Chapter 22
Michael
Of course I’ll drive,” my father says when I tell him I want to go to Cleveland, if nothing else so that when the police find him, I’ll be halfway there. Yet I dare not brave these wintry roads in my little Honda.
“I was thinking I could just borrow your SUV.”
“Have you slept all night? Certainly not. Driving sleepless is like driving drunk. I’ll be over as soon as I can.”
“I can bring Casey, we’ll take turns driving.”
“I’m sure she didn’t sleep, either.”
I can’t refute this. Neither of us suggests I bring Mallory along. For one thing, she doesn’t have a license anymore.
“I will drive you,” my dad says, hanging up the phone before I have time to argue.
“I’m going to shovel the drive,” I announce to the house in general, though Jewel is reading in her room, Angel is upstairs on her phone, and Casey is on her computer downstairs forwarding Dylan’s picture to anyone and everyone she can think of.
I need air. Plus, I’d feel bad if Dad broke his neck on our front walk.
I sip in the cold outside. Mallory must have turned up the thermostat, because it’s gotten warmer than usual in there. I watch it carefully because heat costs a fortune and the house is old and drafty. That was one of our classic fights. What started as “Stop turning up the heat” would result in her shouting, “You don’t care about me!” and would usually veer into crazy territory from there, about how I obviously didn’t care about her because I was having an affair.
The snow is wet and heavy, the kind that causes heart attacks when old folks try to clear their own driveways.
Early in my career we had a huge morning snowstorm, and some photographers went out to shoot a photo for the standard front-page weather story. One of them took an ordinary shot of “man shovels driveway,” with the snow flying dramatically off the shovel. Later in the morning, I fielded a strange call.
It was the man’s neighbor. Just minutes after that picture, the man had dropped to the ground with a heart attack and was not expected to live. The neighbor had seen the photographer taking the picture and had the presence of mind to call and beg us not to run it.
We replaced the picture, and the man died later that day, in the hospital.
I stop to lean on my shovel, panting with effort, and remember watching Dylan as he got swallowed up by the school doors.
“Mike!”
Mallory is on the porch, wearing one of my old heavy coats. As I look up, she picks her way down the slick steps. “Mike, I hate to bug you, but . . . would it be okay if you drove me home for a change of clothes? I can’t keep wearing your sweats, and I don’t think Casey wants me raiding her closet. Not that I could fit in her Gymboree pixie clothes anyway.”
“Mal.”
“Oh, come on, I’m kidding.”
I would like to have Casey drive her, or even Angel, with her learner’s permit, could technically do it. But the roads are terrible.
“C’mon, Mike. I just want to grab some clothes and a toothbrush. Is that so unreasonable?”
“Fine. Let me at least clear a path, here.”
I put the shovel back on the porch, and Mallory comes out the door with her purse.
“I’ve gotta tell Casey . . .”
“I told her,” Mallory says, brushing past me on the way to the car. “She’s fine.” Mallory plops herself in the passenger seat. “Didn’t this used to be your dad’s?”
“My mom’s, actually.”
“Oh, that’s right. I remember.”
My mom’s old Honda. She never wanted anything flashy, despite my dad’s love for his SUV, so she tended to drive a Honda until my father would deem it too old and buy her a new one.
Then he’d give it to me, so I’ve been driving my mother’s hand-me-down Hondas for years.
I hate this goddamn car and everything it means. But I don’t want to have to choose between paying for band camp or making a car payment.
“You’ll have your own car one day,” Mallory says, patting my knee as I crank up the cold engine.
This is a rare peek for me inside Mallory’s apartment. Usually I’m in the car, and the kids go in or out the front door guided by Mallory, when she’s home, when she’s not “ill.” No reason I don’t go up to the door, I just don’t, and everyone seems to like it that way. Never the twain shall meet.
The inside of Mallory’s apartment looks like Mallory’s dorm room circa 1993.
Cast-off clothing covers every surface. She’s peppered the walls with cheap posters depicting landscapes and sunsets. The ceiling of the living room is covered with greenish plastic stars, the kind that glow in the dark when you shut the lights off. There’s a bead curtain between her living room and hallway. It rattles as she pushes through it toward the back.
Strewn on the floor are some toys I’ve never seen, which must be Jewel’s. This rankles, to know that she has a life I’m not part of, even if it’s only some of the weekends.
“Sit down!” Mallory calls from within the apartment, presumably her bedroom, where she’s packing a bag. “Make yourself comfortable!”
I wander into the dining area, just a nook off the living room, really.
She’s got framed photos of the kids on the wall, their eight-by-ten school photos, and I notice that these are the photos from the year she moved out. I know she has the new ones, I always make sure she gets some at my own expense. Is it laziness that prevents her from putting the fresh pictures in the frame? Or is it nostalgia for a time when we were all together?
There are snapshots half spilling out of a photo-place envelope among the detritus on her kitchen table. I tilt my head to look at the top one. It’s Mallory wearing a bikini on a fishing boat, a burly guy’s arm possessively around her shoulders. They’re both pink with sunburn.
“Jealous?” she says, coming from the back and noticing me looking at the pictures.
“Ha,” I say. “Good luck to him.”
She comes over to stand next to me. She’s squirted on some perfume. I don’t remember what it’s called, but she did used to wear it when we were married. She looks down to see which photo I’ve seen.
“Oh, him. He’s over, anyway.”
“Did the kids ever meet him?”
“No. Not that it’s any of your business.”
“Like hell it isn’t.”
“Like I have any say in who you date, or get engaged to, or bring into the house to live.”
“You knew all about her.”
“Not at first.”
“It was just a few dates, then.”
“You were kissing her. And I had to hear it from Angel.”
“I didn’t know she’d seen us. And . . . God, just stop.”
My voice rings overly loud in the small space. In the silence that follows we glare at each other, and the tinny sounds of the neighbor’s television float through the wall.
My cell phone rings. “Hi, Case. I’m on my way back.”
Her voice echoes weirdly on my phone, but I can make out “police” and “Cleveland.”
“Oh, God, is he okay?” I walk closer to the doorway, trying to get a better signal. Mallory follows like a shadow.
“Yes, he’s fine. They picked him and the girl up for shoplifting. He’s at the police station, and I’ve got the address . . .”
With Casey still talking in my ear, Mallory flings herself at me and wraps her arms around my waist, her face on my chest. I put one arm around her, reflexively.
“I’ll be right back. Map it for me, will you?”
“Where are you, anyway?” She sounds baffled, unhappy.
“I ran Mallory home to get a change of clothes. I’ll be right there.”
I hang up and Mallory holds tighter, murmuring, Thank God, thank God, thank God, into my chest, and I steal a moment to sink into relief with her, the other parent, who regardless of her faults is the only other person who can really understand how this feels.
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