord isn’t in my stomach. I slam my fist against the slickened tile and choke out a frustrated curse. I need relief. I’m breaking from the inside out, and if I don’t purge this sickness from my body, it’ll consume me like a cancer.
I run my fingers over my length and watch through blurry eyes as it awakens at my command. It hardens almost instantly, and I exhale with relief at the first stroke of my hand. It feels good, almost good enough to eclipse the pressure in other regions of my body. Eager to chase that feeling, I cup my heavy balls with my other hand and a deep, throaty moan escapes me. I close my eyes and give myself over to pleasure and nothing else.
My strokes grow urgent and desperate, and I pant loudly with painful exertion. I feel relief closing in, shooting from the base of my spine and infecting my muscles with white heat. Sensation prickles my thighs and crawls its way to my groin. It sinks into my balls and tightens into a hot, throbbing knot, stealing every ounce of strength from my body in preparation for release.
Just a couple more strokes and I’ll be free. I’ll be emancipated from whatever bullshit feelings I ever had for Ally. Everything we had will soon be washed away down the drain until it’s dissolved into nothing.
If I hadn’t been so consumed with the feel of my hand squeezing this affliction from my cock, I would have known I wasn’t alone. I would have at least sensed movement on the other side of the shower door. I would have felt those cerulean eyes on me, my most vulnerable moments on display through the frosted glass. And I would have anticipated the cool air hitting my bare back as the door slides open behind me.
I BITE BACK the groan on my tongue and open my swollen eyes, but I don’t turn around to face my intruder. I know she’s there, but I can’t let her see me like this—eyes reddened with tears and dick hard and throbbing in my hand. She already sees me as a savage—someone to corrupt her perfect, little existence and replace it with something wild and deviant. Maybe I am. Maybe I really am the villain in this. It wouldn’t be the first time.
The door slides closed, and I sigh with relief and exasperation. She’s seen what she needs to see. She’ll go back to Evan, realizing that her place was with him the entire time. And me… I was just a placeholder.
Warm hands wrap around my waist, and I flinch at the unexpected feel of soft skin, such a contrast from my own. I look down at her delicate hands on my stomach as Ally runs her fingers over my abs. I want to ask her what she’s doing, but I’m too afraid she’ll stop. I just want her to touch me, even if it is a lie.
Her hands sink further, and I jerk when she wraps a palm around my still-hardened length, swollen from lingering on the brink of release. “Ally,” I groan through a sob. I can’t tell if it’s out of pleasure or pain.
“Shhh,” she whispers, her lips on my skin. “Just let me do this. Please.”
She kisses my back as her hand slowly strokes my dick. It pulses wildly under her fingertips, excitement and anticipation running through the rigid veins. Her fingers caress the tip before she twists her wrist and takes it all into her hand, squeezing with perfect pressure. With the warmth of her skin gripping my blistering heat, the slickness of the hot water, and her lips trailing kisses on my back, I’m drowning in sensation.
She feels so good here, touching me, exploring the most intimate parts of me. With her hand still f*cking me, her other reaches around to cup my balls. She twists her hand around my dick with each stroke, and then gently pulls with the other. Stroke, pull, stroke, pull. It’s not painful, but the mix of sensations is driving me insane. The rotating grip of her hand on my dick makes me want to come, spurting my seed all over the shower wall. Yet, the gentle pulling at my base forces me to hold back, prolonging the intense pleasure.
I’m f*cking astounded.
The need to touch her, to kiss her, becomes overwhelming, and I reluctantly turn around to face her. I watch those eyes grow wide with wonder as she takes in my naked body, my dick standing tall and proud. It brushes the middle of her belly, still covered by her dress, now soaked completely through. It clings to her wet body like a second skin, and her auburn hair sticks haphazardly to her face and neck.
“Justice…” she whispers, her gaze taking in every inch of my frame. Her lips tremble, either from fear or from being wet and cold. “You’re…you’re beautiful.”
I wrap her in my arms, and the moment my lips touch hers, I feel revived. I hadn’t breathed since she walked away from me the night before. I didn’t know I was a dying man until I had her life on me– in me –tasting of hope and forgiveness. She winds her arms around my neck, and my hands make work of stripping off her soaked clothing, eager to feel her skin slipping against mine. I push her up against the shower wall and pull away just long enough to whip her dress over her head. Her bra is next, and the tiny scrap of lace that is her panties, quickly follows.
I know I should go slow and take my time with her; I may not get another chance to kiss an angel again. But with the taste of Ally on my tongue, and her soft, smooth skin pressed against mine, sharing my heat, I can’t even think about stopping now.
Reading my mind, she wraps her leg around my thigh, and we’re right back to where we were nearly 24 hours ago—me between her legs and her ankles locked at my waist. Yet without the barrier of our clothes, my dick slides right against her soft slit. All I have to do is bend my knees a bit and thrust, and I’ll be inside her.
As badly as I want to be buried balls deep within her walls, I want to make this last. I want Ally to remember this moment forever, even if it is a fluke. Even if I never touch heaven again. I want her to remember that I commanded her body like no one else, and gave her what she craves. What she’s never been given before.
With her riding my waist, I suck a pebbled nipple into my mouth, while plucking the other with my fingers. Ally gasps loudly and digs her short fingernails into my shoulders. My other hand holds her up by her bare ass, and I let it slip down further, finding her wet entrance. With my dick rubbing rhythmically against her *, I insert the tip of a finger inside her p-ssy, causing her to cry out. She’s tight, yet I feel her throbbing, begging for me. I push in further and begin to finger-f*ck her slowly, still teasing her * with my cock while laving her breasts with my tongue.
I’m an excellent multi-tasker.
When I push in a second finger, I feel her walls quiver, approaching orgasm. She pants wildly, moaning, scratching at my hair and shoulders. I pick up the pace of my hips and fingers, and suck and nibble her nipples even harder.
“Wait, wait, oh God,” she whines.
“What?” I answer against her puckered nipple. I slow down, but I don’t stop. I couldn’t stop even if I tried.
“Something’s wrong with me. I feel weird. Oh…no…it’s too strong…oh.”
I resume my rhythm and smile slyly against her heated skin. “Nothing’s wrong. You’re coming, baby. You’re coming for me.”
I press the tip of my dick directly on her * and hold it, and her snug p-ssy pulses out of control. With a strangled cry, Ally’s body goes rigid, before a flood of her wetness completely drenches my fingers and collects in my palm. I ride out the waves of her orgasm, easing the friction on her * and letting my mouth trail up to hers to kiss her deeply, swallowing her little mewls of pleasure.
She pulls her lips from mine, her face flush and eyes sleepy. “I saw colors. So many colors popping, glittering my sky.” Ally smiles, and light touches every cold, empty space within me. “Fireworks.”
I slip my fingers from her still-shivering sex and put them in my mouth, savoring her taste before the water can wash it away. “I’m not done with you yet.”
With her still in my arms, I turn off the water and slide open the shower door. She squeals and laughs when the cold air hits us, burying her wet face into the crook of my neck. I laugh right along with her as I awkwardly make my way into the bedroom, dick still rock hard, and her tight frame wrapped around me like a spider monkey. We flop onto the bed, dripping wet, and I pull the covers over us as I nestle between her thighs.
“Justice, I just want to say I’m-”
I place a finger over her lips before she can finish. “Shhhh. Don’t. It’s me who should apologize. But not now. I don’t want to think about anything else but this. Nothing else but your body and what I plan to do to it for the rest of the night.”
She kisses my finger and grasps my hand to slide the tip of the digit between her lips, nipping at it playfully. “Do your worst, Drake.”
I kiss her deeply, consuming every bit of her mouth. She wraps her arms and legs around me, and my dick slips between her folds, my swollen head nudging her wet slit. I rock my hips back and forth, reigniting that delicious friction from the shower, and Ally moans against my tongue.
“Oh God, put it in. Put it in, please,” she whines.
“Put what in, sweetheart?” I smirk, looking down at her hungry expression.
“It.”
“It?” I shake my head and press in a little further, my tip right at her entrance. “What’s It, Ally? If you want it, you have to say it.”
She squeezes her eyes tight, and a beautiful flush paints her cheeks. “Your cock. I want your cock in me. Please.”
Gritting my teeth, I drive into her—probably harder and faster than I should have—but shit, I’m as anxious as she is. Ally’s eyes pop open with shock and her lips round into an O. A strangled cry gets stuck in the back of her throat.
“This?” I pant, the feeling of her tight body enveloping mine almost too much take. “Is this what you were referring to?”
She nods her head frantically, trying to swallow a whine. “Yes. Yes. Now shut up…and f*ck me.”
The words ring in my head like a sweet melody, as if Ally’s just opened Pandora’s box and unleashed every lustful desire within me. I pull out to the tip and push back into her, feeling the tightness quiver and stretch for me.
God, she feels good. Too good. So good that every nerve ending within me is flashing bright red, signaling me to stop. I pull out quickly, before the feel of her dissolves every ounce of common sense I have left.
“What?” she rasps, an almost pained look on her face.
“F*ck,” I grit in frustration. I reach over to the nightstand and retrieve a condom from the top drawer. Ally’s eyes grow large at the sight of the little shiny package.
“Oh,” she whispers, trying to look at anything but me, as I tear it open.
“Yeah.” I slip out the latex and position it over the head of my dick, still glistening with her sweetness.
“Wait.” Ally’s hand is over mine, pulling the condom away. “Wait. You don’t have to… you don’t have to use it. I trust you. And I hope…I hope you trust me too.”
I sit back on my heels so I can assess her face clearly. “I do. I trust you, but…” F*ck. How do I say that it’s Evan that I don’t trust? That I shouldn’t do this because of his sketchy-ass habits?
“We always use condoms,” she says, reading my mind. “Always. I don’t trust him. But…Justice, I trust you.”
I toss the condom aside, not giving a f*ck where it lands, and lie back over Ally’s body, hungrily sucking her tongue, while I slowly push my cock into her. She hums her appreciation, smiling against my lips, as I rock my pelvis upwards, ensuring that I graze that sweet spot. She works her own hips with mine, meeting me thrust for thrust, sucking me deeper into her.
Why is she here? I wonder to myself as I slide my hand under her ass, leveling it so she can take all of me.
I mean, I’m glad as f*ck that she came, but Ally has no business being here at Oasis. There’s nothing wrong with her. Not a goddamn thing. The way she moans and mewls, while kneading and scratching my back; the way her soft thighs squeeze my waist, telling me to go deeper; the way her body moves perfectly with mine, as if we were made to do this. As if it was specifically designed to meld with mine… Ally doesn’t need any help on how to be a good lover. She already is. She’s already more than I could ever hope for. And part of me always knew she would be.
Fire licks up my thighs and ignites embers at the base of my balls, and I know that all sense of control will be relinquished inside her walls soon enough. Her p-ssy begins to quiver, coaxing that ball of fire from me. I feel her getting wetter for me, ready to extinguish my fire with her own flood of surrender.
One hand under her ass, and the other reaching down to rub her *, I pick up the pace of my thrusts, eager to drown in her warm waters. Ally cries in ecstasy, and her fingers find her breasts where she begins to squeeze and pinch. I lean over and suck a hardened nipple into my mouth, then lick the other as Ally presses them together, offering them to my tongue and teeth.
I f*ck her entire body, submerging her in sensation. She’s hoarse from moaning, screaming my name. Chanting how good I f*cking feel. How deep I am. How she wants me to keep going and never stop. Never, ever f*cking stop or I-will-f*cking-die-please-oh-please-don’t-stop.
Her back arches off the bed until only her shoulders remain on the mattress, and I feel her explode from the inside out. Her eyes are shut tight and her mouth is open, but no sound comes out.
“Yeah, that’s right baby,” I say gruffly, still pushing inside her. “Keep going. Keep coming for me.”
She’s gorgeous. Savagely beautiful. I just want to watch her fall apart over and over again until she’s too numb to move. But watching her so vulnerable and wild while her insides tremble around my dick, has my own orgasm seizing my spine. I want to slow my thrusts, but it’s already too late. My back is tight, and my fingers are gripping her hips, driving into her one last time. I crawl as deep inside Ally as I possibly can, singeing her womb with my hot seed. Marking her p-ssy so there’s no denying that, not only have I been here, I possessed it.
I collapse on top of her, exhaustion covering me like a heavy cloak. Only my shaky elbows keep me from crushing her petite frame.
“What lesson was that?” she asks, a sleepy grin on her lips. I kiss them, tasting the sun.
“No lesson, baby. Something that damn incredible can’t be taught.”
“COKE OR PEPSI?”
“Coke.”
“Pepperoni or Sausage?”
“Pepperoni.”
“Action movies or comedy?”
“Is there a point to this?”
“We should talk. I like getting to know you. So answer the question, Secret Squirrel.”
“Action. Now shut up so I can feed you.”
I slide the cold spoon between her lips, and she licks it clean of every bit of ice cream. “Mmmmm. Figures you’d pick Action.”
I steal a bite for myself, the icy treat tasting even better after working Ally’s body like her own erotic personal trainer. “Why’s that?”
She props her elbow up on the pillow and turns her naked body towards mine. My eyes zero in on her perfect breasts lolling to one side and resting on my shoulder. “Well, considering you have the name of a superhero and all…”
“Superhero?”
“Never fear! Justice Drake is here!” she announces in a corny timber, pumping her fist in the air. “Ready to slay the villains of Scottsdale with double-headed dongs and acid lube lasers!”
We both laugh until tears form at the creases of our eyes. Until snickers taper off into soft mewls and touches. Then we’re chest-to-chest, skin-to-skin, and I’m devouring her mouth, the ice cream forgotten. Ally parts her thighs for me, and I roll my body on top of hers, cradling her face so I can kiss her deeper.
“I’m never going to get used to this, am I?” she remarks, as I gently suck the skin under her chin.
“Do you want to?” I ask, before licking a trail from her neck to the space between her breasts.
“No. I want this excitement, this newness and fun…I want it to always be like this.”
Can it?
The question is right there on my tongue, but I smother it with Ally’s puckered nipple, making her moan my name. All the questions and consequences will have to wait. None of it matters when she’s in my arms. And I don’t even know how long that can last.
“Hey,” she says, letting her fingers slide up the back of my neck to grab a handful of my hair. “You’re trying to distract me from the task at hand.”
I let my palm drift over her stomach until it’s cupping her swollen mound. “I thought this was the task at hand.”
“Ooooh, good point.”
I flick her * gently, knowing that she’s still sore and sensitive, while I scoot my body down further to position her thighs on my shoulders. When I replace my fingers with my tongue, Ally makes a garbled sound that resembles a cursed growl.
“What’s that, babe?” I ask, her * on my lips. I take it between my teeth, just barely nipping it. “I couldn’t hear you.”
“F*ck you,” she whispers through a moan.
I suck her flesh harder before flicking my tongue over it to ease the sting. “Oh, such a filthy mouth, Allison. Maybe I should fill it with something so you can’t say such naughty things to me.”
She gasps, as I insert a finger into her and resume licking her *. “Don’t you dare stop. Unless you want your head to be permanently dented from my thighs squeezing it like a walnut.”
“But I thought you wanted to talk, baby?” I insert another finger and f*ck her with them hard and fast for only a few seconds before removing them. “I shouldn’t do this. We should talk.”
“If you stop what you’re doing, Justice Drake, so help me God, I will tie you to this bed and go all Misery on your ass!”
I laugh, letting the vibrations transfer from my mouth and tickle her sensitive flesh. I enhance the feeling by inserting my index finger, and licking her in slow, lazy circles. “Ok,” I say, kissing her soft folds. “You talk. I’ll lick.”
“You really expect me to be able to form actual words? Sentences? That make sense?”
“Do you want me to finger-f*ck you and suck your * until you come so hard in my mouth that you pass out?”
Her eyes grow wide with delight. “Yes please.”
“Then talk to me, baby.”
I devour her sex like it’s my last meal before a beautiful death, savoring her sweet-salty flavor. I’m so hungry for her; I feel like I haven’t eaten in weeks and only Ally can sate my need. Her knees shake against my ears, and I remove my fingers to grip her thighs, opening her wider for me. Then with a maddening rhythm, I alternate sucking her * and f*cking her with my tongue. I want to taste every bit of Ally. And when she comes, not a drop will spill over onto the sheets.
“Talk,” I command, when she’s too overcome with pleasure to utter a coherent word.
“God! Oh, you…oh, God.”
“That’s flattering, but call me Justice.” Suck. Lick. Stick.
“Justice.” She’s so breathless, my name sounds like a soft breeze. “Justice. You son of a bitch. How dare you…how dare you do this to me.”
“Do what, baby?” Suck. Lick. Stick.
“This. All…this. Now I know…I know what I was missing. And I can’t…I can’t be without it. I can never go back.”
My rhythm falters, and I groan against her quivering flesh, trying to bury myself in it. What does she mean by that? Never go back? Does she want to stay with me and leave Evan? Is that even an option for her?
But mostly, shit… Is that even an option for me?
I know I want her body more than I want my next breath. And I know that meeting her, basking in her smiles and wanting her on me like a second skin has forever changed me. But can there ever be more? Can I spend every night counting her freckles, like I once counted the stars? Can I replace my sunrise with the vision of her sleeping beside me, fiery hair, wild and tangled all over her face? Can I swim in those too-big turquoise eyes and drown myself in her laughter every night?
I think the bigger question is, How can I not?
There’s no doubt that I want to be with Ally. I knew it the day I knocked on the door to her suite. It wasn’t those walls closing in on me; it was fate. And if Ally is my fate, losing her—being without every quirk that makes her so uniquely flawless—will be fatal to me. And that’s what terrifies me more than I could ever admit.
So if all we have is now, I’m going to make her remember. I’m going to become a permanent stain on her body that she’ll never be able to wash away. And when she closes her eyes and squeezes her thighs together, I’m going to ensure that she’s imagining me here. Like this. Setting off fireworks within her slick, sweltering heat, like the 4th of July.
Ally cries out with her release, cursing me and praising my name, as she crumbles in my hands. And, just as I promised, I suck and lap up every drop of wetness seeping from her pulsing sex, prolonging the violent waves of climax. She begs me to stop, but I don’t. She only thinks she’s dying right now, as I lick the stray droplets running down her ass. Little does she know, that I claimed her life the moment she broke inside my palm against the shower wall.
That was the very second she became mine, no matter whose last name she bears. And every time she came thereafter, I was just marking myself deeper and deeper into her skin like a tattoo. Carving out a space that would only be for me.
Justice + Ally.
“CALL IN SICK tomorrow.”
I grin sleepily and kiss her forehead. “It’s already tomorrow.”
“Then call in sick today.”
“I never call in sick, even if I’m sick.”
“Please? I don’t know…I don’t know how long I can have you like this. I’m not ready to let it go.”
I squeeze her body into mine, and breathe her in. I just want to memorize this moment. Her scent, her taste, her softness. I want it burned into my mind like a tumor, growing and influencing every thought and action.
Ally kisses my bare chest, her lips so warm and delicate, like the brush of a feather. “Please?”
One arm still tucked under her body, I reach over to grab my phone. “There,” I say after tapping out a text to Diane. “I’m sick today. So sick. I wonder if someone will nurse me back to health.”
I feel Ally smile against my nipple. “Are you asking me to play Naughty Nurse, Mr. Drake?”
“I don’t know. Are you down for some sexual healing?”
She kisses me again. “Most definitely. But later, ok? I really do want to talk to you.”
I roll my body towards her and position my arm, so she can rest her head on my bicep. “About what?”
“About…” Her gaze goes glassy and distant. “Next.”
“Next?”
“What’s next?”
I swallow and take a few breaths to collect my thoughts. I can’t ask this woman to leave her husband. I can’t tell her to ruin her lavish lifestyle in exchange for one of refuge and isolation. This isn’t what she knows. Financially, I could give Ally whatever she wants, but socially? She’d be like me. An outcast. A fallen star that once shined brighter than a million diamonds.
I can’t be certain a life with me would be enough for her. I can’t be certain that even I would be enough for her.
“What do you want to be next, Ally?” I hold my breath.
Her eyes sweep over my lips, my chin, my neck then back up to my face. “I don’t know. The future is scary. I just know that I’ve never felt this way before. I’ve never been so out of control and reckless and totally wrapped up in a person...ever. But then again, what if all this is just a temporary high? What if the taboo of it all is what’s driving us together?”
I brush her cheek, just so I can keep touching her. I need to remind myself that she’s here. Here with me. Not him. “Is that what you think this could be?”
“Honestly? No. But I’ve been wrong before. And that’s cost me my freedom. Walking away without repercussion isn’t an option for me. My life would come crashing down.”
I stay silent, because anything I could say would just be static. She’s right. She can’t just walk away. No matter what Evan does to her, no matter what he does with his little weasel prick, Ally has to play her role. The supportive, loving wife. Strong, resilient and tolerant. A perfect picture of grace and elegance.
“Justice?”
I smile through the infection of my thoughts, feeling them seep into my conscience. “Yeah?”
“Do you want me to walk away? Do you want me to leave him?”
My lips part, the answer burning my tongue. I swallow it down before answering. “I want you to do what makes you happy.”
She kisses my lips in response before nestling into my chest like a sleepy cat. My lips are in her hair, and I wrap both arms around her body, refusing to let her go.
I could make Ally happy. I could fill that void that’d be left from being extricated from the upper crust. But then what? What would that mean for my business? My reputation? Would I be exposing myself and reigniting the witch hunt that led me out to my lonely desert years ago?
I feel her breaths growing deeper and heavier, so I let my own tired eyes slip closed. “Please don’t leave me, angel,” I whisper, somewhere on the edges of sleep and the most beautiful dream. “I don’t want to be in the dark anymore.”
DRESSED ONLY IN soft, flannel pants, I pad out to the kitchen, led by the scents of bacon, eggs and toast. And coffee. Oh, sweet, wonderful coffee.
A hot breakfast and fresh coffee would be enough to make most men salivate, but the sight of Ally fluttering around in one of my prep school sweatshirts and nothing else, with a messy bun on top of her head, is just downright delectable. The thick, grey cotton is about five sizes too big for her and slips over a bare shoulder, exposing the top of her breast. I waste no time making my way over to cover that delicious patch of skin with my mouth.
“Good morning,” she smiles, her attention on the pan of fluffy, scrambled eggs on the stove.
“Morning. You weren’t there when I woke up.”
“I was sticky and hot, so I needed to shower. Plus, I was too hungry to sleep. We only had ice cream for dinner.” She turns her head and gives me a soft kiss.
“Speak for yourself. I ate more than that.”
A blush paints her cheeks, and I can’t resist kissing the one closest to me, feeling her skin heat under my lips. Soon, they’re trailing down her neck and to the sensitive area under her ear.
“Hey!” she squeals. “Some of us are working with scalding hot food here! Go sit down; your breakfast is just about ready. And your coffee’s on the counter.”
I give her bare ass a pinch before doing as I’m told.
“Oh, today’s paper was on the counter when I came out here. I hope whoever brought it in didn’t peek in on us. Holy shit, could you imagine?”
“Nah. My people aren’t like that,” I say sipping my brew. I push aside the Arizona Republic and pick up the New York Post, thankful that it’s still neatly folded. Ally didn’t read it.
I stop at the top story on Page Six, and blind rage has me seeing red. I can clearly read the headline—see his fake, solemn mug looking pathetic as f*ck—but I can’t digest it. I can’t accept it. It’s a myth, a lie, like the f*cking Easter Bunny or Santa Clause.
I read the story again, dissecting every word. It’s bullshit. It’s all bullshit. Evan was reeled in by his equally f*cked up father, and was basically spoon-fed those manufactured lines of regret. He probably had the same song and dance memorized, considering he’s spewed the same rubbish more than once.
“Hey, can I get that after you’re done?” Ally asks, startling me from my murderous thoughts.
I look down at the paper in front of me. Evan looks so distraught, so remorseful. He looks exactly like a loving husband would when he’s missing his other half. “Sure,” I nod. Then, most unfortunately, the mug in my hand, the one I’m tipping to my lips, suddenly slips from my fingers, and drowns those blasphemous pages with hot coffee.
“Shit!” I hiss, jumping off my stool before the scalding liquid can hit my bare skin. I grab some napkins and sop up the mess, folding the ruined papers into a ball. Ally rushes over with a dishtowel just seconds after Evan’s face is marred beyond recognition.
“It’s ok,” she says, drying the countertop while I discard the mess. “I’ll get you another cup.”
“No,” I reply, coming up behind her. I kiss her neck, while my hands snake up the oversized sweatshirt that stops at the middle of her thighs. “You sit. I’ll take care of the rest.”
Evan may play a doting husband in front of the cameras, but I’m the one putting cream and sugar in Ally’s coffee. I’m the one serving her breakfast, even feeding it to her while her smooth, bare legs rest in my lap. And I’ll be the one spreading her body out on my kitchen breakfast bar and covering her swollen sex with mouth while she chants my name like a prayer.
Ally may be Evan’s by law, but she’s mine by nature. And in a battle between lions, no one gives a f*ck about what’s lawful. It’s all brute strength, cunning and instinct. Three things I’ve utilized my entire life to survive.
WE’RE SITTING ON the couch, kissing like horny teenagers, while the TV plays in the background. Ally insisted she borrow a pair of boxers before sitting down, although I was more than happy to let her scent permeate the butter-soft leather.
“So what do you want to do?” she asks, straddling my lap.
I nudge my hips forward so that the hardened bulge under my thin pants presses against her mound. “I can come up with a few things.”
She rolls her eyes and purses her lips, stifling a smile. “I’m sure you could. But seriously. Let’s do something fun.”
“Like what?”
Ally reaches over to grab my phone, and I nearly jump out of my skin. However, she doesn’t slide the unlock icon, and instead pulls up the camera.
“Smile,” she says, taking the picture before I can react.
I grab her by the hips and tip my head to the side. “What are you doing?”
“Taking home a souvenir. I’m going to send these pics to myself. Come on, give me something I can work with.” The whir of the camera sounds three more times as she takes shots of my face, chest and abs.
“Mmmm, very nice. This’ll do nicely in my spank bank.” I snatch the phone away before she can get another candid shot of me, causing her to protest. “Hey! I wasn’t done yet!”
“My turn for a souvenir,” I reply, turning the camera on her. She instantly covers her face with her hands.
“Are you crazy? That’s exactly what I don’t need. Half-nakey pics of the sullied socialite while she vacations alone with an unknown man. The tabloids will spin it to make it look like I was spread eagle on the couch, sucking a cherry red lollipop while making a sex tape.”
“Now that’s an idea,” I smirk, the visual in my head making my mouth water.
“I am not pulling a Kim Kardashian, Drake. So hand it over.”
I snap a pic of her lips pressed in a hard line and her hand extended. “Ally, these are only for me. For my pleasure. I’d kill someone before I share these photos. I just want to be able to look at you…always. If I can’t keep you, at least let me have this.”
Her gaze falls to her knotted fingers resting against my stomach, and she sucks in her bottom lip. “Ok.” Her eyes find mine, and she gives me a solemn smile. “Ok, you can have this.”
I capture images of her looking at me through those sad, peculiar eyes. A wisp of red unravels from her bun, and I take the opportunity to snap a photo of her tucking it behind her ear, her gaze far away and thoughtful.
“What are you thinking about?” I ask, studying her through the lens.
“How I can’t remember ever having this much fun. And being this happy. And how I’m terrified of what the future holds.”
Tears collect along the rims of her eyes, and I stroke her cheek, forcing her to look at me. “Don’t think about that right now. Let’s just keep having fun and being free. Let’s be happy together for now and not think about tomorrow.”
I kiss her hungrily, snapping an erotic selfie of the moment. In another place, at another time, it’d be my Homescreen. And Ally…Ally would be the first number on my Favorites contact list. And when she would call me to tell me about her day, or relay a funny story, or just to say that she’ll be coming home to me soon, her infectious, smiling face would light up the screen, those cyan eyes sparkling like the brightest, boldest stars in the sky.
She pulls away just enough to bring her body into the frame, a mischievous smile on her lips. The naughty little minx is back, and I have every intention of capturing her and never letting her go.
“Take your shirt off,” I command, my eyes fixed on the screen displaying her blush.
“What?”
“Your shirt. Lose it. I need a little something for my spank bank too.”
She tugs at the hem of the sweatshirt, revealing just a peek of skin. “I swear to God, Justice, if you show anybody-”
“Trust me, Ally. You trust me. Remember?”
“Yeah,” she nods. “I do.” And with that, the sweatshirt slides over her torso and is on the floor, her beautiful breasts just inches from my hungry mouth.
Ally covers her chest with her hands and looks away. “I look ridiculous, don’t I? You’re used to Big Boobs McGee shaking her Double Ds in your face. And here I am…the rack of a twelve year old. I’m practically a husky boy with moobs.”
The camera whirs again, before I lower it, so Ally can see the seriousness etched on my face. “Please don’t ruin this for me by comparing yourself to a boy. Or any adolescent for that matter. What did I teach you, Ally? Sex appeal isn’t about having big tits or a round ass. It’s not about your dress size or even how skimpy your clothing is. It starts inside here.” I graze her temple gently, and Ally shivers under my touch. Then I trail my fingers to her chest, prying her fingers from her breasts. “And here,” I say, splaying my hand over her heart. “Here, Ally. If you feel sexy, you’ll be sexy. If you believe it, so will I.”
When her hands are balled at her sides, I resume my intensive study of her body. I zoom in on the cluster of freckles on her nose, and the tiny mole on her left breast. The heart shape of her lips, the bottom one just a fraction bigger than the top, giving her a permanent pout. The way her waist appears so small and narrow, yet solid enough that I’m not afraid of breaking her when I’m inside of her to the root.
Ally is art. She may appear simple and understated to the untrained eye, but to me, she’s a rare, exotic piece that should be cherished and appreciated.
“Lift your chin,” I instruct, recording the image of her slender neck.
“I better not see Mary Kate and Ashley on the internet, buddy.”
“Mary Kate and Ashley?”
“Yeah. My girls,” she says gesturing between her breasts. “Small, maybe a little sad, but cute.”
I lean over and cover her left one with my mouth. “Who is this?”
“Ooooh. That’s Mary Kate. She’s the smaller, perky one.”
I move my tongue to the right one, flicking the nipple before sucking it entirely into my mouth. “So this one must be Ashley.”
“Yeah,” she answers with a gasp. “Which one do you like best?”
I toss my phone aside, and it tumbles from the couch with a clatter. I don’t even care. Not when both of her breasts are in my hands, pressed together so both nipples stand erect to me. “I don’t know. I need to taste them both.”
Ally’s eyes flutter closed as I thoroughly suck and bite the pebbled skin, careful to shower each one with equal attention. She moans my name and rocks her hips, running her cotton-sheathed sex over my bulging erection. I can almost feel the small wet spot saturating her borrowed boxers, through my pajama pants.
“I need to be inside of you,” I say against her heated skin. “Right now, baby. I need to fill you right now.”
I lift her off my lap so she can kick off the boxer shorts, and I quickly do the same with my flannel pants. Then she’s straddling my lap, the tip of my dick at her entrance. We both suck in a breath at the sight of it –our bodies joined together, pulses racing inside our most intimate parts. Hearts beating together in perfect harmony. I grip her under her ass and thighs to guide her descent.
“Slow, baby. Look at me while I fill you one inch at a time.”
Ally’s glazed eyes touch mine, lust shining bright and wild within them. I ease her down just a bit, just enough so that my head is nestled inside her, and watch the emotions play out on her face. Surprise. Pain. Complete and utter ecstasy.
“More?” I ask.
Ally nods, struggling to keep her eyes open and trained on me. “Yes. More.”
One more hard, glorious inch. Her walls contract and expand, but she’s still tight and a little swollen from last night. Even dripping wet, I feel her walls squeezing me like a vice grip.
“God, baby,” I grit out, restraining myself from just driving into her. “More?”
“Yes, yes. Justice, please,” she whines.
She cries out when I give her what she craves. She begs for even more, and I can’t resist complying with her wishes.
“Oh, this is too much. Too…too…much. I can’t hold on,” she sobs.
“Just a little more, baby. Stay with me.”
I ease her down onto the last few inches, thrusting up to meet the jolting movement, and I feel Ally break apart all over my lap. Her insides suck and pull at me, and I bounce her up and down in a fast, unrelenting rhythm. Her walls keep quaking, and she rides out the never-ending orgasm, crying my name, her face buried in the crook of my neck.
“Shit,” I grit out, when my own climax clutches my spine. With her p-ssy still contracting, my release draws tight at my groin. I lift Ally off before it’s too late, and set her on shaky legs.
“Taste yourself, baby,” I pant hoarsely, holding the base of my dick. “Taste how sweet you are. Suck yourself right off me.”
Her eyes grow wide with shock and delight as she takes in the sight of me stroking my glistening wet cock. Reluctantly, she licks her lips and slides down onto her knees between my legs.
“Don’t be afraid, baby. Trust me; you’ll love it.”
Ally’s gaze flicks to mine, desire burning hot and bright. She wraps her hand around mine before slowly bringing her lips to the slick tip, and I groan loudly when I feel her pink tongue snake out and lick circles around my head.
“You like it?” I ask her, my voice thick with overwhelming need.
“Yes,” she answers breathlessly.
“Then lick it all, baby. Don’t waste a drop.”
I pulse violently as she slides my hardness between her lips and onto her tongue, until it touches the back of her throat. She takes me slowly at first, getting accustomed to the foreign feeling. Then she’s sucking me hungrily, vibrating my dick with her moans while still squeezing me at the root. I buck my hips upward, eager to meet release.
“So close. So close, baby,” I croak. “Touch yourself. Play with your * while you make me come.”
She doesn’t hesitate this time, and a hand disappears between her legs. I feel the exact moment her fingers meet her soft folds, because she sucks me harder, more enthusiastically. Seeing her so turned on by her own flavor, my cock in her mouth and her hand stroking her p-ssy, makes the heat at my core burst and expand into a glowing hot ball of liquid fire, that snakes through my body faster than I can stop it. With an agonized growl, I grudgingly pull Ally’s mouth away, just as the first spurt is purged from my body. She watches with rapt fascination as cum spills onto my tight belly, and I jerk and shiver through the category 5 climax.
“Wow,” she whispers, her lips red and swollen. I groan in response, unable to do much more.
As if I could be even more enamored by her, as if she could possibly do anything else to make the magnitude of infatuation grow any more, she leans over and licks the salty, milky trail of my surrender cooling on the rigid muscles of my abs. I cradle her face lovingly and stroke her hair, so overwhelmed with emotion in this moment, and too raw to even begin to put it into words.
It’s the ultimate act of submission, yet Ally dominates every muddled thought, every sensation coursing through my body, and every single, ragged breath in my lungs.
Soft purrs tickle the inside of my thigh while her head rests on my leg after she’s devoured every drop of me. I lift her into my arms and cradle her against my chest, both our naked bodies sticky with sweat and arousal.
“You should’ve recorded that for your spank bank,” she says, once our breaths have leveled.
“What makes you think I didn’t?”
“True. Just Photoshop some bigger boobs on me. The Olsen twins need some meat on their bones.”
“Shhhh. You’re perfect, angel,” I whisper in her hair. “Perfect just the way you are.”
IT’S FUNNY HOW you never realize how much you hate sleeping alone until you’re forced to.
There. I said it. I hate sleeping alone.
Or maybe I just hate sleeping without Ally tucked into my side, her red, disheveled mane falling into my face and smothering me in slumber. Or her drool trickling onto my chest, or her spontaneous bouts of snoring scaring the shit out of me in the middle of the night.
God. I f*cking love it.
So much so, that I couldn’t sleep a wink after she slipped out my front door, leaving me satisfied, yet still hungry for her in every way, shape and form.
“People will start to talk,” she said, sliding on her sandals. Those ugly-ass sandals. God, I f*cking love them too.
“Let them talk.”
“You’re cute,” she smiled, before touching her lips to mine. “Cute, but not careless. You know how people love to talk. And those women haven’t had a piece of juicy gossip to feast on in months.”
“F*ck them,” I answered, wrapping her in my arms, refusing to let her go.
“Mmmm.” She ran her nose from the base of my throat up to my chin. “I like it when you don’t shave. Scruff is sexy on you.”
“You’re sexy on me,” I replied, letting my hands drift down to squeeze her ass. It fit perfectly in my palms. “Stay. Don’t go.”
“You’re diabolical, Mr. Drake,” she said shaking her head. She kissed my lips and unwound my hands from her body. “Tonight, ok? I’ll come by right after dinner. I’ll even skip the panna cotta, so you better have some ice cream for me.”