“I . . .” he began, then lowered his voice so only I could hear. “I just . . .” He kept starting and stopping, moving his hands, then hooking his thumbs in his pockets. And then he exhaled a great huffing breath.
“Anna . . . the night of the summit, when you were saved, it was the only time in my life I’ve thanked God for anything.”
Those words. They would melt me over and over for all time.
I stared. He stared.
My hands went to his face, feeling his cheekbones and strong jaw. And then I gave him my heart.
“I love you, Kai.”
He closed his eyes and shivered as if a feather had been drawn down his back. My own eyes burned all over again. He didn’t say it back, but that was okay. I understood. He’d never said those words to anyone in his life, I was certain. The fact that he was here, that he’d come after me—this moment—his actions. That’s all that mattered to me.
He caught my face in his hands and whispered, “Spend the night with me.”
A warm tremor rippled down my body. All my resolve from two hours ago wavered. He waited for my response.
“Kai . . . we shouldn’t.” Even as I said it, my mind devised arguments otherwise. The Dukes and whisperers would all be at their summit meeting tonight, and terrorizing Vegas for the next day. But when it came to Kaidan and me alone together, there were other things to worry about besides demons.
“I’m tired of living like I’m not alive.” He dropped his hands from my face to grip my shoulders. “I’m bloody sick to death of it. I want one night to be alive. With you.” He closed his eyes and leaned his forehead on mine. “Please, Anna. One last night and we’ll go back to being safe again. I need this. I need you.”
God above. Was this really happening?
He lifted his head from mine.
“I’ll be good,” he promised. “I won’t let anything happen.”
Never looking away, I reached down and took his hand, entwining my fingers with his. Maybe it was stupid. It was definitely dangerous. But wild demons couldn’t have kept me from accepting. One last night.
Together.
“Let’s go,” I told him.
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
MAID SERVICE
We took turns looking at each other as he drove. I’d stare straight ahead or gaze out the passenger window, seeing his long glances in my peripheral vision. And then he’d give his attention back to the road and it would be my turn to examine his profile. My eyes were hungry for every detail: the small mole on his neck, the tiny bump in his otherwise perfect nose, the slight wave to his hair, those thick eyebrows and lashes. . . . I’d been starved of these images for too long.
“I’m surprised you still have this car,” I said at one point.
“Yeah, well. I’ve nearly traded it a few times, but . . . sentimental value and all that rubbish.”
He mumbled the last part and scratched his neck. My heart swelled at the thought that the SUV might remind him of our road trip and that’s why he’d kept it.
“I’m surprised you still wear the necklace.”
I touched the turquoise stone. “I wear it every day.”
He kept his eyes on the road and in that moment he looked peaceful.
I curled as close to him as the seats would allow, and we were quiet for the two-hour trip to Los Angeles. It was the most at ease I’d felt in ages. I didn’t think about our fight, Kope, or the other Anna. I didn’t think about whisperers. I just enjoyed this unexpected time with him.
Kaidan lived in an apartment complex that was bursting with life. His neighborhood resembled a college campus with two-story buildings surrounding a common area, and people hung out around the pool holding plastic cups.
When we parked and he turned off the ignition, a look of panic crossed his face.
“What’s wrong?” I asked.
“Er . . . I just remembered . . . the flat is sort of, well . . .” He averted his eyes. “It’s a wreck.”
“I don’t care about that. I can help you clean it.”
His eyes stretched wide. “No! I can’t have you cleaning anything. I’ll call someone to come tidy. I’ve been meaning to for ages.”
Okay, now he was just being ridiculous.
When I rolled my eyes, he said, “I had a small party before I left for Blake’s, you see.”
“I see.” Reaching for the door handle, I smiled. “Come on. Let’s go.”
Just as I was about to climb out I heard him hiss. I followed his gaze up to the top of the steps where a fauxhawked guy stood, looking pissed.
“Isn’t that Michael from your band?” I asked.
“Yes. Damn.” He pulled his phone from his pocket and clicked around, but it was dead. “Forgot to charge it at Blake’s. Sit tight a bit while I deal with him.”
I settled back in my seat and pushed my hearing out as Kaidan walked up the steps.
“Where the hell you been, man?” Michael asked. “We had practice today. That’s the second one you’ve skipped out on.”