Touching Melody

6

Maddie

Several Beats





The sun beats down as though it’s desperately trying to elevate my mood.

It’s still September, and there’s a slight chill in the morning air. Bellam Springs has three seasons: Summer, Winter, and Fring, which is the two weeks between Summer and Winter where it’s almost like Fall and Spring combined. Fring. My mother made that word up when I was little and it stuck. I kind of like it.

That’s what today feels like, a beautiful Fring day. I hurry into the cafeteria, punch my code into the console, and grab a bagel, cream cheese, and a glass of orange juice. The smell of coffee and bacon fill the room and I debate bacon. But the line is long and I don’t have time. I want to practice the piano an hour before my first class.

There’s a tiny round table in the corner near one of several large windows, and I sit. After I smear cream cheese on half a bagel, I take a bite. The air is crackling with anticipation. It’s my first day of college. I’m giddy. I feel grown up.

The cafeteria is packed. People are in groups, just like the high schools I’ve seen in the movies, and I’m surprised. One long table is filled with kids, all chatting and laughing loudly. I can’t help wondering what they’re talking about.

I take another bite of bagel and put my ear buds in. Scrolling through my music, I find the piece I’m going to practice—Nocturne No. 2 in E—and press play. It starts out slow, whimsical.

As I listen, Kyle walks in. His hair is wet and rumpled. Like he got out of the shower and shook it dry. He’s wearing a tight blue t-shirt that accentuates every muscle in his arms, chest, and abs. His jeans sit low on his hips. The two who were with him at the party last night flank him. They look hung over, but still beautiful. I wonder if they stayed the night with him. And if they did, what they did. I think about his offer to join them, and what that would’ve entailed. My cheeks get hot. I look away, taking another bite of my bagel, but I can’t keep my traitorous eyes from his body.

The music playing in my ears speeds up, and so does my heart.

Kyle glances over, his eyes locking on mine, and a smile spreads across his lips.

He remembers me. And I realize I’m really excited. All the times we hung out together—in his room, in my room, listening to music, talking about what we wanted in life, rushing through homework—it bubbles up and runs over. I’ve missed him terribly.

He whispers something to the girls and then strolls over, leaving them to fend for themselves. My heart leaps. Butterflies escape, spread their wings and flutter lightly in my stomach. What will he say? I can’t help but notice the way people in the cafeteria watch his movements. He’s like one end of a magnet. Everyone is drawn to him.

Including me.

I sit up straight and pull out an ear bud.

“Hi,” I say when he’s close. My heart skips several beats.

“Hey.” He places both hands on the edge of a chair and leans forward. I can smell his aftershave and a hint of vanilla... his shampoo? “Didn’t I see you at a party last night?” He licks his lips and I’m mesmerized. “What’s your name?” he asks.

I blink several times, open my mouth and close it, trying not to look like a trout. My bagel drops onto the napkin.

He doesn’t know who I am. I can’t believe it. Am I really that forgettable?

The girls he left behind have sauntered up next to him. They aren’t twins but they are dressed alike: white button shirts undone to their belly buttons with crisp collars, navy miniskirts, over-the-knee navy socks, and black, super high Mary Janes. Their shoes say slut, I’ve decided.

One of the girls drapes a hand through Kyle’s arm. She glares at me before smiling brightly at Kyle. “Let’s eat,” she coos.

Trying not to gag, I stand. “No. Sorry. I thought you were someone else.” I pick up my music and my iPod and move to leave. “You’re welcome to sit here, if you want,” I say and skirt around them.

His smile falters, but only for a second. “Thanks.” As I walk by he makes a point to grab the girls’ asses. They squeal and giggle.

Yeah, he’s a jerk. I didn’t check his shoes, but I’m sure they scream jerk.

Because you were too busy staring at his gorgeous face and beautiful body, I think, disgusted with myself.

I huff. He probably had on really expensive shoes. Pretentious a*shole shoes. I’m tempted to turn back and look, but I don’t. It’s better if we stay as far from each other as possible.



Kyle



As soon as Maddie leaves I ditch the girls. Last night was fun, but that’s it.

“Thanks again. See ya around.” I pat them both on the back. This is always the awkward part.

Baby grabs my arm. “Wait. I—Let’s do it again sometime.” She winks.

I smile. “Laters, Baby,” I say flippantly, and pry her fingers from my arm. The girl is way too needy, and not nearly as into girls as her girlfriend thinks. I feel kinda bad for Beth. At least she knows what she wants. “I had a great time.” I squeeze Beth’s hand. Of the two I like her best, which is sad because Beth is shooting daggers my way. While we were in the moment she seemed to enjoy herself. Guess that’s changed.

The girls sit at the table where Maddie sat only moments ago. My heart lurches, and that makes me angry.

At least that’s what I keep telling myself. Every time I’m near her, my body proves I’m lying. And it irritates the hell out of me.

I grab some bacon and a slice of cheddar. Slap the ingredients between two pieces of toast and eat as I make my way over to the piano rooms.

My music professor asked me at the end of my freshman year to play a duet for the Winter Gala this year. I’ve got to practice. As it is I’ll probably only get in an hour this morning.





Maddie



The practice rooms are in the basement of the Fine Arts Center. My shoes skim down the stairs. The padding echoes off the walls. I push open one of the heavy double doors, and am rewarded with one of my favorite sounds.

Music.

It’s loud and soft. Heavy and light. Staccato and legato. Classical and jazz. Rock and roll. It’s the sounds of every emotion that ever existed, all bottled up in individual rooms. I make my way down the hall slowly.

This is my church.

My home.

The best place in the world.

I stop in front of a door and peer inside. It’s empty except for a piano and a bench. My breathing slows, my heart settles. The door closes behind me with a click. My body unwinds. I place my music on the stand and sit.

Another breath.

Nothing exists but the keys, the way they press against the strings and form a sound. Beautiful or angry. It’s there because of me, tattooed in the air because I created the sound with the press of a finger.

I scoot the bench, adjust my butt, and begin.

Scales first. I start at middle C. The left hand plays down and the right plays up in synchrony. Without skipping a beat I move to the next set of scales. My breathing keeps time with my hands. I rock back and forth slightly, allowing my body to feel the beat, my fingers to warm up and adjust to the keys of an unfamiliar piano.

By the time I’m halfway through my world shifts and I feel better, right. For the first time in two days, there is no Gina and her sad face, her words shredding the room with hurt. No Kyle and his beautiful smile or his ass-grabbing hands. There’s only this room and these keys and my fingers forming notes. There is only crescendo and decrescendo, allegro and adagio. Notes played together in chords.

After fifteen minutes I move on to the piece I want to play for Professor Jenkins. I’ll see him tomorrow for my piano lesson. It’s an honor to be taught by the Professor and not one of the graduate students, so I want to be prepared.

But as I begin, Kyle’s face fills my mind. It blocks out my peace. Instead of notes I see his dark messy hair and his light blue eyes.

Slamming my hands against the keys, I stand. The clock on my iPod says my first class starts in ten minutes. I grab my stuff and dash out the door. I don’t even have a pencil.