Her gaze shifted to Laure. “Mademoiselle?”
“Non merci.” Laure bared her teeth in a terrifying grin.
“Found it!” Lizzie trilled, whipping up a lacy parasol. She skipped back to Mrs. Brown’s side and, after giving Laure and me a little curtsy, trotted from the room. Mrs. Brown followed.
Once the door was firmly shut, Laure’s lips twitched up mischievously, and she rubbed her hands together. “Mademoiselle, you ’ave scandalized her.”
“You mean by traveling alone?”
“Oui. C’est magnifique.” She snickered. “Now, if you will excuse me, I believe I will go to the promenade deck and watch us depart— without the Browns for company.” Then, with a wink, she left.
I fell back onto my bed and draped a hand over my eyes. As much as I also wanted to see our departure, it was safer to stay locked away until the Philadelphia wharf—and I hoped Marcus too—
were long gone. Once we had sailed the hundred miles of Delaware River to reach the ocean, then I would allow myself to roam the ship.
An image of the chestnut-haired young man flashed in my mind. If he could hear those dogs and feel that wind, then perhaps he would know what was happening. Perhaps he could explain. Or—if he was as lost as I—we could try to muddle through it together.
And since he was somewhere on this ship and we were stuck here for well over a week, I had every intention of finding him—and finding out what he knew.
Hours later, I found myself curled into a ball on my bed. After an evening of rocking, I was so queasy, I couldn’t even stand—much less try to explore the ship. When I heard the Brown ladies come in to change into dinner attire, I could only screw my eyes tighter and pray that this nausea would vanish.
“Oh la,” Laure said, hovering over me. She had just finished donning her evening wear. “You are ill?”
I cracked open an eyelid. “The boat . . . it won’t stop moving.”
She laughed. “Oui. That is ’ow it usually works.” She flicked her hand toward the portholes. “It helps to be outside, you know. Watching the ’orizon keeps your digestion calm.”
She dragged me into a sitting position. “And it is best on the first-class promenade deck.”
“But we aren’t first class.”
“Pas de problème. One must simply sneak onto the first-class deck when all its passengers are at dinner.”
She helped me stand. Her eyes briefly settled on my missing hand but then passed on to my undoubtedly green face. “I can take you there and then we can go to dinner.”
“But . . .” I waved helplessly at my gown as we made our way to the door. “This is all I have to wear.” Heat crept up my neck, and at the sympathetic swoop in Laure’s eyebrows, I dropped my gaze.
She sighed. “Then you can stay on the deck, where it is no matter what you wear, and I will go to supper.” She towed me toward the main stairwell I had circled around earlier, and we climbed it three floors up before finally stepping into the first-class saloon.
“This is where all of the first-class passengers will spend most of their day-to-day time,” Laure explained as we walked through. “It is not so different from the second-class saloon.”
I nodded, my eyes flicking around. The room reminded me of my family’s parlor—or as the parlor used to look before I had sold everything. There was a grand piano in one corner, oak and ebony bookcases along the walls, and red velvet armchairs and sofas strategically placed throughout.
Skylights overhead showed an orange sky, and plate glass mirrors shone with reflected light.
We reached a door at the end of the room, and Laure planted her shoulder against it and shoved.
“The wind outside is strong. Nice but strong.”
The instant she got the door open, air blasted into me. My heart flipped, and my ears strained, expecting to hear hounds at any moment.
But no—this was a different wind. A real wind.
Tugging at my sleeves, I followed Laure onto the giant, empty deck. Smokestacks and masts spanned before me with awnings placed strategically between. Chairs and benches were also around, and Laure guided me to one at the ship’s aft.
“Sit ’ere!” She had to shout to be heard over the wind. “It is the best view, and you can watch the sunset. I will ’ave a server bring you something to eat.” She deposited me on a bench facing the western sky. “And if you think you will lose your stomach”—she patted her bodice—“do not do it in our room, oui?”
“Yes.” I gave her a tight smile. “Thank you.”
She swatted my words aside. “See you in the cabin later.” Then she whirled around and strode off.
With a sigh, I slumped back on the bench. I did feel better now.
We were still within sight of the coast, but it was too distant for me to discern much beyond marshland.